What would you like to leave behind in 2019?
I have left behind FEAR - or at least the first layers of it... life is a Journey and there are many layers, but I'm grateful that the truth - that fear is an illusion - is beginning to sink in. Fear and my chatty-cathy runaway mind go together and I'm ready to let them both dissipate.
I also want to leave behind... HAVE left behind "self-loathing" ... self-hatred... all the negative self actions and thoughts and am swapping them out for tons of SELF-LOVE!!! I am the source of my own love. We always said "we have a God-shaped hole in our hearts"... but it is a Carissa shaped hole... I didn't love myself and I'm finally learning to!
What would I like MORE of in 2020?
I also want to leave behind... HAVE left behind "self-loathing" ... self-hatred... all the negative self actions and thoughts and am swapping them out for tons of SELF-LOVE!!! I am the source of my own love. We always said "we have a God-shaped hole in our hearts"... but it is a Carissa shaped hole... I didn't love myself and I'm finally learning to!
What would I like MORE of in 2020?
I would like MORE LOVE!! I want to see myself and see all the beauty that radiates from within and shines brightly in the world. I just want to love and accept myself and allow all things. I choose to leave clinging and resistance in the past... and I want more of clarity. I want to speak clearly and with purpose. I want to clean up my thinking and think positively and with a sense of knowing that everything is always working out for me. I want to abide in the vortex ... and abide in Christ... and abide in LOVE. (All the same thing. ;))
How do you DEFINE what makes a year good/bad? What constitutes a GOOD or SUCCESSFUL year for you?
Growth. Am I moving forward or back? Am I becoming more LOVE or more EGO?
What actions, including with whom/what/where/how you spend your time, are aligned with what you want more of this year, or what outcome you are trying to create?
Learning to GIVE more... especially to Michael.... to serve him more and my friends and family more. Learning to look through the lens of their experience (but first through the lens of self-love through to true love and then through to them and their experience). In the past I've looked through a lense of MY PERCEPTION of their thoughts but it was ego-based and critical and not rooted in TRUTH. I have lived a life based on lies. Based on illusion. This stops now.
I also want to be true to myself. I cancel my request for "an anchor" from years ago. I don't want an anchor. I cancel all requests other than to be a channel for divine LOVE. I want to travel. I want to be used to increase the vibration of the world - I want to be a force of LOVE in tikkun olam - healing the world. I want to see Abraham-Hicks. I want to understand if I am or how I am or how I should be a channel for Abraham-Wages. (I think I'm learning that it's not like that for me. If my guides have a name or if there are guides like that or whatever GOD is manifesting as the Voice or voices ...yeah, okay, voices... the EVERYBODY that is me...they will reveal themselves and the plan to me in the right time. Time doesn't exist, silly Carissa. I love you.) Maybe I will ask Abraham about this. I've thought that I should, but ego said it might be about her...so we'll see. Anyway... I want to follow the path lit before me by the holy spirit of which I am a follower and member.
I also want to be true to myself. I cancel my request for "an anchor" from years ago. I don't want an anchor. I cancel all requests other than to be a channel for divine LOVE. I want to travel. I want to be used to increase the vibration of the world - I want to be a force of LOVE in tikkun olam - healing the world. I want to see Abraham-Hicks. I want to understand if I am or how I am or how I should be a channel for Abraham-Wages. (I think I'm learning that it's not like that for me. If my guides have a name or if there are guides like that or whatever GOD is manifesting as the Voice or voices ...yeah, okay, voices... the EVERYBODY that is me...they will reveal themselves and the plan to me in the right time. Time doesn't exist, silly Carissa. I love you.) Maybe I will ask Abraham about this. I've thought that I should, but ego said it might be about her...so we'll see. Anyway... I want to follow the path lit before me by the holy spirit of which I am a follower and member.
How do you want to FEEL in 2020? What makes you feel that way NOW?
I want to feel JOYFUL. I want to feel PEACEFUL. I want to feel enveloped in the warm gushy happy feeling of LOVE. I want to abide in these higher vibrations. I want to remain on the mountain top. Fear wants to pull me off but I choose to abide. To remain. To stand.
