Wednesday, February 26, 2025

This is very relevant to me

I don't understand a lot of it, but it strongly resonates and I feel like this is what I'm working on/with. I get some of it and I have tingles as I read it.... and tears streaming down my face. It's important.


Copying here so I don't forget - in case the AG is taken down or something:

For many years, the Emerald Guardian Paliadorian teams have been working behind the scenes to build out the corrections required for expanding the Universal Diamond Pillar Gateway to run Dual Krystal Spirals for the Rosetta currents, which ignite the Crystal Lotus Heart and Crystal Rose Heart flowers throughout the Albion Lightbody. Each of the Universal Diamond Pillars contain the records for the Universal Melchizedek Collectives and their true genetic origins, those spiritual families from the God worlds that have incarnated through the Emerald OrderRuby OrderGold Order, and Amethyst Order lineages at every developmental stage of the Christos Diamond Sun DNA template and its fall and progression throughout the Universal Time Matrix. During the rehabilitation of the Tri-Flame of Khemalohatea for the 7D-8D-9D Pink Lotus Temple being hosted by the Family of RA in the Metagalactic Core, the Pink Lotus Heart synchronized with the 8D Golden Sun in the Galactic Center, in which the Ruby Order came through and anchored Cosmic Father’s Ruby Templar instruction sets into the Temple of Khemalohatea.

These are Cosmic Father 48D Ruby Order instruction sets for the corrected Red King position within the planetary Ruby Templar Master Shield for the planet, which are systematically collapsing and disintegrating assorted red shield networks, artificial red wave rod and staff, and Red Cube clones used by Fallen Ruby Order branches for hijacking the Ruby Sun DNA template that was running the false Khem-Khemalohatea. The cloned version of Red Shield Temple of Khemalohatea was transmitting Artificial Ruby Sun DNA signals, lunar sound tones and archontic voices throughout the Stonehenge gateways and Grual points (2D-5D-8D-11D) which have been instrumental in enforcing Gender Reversals and transmitting assorted male and female Sexual Misery miasma into the Collective Consciousness of humanity.

Return of Red Kings

Cosmic Father's Red King

To prepare for the return of legitimate Universal Melchizedek Ascended Masters from the parallel time matrices which include the true Cosmic Father Ruby Order representatives, the 11D Stonehenge stargate access has been moved and Holy Mountain architecture has been merged into the Capstone Codes or Godhead of the Universal Quadrant. This quad configuration runs genetic time codes through assorted Rainbow Arc Bridges uniting through the Universal Diamond Pillars and then transmits them into the diamond rainbow center of the Albion Lightbody. There are White Diamond Rainbow ArcBlue Sapphire Rainbow ArcPink Dark Matter Rainbow Arc bridges for the Cosmic Solar Dragons such as the Ruby Order to pick up genetic time codes and travel through dragon rings within these parallel systems. More recently, there has been the launch of the Ruby Rainbow Arc System into this reality which highlights the momentous return of the authentic Cosmic Father Ruby Order[1]

The Universal Diamond Pillar Gateway emerged into the clock shield template that was built for the organic Ruby Pillar stationed in the 6’o clock southern position of the Cosmic Clock, in which to restore the organic ruby spiral source for the Cosmic Father’s Ruby Templar architecture in the Metagalactic Core for supporting the Family of RA and authentic Ruby Order Father Melchizedek Collectives spanning the multiverses.

During phases of reconstruction of the Universal Ruby Diamond Pillar, the Ruby Order dragon families began to reveal themselves as returning Solar Ruby Dragons, bringing with them Cosmic Father’s Ruby Templar instruction sets from the God Worlds in which to fully restore the Ruby Spiral, Ruby Pillar and Ruby Sun DNA templates for the authentic Ruby Order families. Cosmic Father’s Solar Ruby Dragon Kings appeared during the beginning of the Cosmic Energy Cycle last year, in which to merge into the Universal Ruby Pillar that was further linked into the parallel Father Arc Universe through the Godhead Capstone of 22D, 23D and 24D.

During the Sagittarian Cycle in 2023, it was revealed the Godhead Founder Capstone of the parallel Universal Twin Matrix was the 22D Ruby Flame23D Sapphire Flame and 24D Emerald Flame and those flames were reconnecting into the planetary logos. During the Sagittarian Solar Cycle in 2024, it reveals the mission of the Ruby Grail lineages and Indigo 3’s to embody the incoming Cosmic Father’s Ruby Templar instruction sets for the incoming Ruby Rod, accessing the genetic time codes of the Cosmic Father Universes to return organic Khemalot coding. This is to restore the Red Kings and rebuild the Ruby Rod architecture that overrides the AI Red Cube systems installed by the NAA throughout the telluric field ley lines to enslave angelic humanity, collapsing the Fallen Ruby Order and hijacked Ruby Sun DNA histories of genetic hybridization and cloning into the Enki DNA Overlays.

