Sleep

Father, help me not to get so comfortable in my circumstances (even ones in which I am serving You), or with my "gifts" or "responsibilities" that I am lulled to sleep.  Wake me up, Lord God.  Help me to set alarms/ precautions against falling asleep. Show me what "alarms" are and how to set them... show me how to remain alive and awake by the power of Your Spirit for Your glory. Transform me into the image of Jesus- help me to love like He loved and serve like He served. Help me to go and do what Jesus would go and do and to do it with a humble and gentle heart filled with peace and boldness for spreading the Good News. May there be less and less of Carissa and more and more of Jesus in me. May Your miracles and power and light and goodness live through my body. Unzip me and take out the earth-ridden stuffing and fill me with Jesus. Jesus live!! Carissa die. I surrender all!!

Father, it is my hope and deepest desire that I would continue to surrender ALL everyday for the rest of my time on this earth-  that I would be of use to the Kingdom (which can only happen if I am not and Jesus is).

I feel my flesh wanting to sleep. I feel my mind being deceived. I feel the pull of the world. I feel the desire to understand and comprehend and compare and compute - but I must give up my self- I must give up my plans. I must give up my dreams and hopes and expectations. I don't want them if they don't spring from the Living Water. Anything that is born of my flesh is garbage and useless and poison. I only want Jesus.

Wake me up, Lord!!!
Keep me awake!
I surrender my food addiction - I surrender my control of it. You have overcome the world and you have CERTAINLY overcome my measly taste for sugar and carbs and garbage which so evidently separates me from You- from feeling you and hearing from you cllllearly. I know you are still with me when I eat like this (I've been "off the wagon" for about a week and a half now) and you are still talking with and through me- but it is getting more muffled. I am feeling further away. I am making more mistakes. I am being rocked to sleep. rock-a-bye-carissa-on-the-treetop...

WAKE UP!
NOTHING is more important than following Jesus with your WHOLE heart and WHOLE life and WHOLE stomach!!! GIVE UP the garbage!
SET ALARMS!
Accountability = key.
Community = key.
Being in the Word & prayer = priceless.

Seek ye first the Kingdom and then all these things will be added unto you!
Give up your life! Follow me!

I surrender alllllllll!

Amen.
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