I don't WANT it!

Well, I need to document the advice Le'Anna just gave me - great advice for this addict who's been battling this particular addiction for 10+ years. (More, but I was told by God Himself to clean this up back in 2010 when He gave me a glimpse of the "Daniel Fast" and then said that was the way to eat. So why I am I not doing it??

He told me that sugar separates me from Him and consumes me with desire for consumption... it's toxic poison. My first blogs way back when probably talk about it too.... and yet I STILL toy with that devil. I've had some short lived success, a month here and a month there, but ultimately I'm still hooked. I've been doing Dr. Wilson's program for 3.5 years and for the most part I haven't eaten fruit and I've eaten "fart in a pot" almost every day... multiple meals for many days. But I have still "cheated" now and then and instead of fruit, I eat ice cream or cookies or pizza ... just CRAP.

So... anyway... LE'ANNA's advice was to NOT say "I CAN'T have that"... but instead say "I DON'T WANT to have that"!! Of course I can do what I want, and the "I can't have" makes me rise up in rebellion against myself and say "Oh yeah??? Watch me!" So... maybe this will work. I mean, I KNOW it's toxic poison. I know it's a trick to keep me sick and addicted. I know it will ultimately kill me. So why do I do it? Why does "it tastes so good" trump LIFE and PEACE??? (and GOD!!!!)

*Note, I call God "Him" in this article because I'm referring to a time when I thought of God in this limited way...now I see "Him" as "ALL" or "Source" or "Unity".... it's more than one big dude in the sky and simply all-encompassing and indescribable and I AM THAT.

Anyway, I don't want poison anymore. I don't want it. I just don't choose it. That's all there is to it. I am taking my sovereignty and freedom seriously. I AM GOD and I AM here to heal the world, one dysfunctional thought at a time. I choose LIFE.