Yesterday the term "Cross Spirals" from an ES post really hit hard. Learn more here: https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Cross_Spirals
But essentially this got me: "This is especially hitting the masses of people unaware of Universal Laws, who have inadvertently aligned with malevolent structures, not understanding the inherent conflict in energetic consequences. If the outer forces are misaligned with the hidden or inner forces, the incongruence between them generates a range of forces of chaos and volatility" and I thought it applied to me. I am so scared that I accidentally "aligned with malevolent structures" ... BUT upon further learning, I think that as part of my Indigo (1,2&3) contract - specifically the Indigo3 part, I have multiple beings and souls that are contained in my vessel that I am assigned to creating a new blueprint for healing and resolving them... these are cross-breeds between angels, humans, extraterrestrials, etc.... and I sense that I contain, maybe even, a couple?
I was talking the other day about how I don't feel like I can trust myself and that's true because I have these dark or shadow forces inside... but they are just longing to be transmuted and given release to the Light. The "layers of dissonance" are layers of confusion and lies. Thank you to all the wonderful support which is here to help me be restored to the Krystal Star.
I was listening to the Indigo Ascension class yesterday and the part about the Suppressor Parasite Entity really scared me because I have been having so many sensations, especially on my right temple area... and twitching in my right brow and pain and pressure on the right side especially (but sometimes the whole head - headaches, etc.) I haven't read this completely yet, but this article talks about them:
https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/SPE
I don't like it and was scared... but I know that I just need to continue to seek protection and alignment in and with Unity and remain the Light and that everything will resolve. I remembered that I need to look to the GOOD... to remain POSITIVE. I believe in the Law of Attraction and want to attract only LIGHT, LOVE, HEALING, HOPE, etc. I want to live in JOY. The rest will work ITSELF out. I AM ONE. I AM God, I AM Sovereign, I AM Free! And I know God is with me! My guides are with me. Healing is happening and I am being led and I am so grateful!! (I've been seeing 11:11 a lot which is really comforting to me. I saw it yesterday and today... thanks be to my Beloveds!!)
So much to learn. And I'm called to courage... so here I AM.
I am being given opportunities to PRACTICE. To transmute darkness to Light. To observe and release my own pattern of collecting grievances as footholds for ego. I want to LET GO of them and BE LIGHT... a channel FOR LOVE to shine through. I EXIST. I AM. And all of this is part of the restoration of and in Christ/Krystos.
Friday, February 14, 2020
Wednesday, February 12, 2020
Safety
I posted some of this in the forum... actually, I only posted the first two paragraphs... the rest is for me....but Lisa's response to someone else really spoke to me in what I wrote as well. A real miracle!
Dear Lisa ... well... first, Dear Mishka, I am so sorry to hear that you don't have a safe and supportive space to soak in the ES teachings and for the discomfort you are feeling as a result. May the answers you are looking for be revealed to you and may you experience divine unflappable peace that opens your heart and energy bodies to wisdom and direction into greater awareness of what is being unveiled for you at this time! Bless you beloved one.
Dear Lisa, THANK YOU for this timely thread chock full of items I am grappling with. I am not sure I'm a safe person myself. I'm just not. I have layers of dissonance in my own emotional (and energy?) bodies and can't really even trust myself to tell the truth to myself. Even when I think I'm being authentic, there is a layer of ego there that is trying to skim something off the top.
For me:
Real life application: I've been having a really hard time with my sister who I love so much and who is so much like me. As I'm walking along the path, some of my own growth opportunities have revealed themselves to me - and often it's through first seeing it in others that I am able to recognize it in myself. I am trying to look at it as a gift - a chance to practice. But tomorrow I am supposed to go to my sister's for dinner and I am so nervous. I want to be a force of love. I know she is in so much deep pain but her lack of vulnerability and attack tactics are very hard to bear. I need to shed my own fear in order to stand strong enough - to be solid and not a wobbly layered weak ball of moosh OR a critical judgemental attacker (in mind or out loud). I recognize the twisty, manipulative, controlling, guilt-mongering ... all of which I blindly did myself... and I know that deep down it comes from a place of insecurity and lack of self love. I just need to keep the faith and keep my heart and mind open to the movement of CHRIST/LOVE and stay out of the victim/victimizer control drama. That's all - ha!