I have stepped into Courage (Dr. David Hawkins calibration of consciousness - 200 courage is the tipping point. From here on out power guides me and POWER, GOD, is with me and I am being called to the level of ACCEPTANCE now... this is a beautiful level... I will live in the vortex of allowing... of non-resistance, of conscious co-creating of beautiful things. The Law of Attraction is in effect. I will attract abundance in all things - health, financial, provision, joy, friendship, adventure, LIFE... a life of joyfulpeacefulhappyloving present moments!
I have stepped into Courage (Dr. David Hawkins calibration of consciousness - 200 courage is the tipping point. From here on out power guides me and POWER, GOD, is with me and I am being called to the level of ACCEPTANCE now... this is a beautiful level... I will live in the vortex of allowing... of non-resistance, of conscious co-creating of beautiful things. The Law of Attraction is in effect. I will attract abundance in all things - health, financial, provision, joy, friendship, adventure, LIFE... a life of joyfulpeacefulhappyloving present moments!
I feel that way now when I WORSHIP. I am a worshipper. And when I PRAY. I am a pray-er. I love to be and feel alive in the spirit. I am most connected when I am praying for others. This is when I get my visions and direction. So worship and pray, my Love! Worship and pray!!
ps. Yesterday was your 10 year anniversary from when God started speaking to you... when, as Michelle clarified, my higher self merged with my lower self. When God poured into me and I poured out and I haven't been the same since. I'm glad I have that moment to cling to - I've been questioning WHAT THE HECK WAS THAT?? for 10 years now and I'm finally beginning to understand. That was 1/2/2010. And the beginning of when I began to hear the voice of God... who I call God... who could be Source Energy... who could be Abraham... who could be... is... YOU/ME/WE (WE ARE). Anyway, I was recounting to Michael or Tim or both about how the first thing God told me to do using the Voice within was to pick up a piece of garbage. I fought it for a while but eventually, I listened and picked it up. (Then I had to pick up garbage for YEARS... see what RESISTANCE does?!!) Anyway, then He said "It's not about YOU!") Anyway... it's been 10 years! Wow! JOY!
pss. I met with Paul Crouthamel yesterday - I was inspired to make an appointment with him and I just LOVED it! I just LOVE HIM and I'm so grateful for his influence in my world. I haven't seen him in 8.5 years and it just felt the SAME. I could tell that he felt that way too ... he said I haven't changed - that I'm still filled with joy. (I AM but what he saw was what God wanted him to see. I didn't feel moved to explain that I have walked through so much suffering... but that's of no matter... it was all part of my beautiful journey!!) Anyway, it was lovely. PAUL is a channel of LOVE and I'm so fortunate to know him and to have walked with him for a while so that he could rub off on me! God bless him and bless us all and help us to surrender more of our "self" so there is more space for YOUR SPIRIT to SHINE.
Okay... that's all.
ps. Yesterday was your 10 year anniversary from when God started speaking to you... when, as Michelle clarified, my higher self merged with my lower self. When God poured into me and I poured out and I haven't been the same since. I'm glad I have that moment to cling to - I've been questioning WHAT THE HECK WAS THAT?? for 10 years now and I'm finally beginning to understand. That was 1/2/2010. And the beginning of when I began to hear the voice of God... who I call God... who could be Source Energy... who could be Abraham... who could be... is... YOU/ME/WE (WE ARE). Anyway, I was recounting to Michael or Tim or both about how the first thing God told me to do using the Voice within was to pick up a piece of garbage. I fought it for a while but eventually, I listened and picked it up. (Then I had to pick up garbage for YEARS... see what RESISTANCE does?!!) Anyway, then He said "It's not about YOU!") Anyway... it's been 10 years! Wow! JOY!
pss. I met with Paul Crouthamel yesterday - I was inspired to make an appointment with him and I just LOVED it! I just LOVE HIM and I'm so grateful for his influence in my world. I haven't seen him in 8.5 years and it just felt the SAME. I could tell that he felt that way too ... he said I haven't changed - that I'm still filled with joy. (I AM but what he saw was what God wanted him to see. I didn't feel moved to explain that I have walked through so much suffering... but that's of no matter... it was all part of my beautiful journey!!) Anyway, it was lovely. PAUL is a channel of LOVE and I'm so fortunate to know him and to have walked with him for a while so that he could rub off on me! God bless him and bless us all and help us to surrender more of our "self" so there is more space for YOUR SPIRIT to SHINE.
Okay... that's all.
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