Blessing from God

I need to journal but I can type faster... but I need to process... but how can I? Where do I start?

GOD LOVES ME!!! I feel so blessed and honored - Gabriel called out of the blue - I've never talked to him before - but I WAS going to have an energy work session with him a few weeks ago, but canceled because it didn't seem right, but today he had a message for me - and by message I mean a massive download of healing and help and soul retrieval and clearing and... it's beyond me. It seems like a dream.

He spoke in light language to me a lot and my soul heard and will integrate but what do I need to remember?

Native American - I for sure have some Native American lifetimes - I was given a totum and a purple feather and there was something about a tomahawk. I was called out of cowardice into the battle - the honor or going to battle, even to the death - the honor.

There was something about orphanages - Gabriel said he was in an orphanage with me at some point. It triggered my guilt feelings re: Whisper in Uganda. He said it wasn't time.

I am broken for children, the earth, people who respect the earth (like Indians), the dying. Did I help an old man to transit? So much around Native Americans. Sioux was top of mind though I didn't discuss her - is she involved?

Who is the man who sent Gabriel? Pappy? Arto? Arto?

I AM LOVED. I am healed.

Eat cruciferous vegetables. I don't need to eat as much as I think. Nuts. NOT peanuts or corn - unless it's blue corn from, he said New Mexico. Corn and peanuts have been cursed.

So much crying.
I felt led to ask him about "23" and he just got a video on it that he didn't share but he shared it... I think it's pretty heavy. But it seems that I am mean to learn.

Take epsom salt bath.

Thank you. GOD. THANK YOU.

Thank you for seeing and loving me. Help me to see and love YOU and ALL WE ARE. Be with the earth.

I don't need ANYTHING - no cards, rocks, books, etc... just me and my light.

How did this happen? I didn't initiate it - it just came to me - this blessing and healing and ... God, thank you. Holy Father and Holy Mother.

Clearing out old traumas, old archons, old patterns, old demons, old snarls... I am healed and whole and becoming stronger.

The cords are not harmful... I guess I should cut some if led, but these cords allow my Light to continue helping, holding, healing, loving others even just through my own evolution and growth and healing. I AM LOVE.

Thank you.
What was my beautiful prayer? The one when I was broken about Joe and alcoholism? Or the giving up my bitterness? I don't know... maybe none of these, but thank you for hearing my heart. Help me to be true and vulnerable and turn me into a vessel for .... I just want to be a healer for the earth and all we are.

I have sustained pain - something when I was a baby (or maybe that was just as an Indian?) ... something when I was 3. I connected that to SRA. Drinking babies. God. I have been defiled and broken and tricked into thinking I was the - gaslit into thinking I was the assailant. I create my own story. I am one with the earth - I am an earth mother? I am pure. I AM LOVE - I am LIGHT - healing, hope, health, wellness, compassion, wellbeing.

The guru vines have been pulled out - Dr. Wilson, Lori, Michael?

Thanks be to God.

I am being restored. These dogs are my friends. These animals are my friends.

I help Michael.

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Grateful. Breathe. Spend time outdoors. We are with you. I am with you. We are one. Breathe.