How to Eat

I have been on this "how do I eat" rollercoaster since God made me aware of it in 2010 and I did that Ezekiel Fast. Food is medicine. Food is life. You are what you eat. 

So what do I want to be? A blueberry? Sweet and a little sour. A steak. Grounded. 

I need nutrients. 

I feel sick and bad when I eat crap. I think the seed oils are really the worst. And vegetables make me inflammed and farty. And sugar is a doorway to the deep end. Bread and cookies take me away from my center. 

I feel best when I eat carnivore. Can I eat fruit too? Can I feel great and not inflammed and not filled with desperation and food noise if I eat fruit and honey with my meat? 

steaks - yes

egg & beef cups - yes

dried mango, I'm not sure
I want to get some apples and make air-fry apples drizzled with honey and whipped cream
I want to have some berries on hand although I think berries might not be good for me. What's true? Let me ask my standing-pendulum-self....I don't trust myself. And that's a problem.

But I want to feel good. I want energy. I don't want to be sore and stressed. 

I feel kind of over chicken wings right now. We'll see. 
Meat, fruit, honey, dairy (some - healthy options... high fat... butter and heavy cream)

What did carnivore aurelius say? He said we need carbs too for optimal thyroid function... and that's probably true. Dangit.

I don't know...or do I? Meat only? No meat? I don't know. I will figure it out. I think I should only eat LIFE-GIVING foods... ask "does this give me life" before I eat it... and if YES, then OK. If no, then don't eat it.

I wonder if WHOLE FOODS are The Way. I've been thinking about doing something like that Whole30... just eat whole foods. So... I don't know. Steaks, fruit, and some dairy and a little honey... could that work?