Additionally, the extraction of masses of dark entities as they fled from certain demographics with atomic changes in the field caused by the installation of Ruby Rod architecture, also hastened the confiscation of archontic jellyfish overlays or Suppressor Parasite Entities (SPE) found within the air and water elementals positioned in the in-between spaces of interdimensional pockets. These events generated extremely aggressive spiritual warfare against Starseeds with Ruby Sun DNA rehabilitation missions, during the span of the bifurcation into solar templating (during Virgo through Sagittarius), in which assortments of fallen angelic entities and reptilians attempted to possess, hitchhike or harass those groups with jellyfish parasites if they were embodied with spiritual missions working for the return of the Emerald Order reuniting with the Cosmic Father’s Ruby Order.[2]

NAA’s Capstones for Anti-Christ Couplings

After the Atlantian Flood, the Thothian Leviathan group generated an extensive inorganic wormhole network that was accessed from ley lines running through Bermuda Triangle, Giza and Iran, that connected into the Artificial Tree of Life phantom areas where they had cloned out the exploded parts of Nibiru and Tiamat. The entire planetary geography of the original Tiamat Logos, along with the Edenic codes held by the White Diamond Goddesses or White Solar Queens, were cloned into the Red Trident anti-hierogamic machinery which functioned as the artificial Galactic Capstones in 4D Mars, 7D Saturn and 10D Pluto Matrix.

The Artificial Galactic Capstones in the Red Trident anti-hierogamic architecture were designed to block out original Capstone Codes in those Ascended Masters who became trapped on the planet, and as a consequence were blank slated and suffered amnesia. Because their capstone codes were not activating properly, they were replaced by artificial machined Galactic Capstones which were implanted and interfered with organic cellular memories which blocked their hierogamic union.

In each of these artificially generated Galactic Capstones being managed by Thothian Leviathan entities, there are unholy alliances of White Queens and Red Kings that were being forcibly merged into gender reversed anti-Christ couplings. These unholy alliances of White Queen and Red King are consummated in satanic rituals by the luciferian bloodlines that utilize the demonic hierarchies with this symbolism, in order to call forth the archetypal forces of Anti-Christ couplings and their demonic orders connected to Red Trident. Further, the satanic rituals commonly used with the White Queen and Red King symbolism is during the most important black magic sexual rituals of the luciferian bloodlines, planned on special astrological events or master number dates. [3]

King Arthur's Ruby Sun DNA

Ruby Order EO Mission

King Arthur was embodied in a 10 strand Ruby Sun DNA body which was designed to help restore the female Sophianic Sapphire Codes in the Solar Star chakra, which exists about six inches above the crown. This Diamond Sun lightbody part was damaged on the planet during Nephilim hybridization and when Draconian essences are incarnated into the human body. The Solar Star is held by the female crystal heart rose Staff Codes and are responsible for receiving communication directly from our Christos Avatar self. King Arthur’s embodiment returned the sapphire Solar Star communication with our Avatar and supported the return of the corrected Universal Hu-man five-star Adam diamond sun template back into the Albion Lightbody after the Sumerian-Egyptian Invasion.[4]

The grail line of the Ruby Sun DNA are also referred to as Indigo children and hold a hybrid Diamond Sun DNA template that is the result of hybridization made between the Nephilim and Elohim genetics. Representatives of the Guardian Host, such as King Arthur and his Templar team, as well as Guardian Akhenaton, chose to embody in a Ruby Sun DNA template when they came to the earth in order to help reclaim and restore the Fire Letters and Time Vector Codes that were stolen from the grail line specifically. The DNA template was hijacked in which its coding was used to engineer the 911 Timelines, based upon the hijack of 9D and 11D Diamond Sun DNA coding inherent in the Ruby Sun DNA template. The remaining pure lineages of the Ruby Sun DNA imprint, exist on the earth and off planet, to which they are in alignment with the Cosmic Sovereign Law of One, in service to others potential evolution to be able to choose spiritual freedom for themselves, and to be released from reincarnation into the AI timelines in the lower densities. [5]

Tuesday, February 25, 2025

Ryan is great

 The thing is, Ryan is great. When he's "on", he's the BEST. He's compassionate, wise, strong, and allows my feelings. I think this is his true self. I think we are unlocking the best in each other. Teaching each other how to be. It's a good match. An important one. I need to learn how to not be a people pleaser and how to speak my feelings and be vulnerable and give and observe my selfishness. I have to go home so I can't type long here, but I wanted to mention it.

