Energy Signatures.

We're liars in our energy signature.

I'm a liar in my energy signature.

I use energy (or withholding it) as punishment.

Energy signatures are how I communicate... words are how I gaslight.

This is how we gaslight... we say one thing and we "SAY" the "RIGHT" thing... but we are sending another message below the surface which may be the opposite.

That one lady - no names - but the one who has been given as a teacher (everyone is teachers, I guess), anyway... she alluded to how I had "yelled at her via text"... first of all it was FB messenger, but whatever. But what I SAID was something like "it looks like you moved your horse in with the cow, I wish you had spoken to me about it first." Actually that's exactly what I said... very simple and fair and straightforward. It does call one to consider that maybe they should have spoken to me first so maybe there is some guilt at play here, but what I have just put together is that the ENERGY SIGNATURE of what I wrote was where I was SCREAMING. I was. I was crying and panicking and angry inside so that was written into the message. Those withOUT eyes to see or ears to hear are both lucky in that they don't have to hear all the layers of stuff involved, but they are also easily tricked and "gaslit".

This is how I played mind games with, well everybody, but for sure Tyrone and Joe... I made them crrrrrazy. And I tricked myself because half of me DIDN'T have eyes to see... half of me thought I was righteous and an angel and in the right and ... a VICTIM. The other half was a manipulative narcissist trying to make those I was supposed to love into food for my ego so that I could feel strong (since I made them feel weak).

I'm ... I was... a real shit.

Thank you, God, for opening my eyes and heart to see it now.