I think our... my... lack of being safe comes from not knowing who I really am and maybe that either allows lots of entities or personalities or souls to be a part of me? I don't know. My husband jokingly (or not) has given me the nickname "Everybody" because there seem to be many of me. More and more I am connected to the wiser parts of myself but I've got some crazies running the show now and then. This dissonance and layered feeling that leaves me feeling divided and/or insecure and unstable is getting old. I suspect that as I continue with ES materials it will resolve as I AM able to sink into the security of embodiment and comfort of knowing I am working toward fulfilling my purpose.
So anyway, I'm so grateful for the all the support in this thread! It's really helpful as I try to address the grievances that keep bubbling up in my awareness for release. Some takeaways are to remain compassionate and keep my focus on myself instead of trying to fix my sister or others, realizing that we are all on our own path and respecting the process others are going through. Focus on being a safe container for consciousness to expand and move through me - I feel strongly this is dependant on improving my discernment skills. Knowing I'm not required to respond to ....anything.... especially attack tactics.
I hope this made sense. I have so much to say and am torn between talking too much and not enough. You said you want us to share and I know vulnerability leads to growth. I don't know why I have such a hard time communicating here - I think I give it too much weight - you are all so important to me and I want to say what I think would be fruitful or interesting to you.... maybe what I perceive you want to hear.... or what I want you to hear ....or what I want to learn and WANT to be true rather than what may actually be true in this moment (which is really all a blur anyway). Manipulation. Ugh! Well, as you may have discerned, I'm a newbie and have much to learn (and gobs of negative ego to address/release ... and lots of attachments and a part of me is the devil or negative Christ or whatever... just a bunch of yuck.... but I'm staying shielded and learning and so grateful to be here for healing! Thanks for bearing with me!
I AM GSF!
Love,
Carissa
Dear Lisa ... well... first, Dear Mishka, I am so sorry to hear that you don't have a safe and supportive space to soak in the ES teachings and for the discomfort you are feeling as a result. May the answers you are looking for be revealed to you and may you experience divine unflappable peace that opens your heart and energy bodies to wisdom and direction into greater awareness of what is being unveiled for you at this time! Bless you beloved one.
Dear Lisa, THANK YOU for this timely thread chock full of items I am grappling with. I am not sure I'm a safe person myself. I'm just not. I have layers of dissonance in my own emotional (and energy?) bodies and can't really even trust myself to tell the truth to myself. Even when I think I'm being authentic, there is a layer of ego there that is trying to skim something off the top.
For me:
Real life application: I've been having a really hard time with my sister who I love so much and who is so much like me. As I'm walking along the path, some of my own growth opportunities have revealed themselves to me - and often it's through first seeing it in others that I am able to recognize it in myself. I am trying to look at it as a gift - a chance to practice. But tomorrow I am supposed to go to my sister's for dinner and I am so nervous. I want to be a force of love. I know she is in so much deep pain but her lack of vulnerability and attack tactics are very hard to bear. I need to shed my own fear in order to stand strong enough - to be solid and not a wobbly layered weak ball of moosh OR a critical judgemental attacker (in mind or out loud). I recognize the twisty, manipulative, controlling, guilt-mongering ... all of which I blindly did myself... and I know that deep down it comes from a place of insecurity and lack of self love. I just need to keep the faith and keep my heart and mind open to the movement of CHRIST/LOVE and stay out of the victim/victimizer control drama. That's all - ha!
I think our... my... lack of being safe comes from not knowing who I really am and maybe that either allows lots of entities or personalities or souls to be a part of me? I don't know. My husband jokingly (or not) has given me the nickname "Everybody" because there seem to be many of me. More and more I am connected to the wiser parts of myself but I've got some crazies running the show now and then. This dissonance and layered feeling that leaves me feeling divided and/or insecure and unstable is getting old. I suspect that as I continue with ES materials it will resolve as I AM able to sink into the security of embodiment and comfort of knowing I am working toward fulfilling my purpose.
So anyway, I'm so grateful for the all the support in this thread! It's really helpful as I try to address the grievances that keep bubbling up in my awareness for release. Some takeaways are to remain compassionate and keep my focus on myself instead of trying to fix my sister or others, realizing that we are all on our own path and respecting the process others are going through. Focus on being a safe container for consciousness to expand and move through me - I feel strongly this is dependant on improving my discernment skills. Knowing I'm not required to respond to ....anything.... especially attack tactics.
