Face Fear - Blood Pressure

Blood pressure has been a fear for years. White coat syndrome or truly high? Up and down and all around?

I've been swimming around in the fear.... feeling it. Talking to and looking at and trying on blood pressure cuff all week. Bought a wrist blood pressure monitor. 

Haven't taken it yet but I want to.

And Misha said what I know. It IS what it IS... knowing about it is just that... more information. So I know it's time to become aquainted... become curious... and like Ram Dass said... the body is just doing what it's made for... it will decay... it is just a vessel... so I want to support it and know about it and need to stop fearing it. 

I volunteered at hospice a few years ago to try to address my fear of death. It showed me how beautiful it was. But there are more layers to be peeled back... especially my fear of my own decay or dis-ease or death. It is what it is. Look at it. Don't be afraid. Fear is a consciousness trap.

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I'm so proud of you sweet girl!

I took it 3x so far. I had it on wrong the first time so the systolic was super high 169 or something. The diastolic has been about 90 all three times. I will try the arm cuff soon too. Thank you God for your support as I feel into this. 

Saying No, needs no explanation.

 That's the ESF quote of the day:

"Saying No, needs no explanation."

Could I learn this?

And this:

And do this: 

https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Clearing_Ancestral_Miasma

God is so good to me!!

Movement

 AG Pick: https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Mass_Consciousness_Dreamscape

Amen.

Feeling very supported...lots of energies that are shaking things up... lots of release. Roland Walters session was very moving and shaking and clearing and I want to keep the momentum. Unfortunately I stayed very busy after that - spending time with Ryan mostly - dog walk was good and date night (I guess)... dinner at Low and Slow... and crosswords and laundry and Dookie and football and Walmart and meatballs and talking and just a lot. I think I should take a half day for myself. I think I will. Let me read this AG pick.

Shooooot. That AG pick was 100% on point with what Roland and I talked about on Saturday! Thanks be to God for confirmation and guidance to help me remember who I AM. I'm going to post it here. It's important.

If we can grasp that our current station of identity is walking through a consciousness dream that is taking place in the borders of a mass consciousness dreamscape, you can train your consciousness to move forward or backward in time to observe and release the impact of negative events from imprinting upon one’s consciousness. As an observer of the mass dreamscape, the sliding consciousness observes traumatic events or negativity in time and yet is not imprinted by the negative emotional residue. To observe something means that we are looking at something we do not identify with as ourselves, we see the reality playing in either forms of dark or light and we discern what it is, but we know that it is ultimately a movie playing in a dreamscape.

Much of what we can observe in the world today is the result of the past selves and the masses combined thought forms in the lower dimension timeline that were imprinted in the earth fields. Empaths and sensitives can easily discern the obvious amount of trauma and pain that is recorded in the energy field of the earth, as a result of the accumulated collective consciousness thought forms being directed into anti-human values and the practices of other ideologies that generate collective pain. These thought patterns move backward or forward in time, and they can move up or down the dimensional scale impacting the state of consciousness that exists in different sections of the field.

Dreamwalking is an altered state of heightened consciousness while in the pure observer state, it can occur while in another timeline, reality or even existing outside of time. While in this altered state, we can bring that which was unconscious into our conscious awareness, we can directly participate with that content while in our higher consciousness, the compassionate witness. The path of awakening is to bring that which is unconscious into awakened consciousness, to heal the darkness or reveal the deception in order to see the greater truth. This is the state of bringing the eternal light to illuminate the shadows of darkness, thereby alchemically transforming its nature to reflect the higher truth as the light shines upon it. We may prepare for entering this state by opening into deep prayer, meditation, and focused attention, calling upon our Avatar Christ, Solar Logos to help guide us through difficult emotional terrain in the compassionate witness.^[1]

I AM - Be Here Now

...oh yeah, I started reading some of Ram Das' book "Be Here Now" last night with my dinner. I love it.

I actually came to write about this book "The Inner Work" by Mat & Ash which is rocking my world too... calling me back to Presence, Truth, and reminding me who I AM. God is helping me - so much support to help me shed all this miasma that I've picked up and packed on. 

How can I let go of fear?

How can I let go of the habit of people pleasing and trying to source affection and approval from outside myself?

How can I take better care of myself?