Monday, February 24, 2025

Money woes

Feeling like I'm really on my own. Feeling like Ryan has strange beliefs about money. He ridicules me for mine, but he's constantly in debt or not paying his bills and has who knows how much back tax debt. It's just messy. Not feeling like he's a partner. He strong armed me in getting - with my money - a tv that I didn't want. Didn't have compassion or care about my feelings... wanted what he wanted... and threw a fit and trying to put me down and punish me for not wanting it... ridiculed me for my feelings. It just doesn't feel safe. It's like a snarl. Feels good in some ways, but really messy in others. Not secure. Not fully loving and accepting. Not safe. 


He has talked so much about paying my electric bill and how good that felt. 

So I maybe need to just keep being patient. He is coming around. But it's a lot of pressure. He's not kind and generous. He counts and holds tight and keeps records and thinks he's so generous when I have been paying for everything and racking up more and more debt. $50+K in 2 years.

It's bad. 

But we are working towards something. Becoming something. 
Would it change that he will want to take care of me?
I write my own future. I need to be wise and intentional.

Jennifer encouraged me to write a budget. It's time. I need to grow up. I'm ready. 

I didn't say anything but Jennifer just intuited that it felt bad that Ryan encouraged me to get in debt with this TV. He wanted it. He didn't want to bring his big TV. He didn't want to contribute. He gives on his terms with his time, etc. And he's been very generous... spent a lot of it with me to get the couch and tvs and take them back and all that went along with it. He's helpful. Focus on the good, Carissa!!! It's like the world is whispering to me to BE A VICTIM. But I'm not. I've chosen this. And I need to keep choosing what's right for me.

But ultimately I'm responsible for myself and I need to remember that. I love my couch and am happy with the fancy TV and I love my life and I have a lot of animals and it is what it is. I don't need a man and it would be less expensive, probably. But I like the learning opportunities. Ryan isn't moving over. His cats are his excuse and it's fine. He likes his life. But he wouldn't even donate his 43" TV .... or "let" me get a regular larger TV... a non-OLED. He insisted on that one. And would have been mad and sulked if I got anything less. I thought the 55" was better. But I'll be okay with this one. It's all good. That might be my new friend. 

We just popped into the Age of Aquarius! Great things are happening! Good will come. It's here!! I'm grateful for Ryan and all he brings to the table. The challenges are icing on the cake... learning opportunities. I love my life and my family and my home! Thank you God!

Tuesday, February 18, 2025

It's just not right

Ryan and I have so many beautiful moments and laughs and we have a great time often. But we also have hard times often. And I'm getting tired. "Step into a new day" - Burn the Ships song came on. Earlier I heard a song about thinking hard before saying goodbye to the boy or something.

I don't want to be done, but I don't like the way it is. It's such a rollercoaster. It doesn't feel safe. It doesn't feel like a soft place to land which is what I want my home life to be. But I am also watching how other men come around when there are fissures in Ryan's and my love bubble. Other temptations. That guy from the tax office who also triggered me to think of Clifford who I cut cords with on 2/15 during the valentine's float and I said goodbye....because I was trying to be all in with Ryan...but that lasted a day or less before there was another issue. And today another guy who I had a draw to before came around. There's already a problem with Ryan and then this happens ... like a temptation from the devil maybe? But I also don't want this life with Ryan... I want the happy one... but he has put off living with me...he backsteps all the time. He makes everything difficult. His pride is so hard to deal with and he needs so much praise and gratitude which I have a lot of, but I'm tired. And he needs me to render services ...yeah, that kind... to keep him "sane" he says. And he threatens me that that is what will keep him from porn but he still uses it. He backslid there too. In everything. I just think we really did try to go "all in" but it's still not enough... not enough to move in together. I want to be single. I do. I want to date. I want to focus on my own health. I want to exercise and eat well and not deal with someone else's complaints and waiting for him and moods and demands. I AM tired. We can be good friends. But I don't want to be ashamed of being myself. I like my friends and self-care and spiritual searching and nature and everything I AM. 

I need to be bold. I need to listen to my heart and my body and I need a break. I do.