I hope this made sense. I have so much to say and am torn between talking too much and not enough. You said you want us to share and I know vulnerability leads to growth. I don't know why I have such a hard time communicating here - I think I give it too much weight - you are all so important to me and I want to say what I think would be fruitful or interesting to you.... maybe what I perceive you want to hear.... or what I want you to hear ....or what I want to learn and WANT to be true rather than what may actually be true in this moment (which is really all a blur anyway). Manipulation. Ugh! Well, as you may have discerned, I'm a newbie and have much to learn (and gobs of negative ego to address/release ... and lots of attachments and a part of me is the devil or negative Christ or whatever... just a bunch of yuck.... but I'm staying shielded and learning and so grateful to be here for healing! Thanks for bearing with me!
I AM GSF!
Love,
Carissa
Wednesday, February 5, 2020
Wings
Wings have been a topic that keep coming up for at least this week or so.
When Ms. D passed away I felt led to pray and encourage her about getting her wings and it stuck in my spirit... I kept thinking about "getting your wings". Is that only related to death? And I think about the people who tell me I'm an angel and others who I think are angels...do they have wings? Do we all?
I read a post on Energetic Synthesis about wings this week and saw a reply that piqued my interest but I didn't read much.
This morning Nissa sent me a random message/scripture:
Isaiah 40:31 "But those who are waiting for the Lord will have new strength; they will get wings like eagles: running, they will not be tired, and walking, they will have no weariness.
And I read the article about wings and it speaks to my heart. Maybe I'm getting closer to getting my wings in my lightbody?
See: https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Wings
This seems very relevant especially as I explore my male/female nature. I'm more connected to my masculine side. I've babied my feminine (left) side my whole life - it's always seemed weaker to me. Now I want to nourish it.
Maybe I do need to join Kelly Brogan MD's group - it's so much about female empowerment. Not enough money for all the groups! Dang!
But I can allow my heart to lead and unfold and how me how to serve and love myself by opening to the feminine divine within.
Anyway... so many interesting things!
And what is the answer to all problems being one and having already been saved from them? I'm still trying to figure it out! <--ah ha! Yep. Well, STOP. You can't figure it out in the mind. Allow the spirit of God to reveal it to you through surrender and acceptance. (This question comes from ACIM Lesson 79 & 80).
When Ms. D passed away I felt led to pray and encourage her about getting her wings and it stuck in my spirit... I kept thinking about "getting your wings". Is that only related to death? And I think about the people who tell me I'm an angel and others who I think are angels...do they have wings? Do we all?
I read a post on Energetic Synthesis about wings this week and saw a reply that piqued my interest but I didn't read much.
This morning Nissa sent me a random message/scripture:
Isaiah 40:31 "But those who are waiting for the Lord will have new strength; they will get wings like eagles: running, they will not be tired, and walking, they will have no weariness.
And I read the article about wings and it speaks to my heart. Maybe I'm getting closer to getting my wings in my lightbody?
See: https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Wings
This seems very relevant especially as I explore my male/female nature. I'm more connected to my masculine side. I've babied my feminine (left) side my whole life - it's always seemed weaker to me. Now I want to nourish it.
Maybe I do need to join Kelly Brogan MD's group - it's so much about female empowerment. Not enough money for all the groups! Dang!
But I can allow my heart to lead and unfold and how me how to serve and love myself by opening to the feminine divine within.
Anyway... so many interesting things!
And what is the answer to all problems being one and having already been saved from them? I'm still trying to figure it out! <--ah ha! Yep. Well, STOP. You can't figure it out in the mind. Allow the spirit of God to reveal it to you through surrender and acceptance. (This question comes from ACIM Lesson 79 & 80).
