GIVE (instead of take)

We've been raping our earth for so long... just taking and taking and taking from her. Stripping her nutrients, ripping out her trees, slathering toxins all over her... this is is the macrocosm of what we've been doing in our microcosms and it MUST STOP.

This is why the little actions of learning to care for and love our animals, and gardens are making a difference... this is why as we turn back to the earth, we are growing in consciousness as she gives her breath back to us. 

BALANCE.

We must give and love and serve our beautiful Mother Earth, our beautiful planet. We can't fry her with chemicals... we need to nurture her in love. And it begins with our little spaces, our little places. Our little decisions. Our precious moments. Choose life.

CHOOSE LIFE.

Thank you for teaching me, Mother. 

Witchcraft

My brain is scrambled by toxic girl scout cookies but I have wanted to try to get this down before it flies out the window, so I'm going to try. I have talked to a couple people about this "epiphany" and they appreciated it so I think I'm on to something... Source is on to something and teaching me... I'm very 3D right now so I need to take a breath and sink into my true essence. Hang on...

So a couple weeks ago some new neighbors moved in and they brought help to move them. His name was George. When I met him I wondered if he was an energy worker. I thought about it a bit and then asked him, "Are you an energy worker"? And everyone around was like "What a strange question! Why would you ask him that?" and he was also surprised and said "How did you know? Yes, I am." It turns out he is Wiccan and called himself a white witch (I think... maybe he didn't....maybe that's just what I heard? I don't think men are "witches"... "warlocks" maybe?)... anyway, he said he works with LIGHT / Earth energy "pushing and pulling it" he said. Anyway,  I liked him. In meditation I was led to give him one of my favorite crystals, actually one that my friend Ammi gave me, it was a quartz and amethyst wand. Really lovely. But it was also part of my lesson that nothing is "mine" so I gave it to him and passed him a message that he was seen or something. Anyway... a little while later I could tell he wanted to reciprocate the blessing and he told me that I should take one of my crystals and on a waxing moon, to bury it a couple inches under the ground and then on the next waxing moon I should dig it up and that the earth would bring forth her blessings for me".  Something LIKE that. Something harmless and beautiful and earth-honoring and lovely. It was really sweet but I realized that there was something to learn from it. Was it related to the moon? This year I've learned more about the moon energy and feel like it is phantom energy ... shadow energy... something I don't really want to bask in. But I don't think that was the lesson. I had to ask for more information on witchcraft.

Since coming into "faith" and especially since being brainwashed ... ah hem... since studying the bible intently and allowing people to share (and impose) their opinions on me about it, I've demonized "witchcraft" and carried a lot of fear around it. I couldn't really discern what it was about it... and I was confused because even in the bible, Samuel is brought back from the dead and is quite frankly indignant about it. So it IS a thing. The power is there... just demonized by the church. So as I have questioned everything I've wondered if it is truly evil, or if this is a control measure. I think there is a smidge of both. But I still wonder. I've feared the "Gaia" website and materials. for years because I was afraid it had to do with "witchcraft". I feared energy and earth and people who saw and expressed their God differently. I feared smudging with sage and ended up throwing away a precious gift that someone gave me because I was afraid I was practicing witchcraft. Afterwards I wondered why I thought that... so these are a few examples of my inquiry into it...but mostly I wanted to know what GOD thought of it. Where was purity in this realm? I wanted to be involved in energy - were the chakras and pendulums and muscle testing and auras and angel cards and crystals and all the things in my new favorite metaphysical stores really dragging me away from the LIGHT?

During my first energy reading with an intuitive, she said that I had messed around with trying to manipulate energies (or something) in my past. I wish I had a recording of that session but I don't... anyway, it freaked me out and set me on edge because I didn't know what I had done wrong. I used a Ouiji board when I was in high school with friends and I had a Magic 8 Ball which I threw away after going through "Steps to Freedom In Christ" in 2005ish.

Okay, so the point is I really wanted to know where "the line" was. What made something witchcraft and I think that George and this blessed experience helped me to narrow it down some. It seems to me that the LINE is where I start to try to CONTROL energy... when I start to try to manipulate Mother Earth or Father God to GIVE ME something. If I had buried a crystal in the hopes that I would dig up a blessing, that's me trying to manipulate circumstances in order to ATTAIN something. Instead I want to just accept and appreciate and explore and see and dance with and feel and interact with and learn from WHAT IS. We are energy beings and invisible sources - my Guides and Ascension Teams are supporting me and they are supernatural and I am so grateful!!! (THANK YOU!!!!)

So I guess that's it. Witchcraft (to me) is manipulating energy...that's what I want to stay away from. So was my "pushing down" exercise me trying to manipulate energy? I think so. But if I just try to connect with and support and see what IS...I AM an energy being and it moves through me... so just be with it. But what about shielding? Is that me trying to build a protective fortress?? Isn't that manipulating energy? I don't know. Seems like my guides are leading me to practice this to help strengthen my energy body and remove entities and parasites and fill in wormholes and cut cords... so... more to think about. But it does seem to help. And maybe that's just because I'm beginning to connect with what IS and who I AM.

I could probably hemm and hawwwww about this for a while. That's what I've got for now.  MUAH!

ps. I'm SOOOOOO grateful for Energetic Synthesis and all the amazing tools and information that is given through that resource. Thanks be to God for your support. I'm sorry that I'm disconnected some because of the toxic poison I ate. I don't want to anymore... I want to eat well. I want to NOURISH my body, my vessel, so my whole self, my true self, my avatar and monad and oversoul and all the selves can be embodied here. It's my earth suit... to help me do my work well here. I need it and need to care for it. Would I take a shoddy, hole-y, tattered, unkept suit to space?? No. Same here... take care of the Earth suit.  Love you little one. Love YOU Big One! ;)

I don't WANT it!

Well, I need to document the advice Le'Anna just gave me - great advice for this addict who's been battling this particular addiction for 10+ years. (More, but I was told by God Himself to clean this up back in 2010 when He gave me a glimpse of the "Daniel Fast" and then said that was the way to eat. So why I am I not doing it??

He told me that sugar separates me from Him and consumes me with desire for consumption... it's toxic poison. My first blogs way back when probably talk about it too.... and yet I STILL toy with that devil. I've had some short lived success, a month here and a month there, but ultimately I'm still hooked. I've been doing Dr. Wilson's program for 3.5 years and for the most part I haven't eaten fruit and I've eaten "fart in a pot" almost every day... multiple meals for many days. But I have still "cheated" now and then and instead of fruit, I eat ice cream or cookies or pizza ... just CRAP.

So... anyway... LE'ANNA's advice was to NOT say "I CAN'T have that"... but instead say "I DON'T WANT to have that"!! Of course I can do what I want, and the "I can't have" makes me rise up in rebellion against myself and say "Oh yeah??? Watch me!" So... maybe this will work. I mean, I KNOW it's toxic poison. I know it's a trick to keep me sick and addicted. I know it will ultimately kill me. So why do I do it? Why does "it tastes so good" trump LIFE and PEACE??? (and GOD!!!!)

*Note, I call God "Him" in this article because I'm referring to a time when I thought of God in this limited way...now I see "Him" as "ALL" or "Source" or "Unity".... it's more than one big dude in the sky and simply all-encompassing and indescribable and I AM THAT.

Anyway, I don't want poison anymore. I don't want it. I just don't choose it. That's all there is to it. I am taking my sovereignty and freedom seriously. I AM GOD and I AM here to heal the world, one dysfunctional thought at a time. I choose LIFE.