Once upon a time I was "impressive" by the world's standards.
I had it all. I was smart and a go-getter. I had a great family and potential future. I was great at my job! (I was just reflecting on my old resume and lists of "accomplishments" and it DOES look prrrrreeeettttty "impressive"! UNNNNFORTUNATELY I was SO carnal... everything was about me me me and ...well... I guess that's what God wanted me to be so I could see that and be the OPPOSITE now.
How will I do that? How will I keep myself from puffing up about (a.) who I WAS or even (b.) who I could be? How do I stay humble and allow my works to speak for themself? God. Focus on GOD!
Sooooo today, 5/9, I *jumped* again. I committed to moving in and renting a room from Jen & Joey (what a BLESSING) and I have applied to two jobs (Ai & Verizon Wireless) and submitted my resume to T'he Hartford as well (though there are no jobs in Pittsburgh that I would be a candidate for). Rue is now playing with all the dogs here (that makes 15 dogs on premises!! 3 big labs, 11 little puppies, and 1 Rue! Eep!)!
I don't know if I told you that God rocked my world with Joshua 23 the other day (which essentially showed me that this was my last chance and I better obey. THEN today He gave me scripture to go along with what the Holy Spirit told me on Saturday (that what was happening with Jen's mom was what would happen to me if I didn't obey.)... today I met Patty and then God told me to go read (and then He grasped my heart with) 2 Chronicles 7:12-22. tears.
Take the World But Give Me Jesus
Note: I feel like I am in the center of God's will. Everything makes sense. (Even though it makes NO sense at all.) All of what God has taken me to and through meets here - today - this moment.
There is so much more to unfold and that the Lord will continue to reveal His plan for me and light my steps... but I am on a path ...on these stepping stones... [sometimes] jumping stones...and as He lights one, I must go there and wait for the next stone to be lit. This is my path and I must stay on it...
...now that I know that, I am accountable to it. I am accountable tow hat I know. I am learning how to walk. It's not about what anyone else is doing, but only what God is doing in and through me.
Just listen and be responsive to GOD. He knows what He's doing! <-- that's so obvious that it almost feels blasphemous because it humanizes Him... makes Him small. He is SO BIG! LORD, YOU are EVERYTHING!!!!!!
Monday, May 9, 2011
Sunday, May 1, 2011
Forsaking All
I MUST have FAITH and be OBEDIENT to the call of the Holy Spirit. I must go and see....test the spirits.... seek God with reckless abandon... God has given me this year (this month left) to seek Him with my whole heart....
Lord, show me the TRUTH....
I pray for more and more and more spiritual wisdom, understanding, and discernment and a clean heart and renewed loyalty to YOU ALONE, God.
I feel called to go search the scriptures/ study the Bible at Wexford with other people who God has removed the blinders from. God, please give me discernment to test the spirits. I want to follow you and not a deceptive spirit. I think that I must react the way Hilkia the priest who found the book of the law and brought it to the king who realized what they were dealing with and obeyed accordingly (2 Chronicles 34:14-33) that now that I have SEEN this, I must OBEY. I must take it SERIOUSLY and tell others to take it seriously too!
I am taking a leave from Journey (I left CG coach/tech, creative leadership team, ABOHG/ single professionals leadership, Triangle Church Planting Network, a potential job, and fully paid missions trips to Honduras and Uganda).
I am leaving my house and friends and comfort and dog... at least for now....to see what God wants to teach me and if He gives me peace in Pittsburgh/ Wexford, PA. I must be RESPONSIVE.
I am more and more convinced that you CAN attain the perfected/ sanctified state. If I can't, I know that my efforts will honor God. God despises sin (Carissa, find some scripture to back that up!)! I don't know if I believe that you can stay there (sinless)...but like Lori said, God will show me. He's shown me many other things that she and Mark have said...confirmation in His Word....
I don't know God's plan but I believe that I am meant to be up there and a part of their church - at least for this season - so I will go in faith. Your will be done, God. I exist for Your glory and hope and pray that you will sanctify me fully and send me out as you did so many other faithful followers!
Good scripture from today so far (look up and study more later!!):
Romans 6
John 17
2 Chronicles 34
Ephesians 1
2 Corinthians 11 + Matthew 6:23 & Luke 11:35
Naptime. I only had 4 hours of sleep.... eep!! (I haven't been sleeping much... I MUST sleep so I can make good decisions!)
Muah to me!
<3
ps. Shannon just sent me a quote from bondage breaker: "those who deny the enemy's potential for destruction are the most vulnerable to it." - We had a GREAT lunch... VERY honest and she was actually such an ENCOURAGEMENT to me... encouraging me to seek truth and said she did the same thing a few years ago. :)
Lord, show me the TRUTH....
I pray for more and more and more spiritual wisdom, understanding, and discernment and a clean heart and renewed loyalty to YOU ALONE, God.
I feel called to go search the scriptures/ study the Bible at Wexford with other people who God has removed the blinders from. God, please give me discernment to test the spirits. I want to follow you and not a deceptive spirit. I think that I must react the way Hilkia the priest who found the book of the law and brought it to the king who realized what they were dealing with and obeyed accordingly (2 Chronicles 34:14-33) that now that I have SEEN this, I must OBEY. I must take it SERIOUSLY and tell others to take it seriously too!
I am taking a leave from Journey (I left CG coach/tech, creative leadership team, ABOHG/ single professionals leadership, Triangle Church Planting Network, a potential job, and fully paid missions trips to Honduras and Uganda).
I am leaving my house and friends and comfort and dog... at least for now....to see what God wants to teach me and if He gives me peace in Pittsburgh/ Wexford, PA. I must be RESPONSIVE.
I am more and more convinced that you CAN attain the perfected/ sanctified state. If I can't, I know that my efforts will honor God. God despises sin (Carissa, find some scripture to back that up!)! I don't know if I believe that you can stay there (sinless)...but like Lori said, God will show me. He's shown me many other things that she and Mark have said...confirmation in His Word....
I don't know God's plan but I believe that I am meant to be up there and a part of their church - at least for this season - so I will go in faith. Your will be done, God. I exist for Your glory and hope and pray that you will sanctify me fully and send me out as you did so many other faithful followers!
Good scripture from today so far (look up and study more later!!):
Romans 6
John 17
2 Chronicles 34
Ephesians 1
2 Corinthians 11 + Matthew 6:23 & Luke 11:35
Naptime. I only had 4 hours of sleep.... eep!! (I haven't been sleeping much... I MUST sleep so I can make good decisions!)
Muah to me!
<3
ps. Shannon just sent me a quote from bondage breaker: "those who deny the enemy's potential for destruction are the most vulnerable to it." - We had a GREAT lunch... VERY honest and she was actually such an ENCOURAGEMENT to me... encouraging me to seek truth and said she did the same thing a few years ago. :)
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