Saturday, February 1, 2020
Tyrone
I'm often thinking of Tyrone. Trying to send good energy his way - praying for his energy body - for his chakra alignment for his LIGHT and LOVE and HEALING. I have deep love for him and wonder if we are still connected. Do I need to cut the cord between us? Didn't I already in Dr. Lara's mediations? He is important to me. Is it a mind trick or a spiritual battle or just because we ARE one and he IS my soul mate and twin flame? I am so grateful to him and for our experiences - especially for his courage in leaving - it was necessary. I had fallen from grace. I was not ... I was going to say I was not on the path, but I WAS... it was my path...and he had to find his. We had gotten tangled and confused. I was looking for God in flesh and I am prone to it - even now - always. I'm just re-learning or being led or given the opportunity to let go and connect with spirit... but I still choose flesh/earth when I should be meditating, praying. Praying for others is the key. Service to others. LOVE. I want to be a channel for Love. I am God, I am Sovereign, I am Free. I want to love Michael. Michael is my husband and my teacher and my opportunity to practice. I shouldn't even be thinking of Tyrone. Tyrone might be a trick. From the get-go he might have been a trick and just like my beloved earth family says, he may have been taking advantage of me. But I don't think so. I think we are both indigos and searching for God and meaning and doing the work and figuring out life and if we could figure out how to do it together we'd be much more effective and powerful but we both get wrapped up in the flesh. Anyway, I pray for his wholeness and wellness and forgiveness and LOVE. Bless him, Abba. Lead him to resources that nourish his soul. Water him with happiness and may JOY burst forth in his heart. Heal his pain. Are we here to transmute darkness? Yes, but there is plenty that comes through us - we have to heal our own timelines and families first while at the same time being a beacon of light and a homing device witnessing other worshippers and bringing joy to our Creator. We are co-creators on the leading edge of creation... WE ARE.
ps. Today I was beckoning Tyrone to send me a message on Facebook. He sent me a message a few years ago that was filled with pain and anger and I responded in my holier-than-thou "I forgive you, please forgive me" way.... but I feel like I've touched the pain a bit more and have a little more understanding (though I can't connect with it right now, but I know my soul did some work in that realm)...anyway, I hope if he gives me another chance, he will meet a higher vibration and that LOVE will heal him and us. But he didn't write and I have no way to get in touch with him and I don't believe I should try to - the ball is in his court. And I want him to be happy and married and have a life and love and family in LIGHT. But I also secretly wish he would wait for me. But I don't want him to wait for Michael to die. I don't want Michael to die. Michael is my BEST FRIEND and the BEST HUMAN and I don't want anything to happen to him. I wish he would find happiness and a woman who would be the RIGHT woman for him. I'm not. I love him and we are great friends and partners in many ways, but we are not soul mates. But we ARE here for lessons in each other's lives - to learn from each other.... and Michael did have a 25year marriage and kids with Judy...but I wish he could have someone who enjoyed watching TV with him and serving him and supporting him in his classes and being frugal together, etc. OH and having SEX. (I give blowjobs but I'm not into sex.) Anyway, I'm just not her. But I love him and he needs to be loved.
The Universe will work it all out. But I fear that it will take Michael. He seems to be getting old and wrinkled and spotted fast. But it's probably my fear. I'm trying to just see and enjoy his VIBRANCE. He laughs and cares for animals and is passionate about kettle corn and studying for his class. He's so sweet and a hard worker. He's handsome and talented - he built the EggPlant chicken house and fixed so many things. He's just the most wonderful human and I love him so.
ps. Today I was beckoning Tyrone to send me a message on Facebook. He sent me a message a few years ago that was filled with pain and anger and I responded in my holier-than-thou "I forgive you, please forgive me" way.... but I feel like I've touched the pain a bit more and have a little more understanding (though I can't connect with it right now, but I know my soul did some work in that realm)...anyway, I hope if he gives me another chance, he will meet a higher vibration and that LOVE will heal him and us. But he didn't write and I have no way to get in touch with him and I don't believe I should try to - the ball is in his court. And I want him to be happy and married and have a life and love and family in LIGHT. But I also secretly wish he would wait for me. But I don't want him to wait for Michael to die. I don't want Michael to die. Michael is my BEST FRIEND and the BEST HUMAN and I don't want anything to happen to him. I wish he would find happiness and a woman who would be the RIGHT woman for him. I'm not. I love him and we are great friends and partners in many ways, but we are not soul mates. But we ARE here for lessons in each other's lives - to learn from each other.... and Michael did have a 25year marriage and kids with Judy...but I wish he could have someone who enjoyed watching TV with him and serving him and supporting him in his classes and being frugal together, etc. OH and having SEX. (I give blowjobs but I'm not into sex.) Anyway, I'm just not her. But I love him and he needs to be loved.
The Universe will work it all out. But I fear that it will take Michael. He seems to be getting old and wrinkled and spotted fast. But it's probably my fear. I'm trying to just see and enjoy his VIBRANCE. He laughs and cares for animals and is passionate about kettle corn and studying for his class. He's so sweet and a hard worker. He's handsome and talented - he built the EggPlant chicken house and fixed so many things. He's just the most wonderful human and I love him so.
