Doomed

I love this word- Doooooom....   :)  It seems so sarcastic to me. Sarcastic fear.  <--my post has NOTHING to do with this, I just wanted to tell you. :)

That word came to my mind when I was thinking about what would happen if I continued walking in the way I am today... half-filled. Half-way filled with the Spirit. It's not okay. Nope. I would be doomed (to an unsuccessful and and unfulfilled life if I lived like this always....

...on the other hand... I am actually better off "half-filled" than I used to be- not filled at all! :)
Okay, that was the optimist in me speaking.

I just wanted to note the fact that I think it's easy to "spend" yourself and unless you make a commitment (and the actions necessary to follow that up) to taking time for yourself to be "refilled" by the power of the Holy Spirit- that we are letting our guards down for Satan to attack!
 
Let the redeemed of the Lord say HALLELUJAH!!!

Later: Whoooop- it's been another long day...  Sat at my computer for almost 10 hours. What a waste!!! I guess it's okay though... I just worked on a flyer for church- it was a necessary "dusting off of my meager graphic design skills"... I just feel like it was a wasted day. Ack. I need to go on another walk... and to the Bible store.... I'm gonna get Dayve a Bible and write him a note today... maybe I'll drop it off later... I don't know. I have to get out of here... I need a rest. breeeeathe!!!!!!!!!!

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*(post written 8/2 - I found a bunch of "drafts" that I never published. I'm just gonna publish them. I'm not gonna start worrying about what I write here. I want to be transparent in alllll my mess!)

*(sad note to self: I STILL never got Dayve that Bible. I pray for him almost every day throughout the day, but I keep questioning myself - is it from GOD that I should get a Bible for him? I think about it sooooo often that it's either me being OCD, or it's God prodding me. I think maybe I should really do it. I should. I should. I should. Should I? WHY THE FEAR???!  - CARISSA, AHHHH!!!! (I just looked down in my lap to my open Bible which tells me "Then David continued, "Be strong and courageous, and do the work. Don't be afraid or discouraged, for the LORD God , my God, is with you. He will not fail you or forsake you. He will see to it that all the wrok related to the Temple of the LORD is finished correctly." 1 Chron 28:20)) - Just respond. Just respond. That's the theme of my life these days: LISTEN and RESPOND. Read the WORD and PRAY. HEAR and OBEY.

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