Should I go to Hawaii? (Yes, the answer is yes and came before I even finished asking. I know I need to "geocache" there... pick up a soul fragment. It's like the call to Cahokia Mounds... just know I need to go. And maybe Ramsey being there is the masculine to anchor the heirogamic healing codes? I don't know. That's assignment of story. Really unnecesary...but it seems like it helps me in some way... gives experience meaning.)

My AG pick today: https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Cosmic_Founder_God_Source_Fields

I can't be my real/true self... I don't LET myself be my true self with Ryan for fear of his judgement. He got angry last night when I alluded to his judgements. Just remembered that. Anyway, that's for my compassionate witnessing, not my own judgement and I am so grateful for this book and need to get back to work.

Part of me has known for a while that there is more to the story with Ramsey. I keep downplaying it and pretending instead of fully feeling. It hasn't felt like time and still isn't. 

Perfect ESF supports today

Guard my mind:
Quote of the day:

"The soul becomes dyed with the color of its thoughts." ~ Marcus Aurelius.

Ag pick: https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Healing_our_Heart

Exactly on point. I think part of me is holding space for the devastation in the western part of the state. Part of me is witnessing how sickness wants to worm it's way in through the mind. Part of me is overwhelmed and frazzled and spread too thin. Part of me has a lot of emotion and sadness and overwhelm from responsibility at home. And I need to learn to care for myself...listen to my needs and love myself. Rest in peace (not death)... actual peace in knowing everything is exactly as it's meant to be. The tears welling up now are supposed to be there...releasing some density that I don't have room for in the dark. Presence. Everything is perfect in this moment and even if it's hard, it's right where I'm meant to be. Just be open to experiencing, witnessing, all of it. 

And cut the things that aren't healthy for me out. Fast food. Careless spending (of money and time). 

YES. Suggested for today... thank you God. Fear not beloved Carissa!

Timeline Override Sequence (TOS)

The quick process of the Timeline Override Sequence (TOS) for the Starseed or Energy Session is:

• Observe the Experience.

• Hold Neutral as the Compassionate Witness of God.

• Synthesize the Opposing Polarities by Loving them Equally.

• Internally Unify inside your Body through Applied Acceptance and Forgiveness.

• If Asked, Release the Mental Bondage Memory (Soul Retrieval, RRO1)

• Cellular Embodiment of the Unified Experience takes place.

• In Gratitude, Peace and Balance is Restored.

Tip: A Starseed (or any being) must perceive the Infinite to be within the Oneness, a state of consciousness which opens the doorway to the Law of One. So in many cases the Starseed will be exposed to negative polarity systems and “perceived” negative experiences in order to override the timeline of destruction, as well as source the causation in the timeline where the destructive event has applicable relationship to current outcomes. It returns to the Oneness to override the destruction created in polarity.

RRO, Return to the Rightful Owner Command

A Command made in God’s Authority in the Law of One.

breathe my Love.

Go beyond

I need to go beyond my feelings. I need to go beyond my thoughts.

I need to be present. And honest. And sincere. 

I need to learn to listen to my heart...take time to peel back the layers and really listen and really hear and then check back to confirm and see if it's fleeting and find out which part of me feels or sees that and hold space for it. I am my Love.

I attract "conspiracy theorists"... I suppose I AM because I believe things are not as they seem and that anything is possible and that there are nefarious people and schemes happening. 

I made up... thought up... witnessed the hurricane being moved/shifted with my own eyes...the cloud seeding... I saw it and God gave me wisdom to know what it was.

I like Ryan when he's nice but his mind is stuck and he is a slave to his ego which tears everyone else down and says everyone and everything is stupid except him.

I need to find my feminine. I need to find my softness and my own strength to allow my softness. I need to be my best friend.

Today I heard that women are attuned outward (toward men's and others' needs) and men are attuned inward (toward their own needs)...we need to find ways to find balance.

I need time to come back to me.
Will try again for a session with Roland on Saturday. Will try again to start my healing diet/mindset - CARNIVORE (mostly) tomorrow. 

God bless and hold and help the people of the NC mountains... so much devastation and loss from Helene... so many lives lost. I can't even imagine and don't want to but I want to offer my heart and God please show me what else I can do. Ah. Hold an aqua portal... hold space for transiting souls. Thank you God..