https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Healing_our_Heart
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zXEQ_DY-5Co - Great Night
Ramsey is showing me what a loving and kind friend (which extends to my future partner) looks and feels like. It's authenticity, kindness, listening, caring, sharing. Making time to touch base. Sharing feelings and experiences. Talking. Dreaming. Healing. My heart is expanding and healing.
Yesterday or the day before I listened to a clip from my audio journal called "anal goodbye" and it's heartbreaking to hear what I've been through... and I kept trying ... putting myself back in position to be hurt over and over and over. Why?
I've watched half of the movie "Mavka: The Forest Song" so far and it's so good!
Nature is my Source, Healer, Inspiration. And I'm so grateful for the resonance of things that are in tune with her.
God bless Ryan. He tries. But we're just not on the same page. I don't want fast food, TV, loveless sexual activity. I thought I could earn it or trade these things he likes for what I like...but I still haven't "gotten mine" and it's been a year and 8 months. I'm fine.
I can't imagine anyone better than Ramsey for me. Why is Ramsey so far away? Because God wanted us to learn our lessons and grow together in heart and spirit and then see where it goes. And maybe just to teach me... he may be a placeholder and teacher and maybe God has my guy around here. I don't think I am at the caliber of beauty Ramsey is... I hate to say that I'm not "good enough" because I am.... but I may not be his girl... and I DO want him to have a family and pregnant fairy wife ... he deserves all the best things, he's so beautiful. I even liked arguing with him. Last week I think it was...we had a disagreement and he took control and said, "can we just slow down here"... he was so good. He's so good. I'm falling for him. And it isn't as scary because we are just friends. No love poems. Just friendship. And authenticity. And I love it.
And I love Needtobreathe. Listening to a whole concert now: https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=Ji82siRKVFY&list=LM
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