Growing Pains

It's normal. It's natural. Growing pains are a part of the process. Embrace them. Think of them as "suffering" - think of them as a gift- an honor- to be ABLE to feel and experience them. That means that you are on the right track- you are growing. Growing up and not growing down. Growing down would be easy- growing UP is hard... it requires stretching and reaching and leaping and sometimes falling.

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I want to be broken and cracking and creaking and I want to want God. I want to NEED God. I want to be totally dependent on God. I want to remember to want to be totally dependant on God.

God brought me Jaime today. A gift. He gave me someone else to love. I am SO blessed by the people God puts in my path - in my life - to love and care for. People He has given me to learn from and to "do life" with. Jaime shared one of her favorite verses with me and I think it goes along perfectly with what is going on in my heart (or is it my mind?) now:

"In his kindness God called you to share in his eternal glory by means of Christ Jesus. So after you have suffered a little while, he will restore, support, and strengthen you, and he will place you on a firm foundation."  1 Peter 5:10

Sweet! Growing pains. It's all part of it!

Here's the situation... I can NOT be NOT busy. I HAVE to stay busy. I was busy all day and then I got home and I feel overwhelmed with the task at hand. (God has given me work to do- He's given me an assignment and we don't have much time! I certainly don't have time to waste.) But when I sit down and try to do things on my own power- I am overwhelmed and burdened. On the other hand, when I let God have the reigns... when I let Him work on His time by His power, I am blessed.

I think what He is trying to tell me is to take a deep breath and then pray (in process - which led me to write this blog) and then put on some praise music (because EVERYTHING is better/easier when you are doing it with a heart full of praise!) and then let the Spirit work. I am just a vessel...

"We now have this light shining in our hearts, but we ourselves are like fragile clay jars containing this great treasure. This makes it clear that our power is from God, not from ourselves." 2 Corinthians 4:7
  
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Lord, Thank you for the people and situations and obstacles and adventures that you put in my life. Thank you for using me as an example of Your power and love and mercy and grace. God, it's ALL YOU. Everything is for, by, with, in, and from YOU- my Jehovah-Jireh! THANK YOU, Father! Love, me. Amen