Authenticity

I want to be authentic and honest. I want my throat chakra to be open. I don't want to lie. I don't want to try to be something I'm not. I want authentic people in my life. I want to be vulnerable. I want to be wise about who I share my heart and life with. I want to be honest. I want to BE LOVE. I want to be happy. I want to fulfill my purpose. My purpose is to be the light of the world and to forgive and to see that I am the son of God. I am the expression of God. I, ego, Carissa character is a figment of the world - trying to usurp the authority of God. God is Love. I AM LOVE. WE ARE LOVE.

I cannot throw my pearls before swine meaning that I can't share what I'm learning with people who aren't ready to hear it whom it would only hurt. I want to remain in a position to BE LIGHT to them and to BE LOVE to them. My pearls look like poison to those who don't have eyes to see.

Blame and shame are useless. Only love. Only forgive. I forgive myself and I forgive Le'Anna and I will learn from this experience. I will not be dragged into blame. I will not be manipulated. I will not manipulate. I will be love. I'm grateful for love. I'm grateful for this life. I'm grateful for Michael. Michael is love and light to me.

Pray "thy will be done"... THY, GOD, SOURCE, UNIVERSE - that which truly IS. So much of what we think we see is just that... a mirage. Fear and separation is a mirage.

I'm not sure about the natal chart. I'm not sure about astrology. I mean, maybe it's scientific and maybe it's right. I prefer spirit. I AM changed. I AM peace.  I AM love. I AM joy!! I don't need the chart to tell me what's going on and frankly knowing about the planets only adds to my "thinkingness" and to my MIND. I want MIND to UNHOOK from this Being that I AM. I want Body to take care of herself (by God's power and love) and Mind to operate as an intercessor between spirit and earth, but ... hmmm... I don't know if that's even right. What does Mind do? I want Mind to take a break... to do a little work here and there when I ask it to, but mostly I want it to be at peace - a peaceful monk.

I should start listening to Eckhart Tolle's classes again. One a day. Maybe. Some a day. Maybe.

Anyway, I want to be at rest. Life is my sabbath. We are in the 7th day - the day of rest. The 8th day is the resurrection of all, the new earth. Anyway, I want to stop resisting everything and stop trying to control everything. I want to live in love and peace and joy. I AM LOVE, PEACE, and JOY!

Much love!