...denial of the Self

Deny thy self.

Today I remembered the sexual encounter with a pin of light that occurred in the summer of 2011.

May my thought fade away and consciousness shine through.

May I be a vessel ... a channel for the Source (possibly called Christ or Christ-consciousness or Buddha nature or Anointing or LOVE)...to witness and interact with this world of form.

Love, not fear. Perfect love casts out all fear.

I create.
I create "reality"... be careful of my thoughts, they are powerful (and gaining power). Possibly dark forces/ego wants me cling to this, so I have to be careful, but an example is the other day I was thinking that we could easily lock our keys in the car. This hasn't happened in many (10?) years but I thought it last week and it happened to Michael a few days later.

Be a channel of LIFE and LOVE and HEALING and HOPE. Think that which is good and lovely and pure.

I am so grateful for the resources God has given me this season:
Eckhart Tolle & Kim Eng: School of Awakening
The Way of Mastery - Shanti Christo Foundation
Dr. Larry Wilson
Energetic Synthesis
MICHAEL DIDIER and the OPPORTUNITY to LEARN TO SERVE, to deny my selfishness and laziness and to BE LOVE NOW to him. To bring joy into his precious life. Life is fleeting and I fear losing him (and Rue)... but you see... FEAR is poison and these thoughts are traps... possibly illusions, but possibly power, so I must TAKE CAPTIVE MY THOUGHTS and bring them into submission to Christ.

Peace be with you.
Give. Love. Serve.
I am - We are.
I am Christ. I am God. I AM. (A vessel, channel for the LIGHT of the world. Carissa is not these things, Carissa is flesh.)

Be at peace.
Be patient.
All things will unfold as they should.

Pray.... envision... the pure white Light (which is made up of all colors radiating through this perfectly white light) pouring down through my head, soaking my energy field and body with it's perfect radiance and goodness. Seeping into each cell as it engulfs my body from head to toe... purifying, anointing, cleansing, re-starting refreshing rejuvenating my soul. I envision this for Tyrone and for Michael and for Rue and for Moses and Sioux and the Cheekins too!

Perfect love casts out all fear.
Everything unfolds as it will.
God's will be done. May my will align with His.

Next, surrender gluttony... attachment to food as a source of escape. NO! It is not be effort, but by surrender into the Now and seeing the beauty of Life as it IS. The ISNESS of life leads to perfect peace where substitutions by substances (especially toxic ones!) are not necessary.

Consume spiritual food that nourishes the body and soul and quiets the mind.

Peace be with you.