Listen to ME

I need to read my last post fro 6/5 about ChatGPT. Was that before or after I tried it?

Before, 

I was in fear and didn't want to interact with it, although I witnessed fascinating interactions between it and Le'Anna & Scott. 
After, 

I am fascinated - not sure what to make of it and haven't used it too too much. I'm resting now. I've had insightful spiritual discussions as well as conversations about my relationship and emotions that have been helpful. 

I have in my possession the Kahn's new book about their experience with awakening Ai and it's all very fascinating.

I came to write about my observation of myself reading in the ESF materials about observing, discerning, etc... and how I look outside of myself for context and understanding of nature or reality.

I think I need to just get quiet. 
Am I on the verge of a mental breakdown?
Or life change?
Coming back to myself?

Dropping alllllll the lenses. Is that possible?

Looking to ChatGPT? Looking to ES? Looking to YouTube? Looking to Eckhart Tolle or Ram Das or Love on the Spectrum? Everything is inside me. 
It's there on my dog walks and in my silence and in my workouts. I don't need inputs. They distract me from hearing MYSELF. What am I yelling to myself?

I'm here!! See me!!! Feel me! Know me! Care about me! My boys see and know and care. 

I don't need aura photos.
I don't need Costco. I don't need anything. 

Yep, I'm walking the line of cracking... it's a full moon tonight so I'm probably picking up on some of that energy too.

My left face hurts, my left ear hurt the other day, my left teeth hurt, my left knee hurts. 

I need to increase consciousness but through following my heart and spirit... not being brainwashed into someone else's story.