I AM - Be Here Now

...oh yeah, I started reading some of Ram Das' book "Be Here Now" last night with my dinner. I love it.

I actually came to write about this book "The Inner Work" by Mat & Ash which is rocking my world too... calling me back to Presence, Truth, and reminding me who I AM. God is helping me - so much support to help me shed all this miasma that I've picked up and packed on. 

How can I let go of fear?

How can I let go of the habit of people pleasing and trying to source affection and approval from outside myself?

How can I take better care of myself?

Should I go to Hawaii? (Yes, the answer is yes and came before I even finished asking. I know I need to "geocache" there... pick up a soul fragment. It's like the call to Cahokia Mounds... just know I need to go. And maybe Ramsey being there is the masculine to anchor the heirogamic healing codes? I don't know. That's assignment of story. Really unnecesary...but it seems like it helps me in some way... gives experience meaning.)

My AG pick today: https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Cosmic_Founder_God_Source_Fields

I can't be my real/true self... I don't LET myself be my true self with Ryan for fear of his judgement. He got angry last night when I alluded to his judgements. Just remembered that. Anyway, that's for my compassionate witnessing, not my own judgement and I am so grateful for this book and need to get back to work.

Part of me has known for a while that there is more to the story with Ramsey. I keep downplaying it and pretending instead of fully feeling. It hasn't felt like time and still isn't.