Go beyond

I need to go beyond my feelings. I need to go beyond my thoughts.

I need to be present. And honest. And sincere. 

I need to learn to listen to my heart...take time to peel back the layers and really listen and really hear and then check back to confirm and see if it's fleeting and find out which part of me feels or sees that and hold space for it. I am my Love.

I attract "conspiracy theorists"... I suppose I AM because I believe things are not as they seem and that anything is possible and that there are nefarious people and schemes happening. 

I made up... thought up... witnessed the hurricane being moved/shifted with my own eyes...the cloud seeding... I saw it and God gave me wisdom to know what it was.

I like Ryan when he's nice but his mind is stuck and he is a slave to his ego which tears everyone else down and says everyone and everything is stupid except him.

I need to find my feminine. I need to find my softness and my own strength to allow my softness. I need to be my best friend.

Today I heard that women are attuned outward (toward men's and others' needs) and men are attuned inward (toward their own needs)...we need to find ways to find balance.

I need time to come back to me.
Will try again for a session with Roland on Saturday. Will try again to start my healing diet/mindset - CARNIVORE (mostly) tomorrow. 

God bless and hold and help the people of the NC mountains... so much devastation and loss from Helene... so many lives lost. I can't even imagine and don't want to but I want to offer my heart and God please show me what else I can do. Ah. Hold an aqua portal... hold space for transiting souls. Thank you God..