What a trip! I need to go back and do a proper journal - it was a whirlwind! Our favorite was Slieve League/Sliab Liag... but I wish I had spent more time at the Hill of Tara... brought some magic back from there...and so many places. Experienced some black magic in Doolin/Cliffs of Moher and the rally in Dublin and the darker/more oppressive and fighting energies of Northern Ireland hijacked some of our joy while up there, but we made the most of all of it.
It's clear that we need to find a way to get back to peace and unity when we are fighting.
I'm not sure if we've completed our journey together or not - this was quite the jewel. It's good in so many ways, but so hard in others. Ryan's unconsciousness which results in his abusive and toxic behavior and speech is not good for me, but a part of me thinks I can love him and hold space for him to become conscious and ultimately heal it. But I do not consent to being a martyr. So we'll see.
It's clear that we need to find a way to get back to peace and unity when we are fighting.
I'm not sure if we've completed our journey together or not - this was quite the jewel. It's good in so many ways, but so hard in others. Ryan's unconsciousness which results in his abusive and toxic behavior and speech is not good for me, but a part of me thinks I can love him and hold space for him to become conscious and ultimately heal it. But I do not consent to being a martyr. So we'll see.
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