Forum Posts
Posts that I put in the ES forum .... but I wrote them so I'm going to keep them.
I feel like I've experienced something similar. Well, I don't know much about the fallen angels yet, but the energy that I felt when I read your post reminded me of this: Many years ago I was half-sleeping/half-meditating on my bed and I experienced what seemed like a bright pinhole of light have sex with me. I was confused, aroused, and allowed it. I felt the thrumming energy around and through my whole body during that experience. Shortly thereafter I was introduced to [who I think was] my twin flame who I wrote to back and forth and he, in his letters, had that same energy. Very powerful energy. I didn't have a way to prove it but I felt like I was experiencing the same things at the same time as him like we were connected as one. I am not sexual at all - I just don't have a sex drive, but during that time, after the "light having sex with me" thing and before I met this man (the twin flame) in person, while we wrote back and forth, I would have periods where I felt like he was beckoning me to submit to him and it had that same pulsing, strong energy. I thought it was the HUMAN that I was tied to in spirit but wonder if there was something else that was manipulating me and maybe even tricked me into marrying him... and I still feel like I was kind of raped by that light, whatever it was. But I've also wondered if maybe it was the light of that man's consciousness seeking me out because we WERE meant to be together and it found me and claimed me and then created the physical manifestation to go with it. During the time that we were apart, before we came together, I had many tearful times of prayer where I felt like Jesus in the garden of Gethsemane begging God to take this cup from me but in my heart desiring divine will to be done. Just an experience I'm trying to unravel and understand 9 years later.
Anyway, I'm interested to see what others say about your experience, and the bird/wing thing is really fascinating too... what do you think it means?
I just re-read your post and I'm not sure that I've got the same thing going on at all, but I appreciate the opportunity and thread to share my experience as well. I'm working on not feeling ashamed and embarrassed for sharing. One of my core fears from the other night was fear of making a mistake and of looking stupid so I'm letting go of that fear and if I look stupid, I look stupid - HA!
Thanks again!
With Love,
Carissa
[quote="Tab" post=10969]
so many people are unaware and how even by holding a drivers license we are participating in their "world" game and giving our power away and being in their jurisdiction.
[/quote]
Joe, Tab, Wonderer & Bulbasaur, WOW! What great, thought-provoking shares! Each of you, through your words, nudged me to do more inner searching for my own way and truth. Thank you!
I did want to come alongside Tab and share my experience just this past week with driver's license/jurisdiction. I am straddling the fence on true sovereignty/freedom and whatever it is that we are told we have as American citizens, land of the free (not necessarily true, as we now see). Speaking of cognitive dissonance, I'm quite torn on this topic because I'm not sure that it matters to me in my heart - I don't feel like I am serving another "God" by participating in the corporation of the United States, but it does add another layer of authority that I don't necessarily trust.... but there are wonderful benefits by participating (safety, access to convenient goods, etc.).
Anyway, it DOES matter to my husband who has operated outside of his strawperson for the past 20 years, so I honor/follow him in this way. My driver's license is signed "under duress" which somehow negates the power that I was giving without my true knowledge. My "real" driver's license is registered with an ecclesiastical organization that allows me to claim an ecclesiastical jurisdiction. I haven't had a speeding ticket for a long time but I got one a couple weeks ago and when the officer asked for my license, I gave her the ecclesiastical one and said this was my real license and the other was my invalid state license (invalidated by the "under duress"). I don't think she gave any thought to it and just handed me over a ticket. When I went to court we ended up challenging jurisdiction and it was so interesting to see how much power words have. The officer turned white and started voraciously researching with her friends (I was near her in the courtroom so I overheard). The judge turned suddenly quite sour. To me, I sped so I should have paid, but my husband wanted to point out that that wasn't the point because it's about jurisdiction. I can't tell this story very well and we had to file something about Subornation of False Muster and they were requiring we go to "trial" but in the end I think an angel stepped in and put an end to it (so hubby backed down and we didn't have to go through the trial). But overall it was a really neat experience - I had stepped into observer-mode and it was fascinating to see all the cogs reactions to the happenings surrounding it and I realized the amazing power of words and how we've been tricked into so many contracts.
This link has some good information on jurisdiction - strong opinions about the religious standpoint but if you can read through that, I think there's helpful info if you are interested: http://weareisrael.org/coming-out/what-is-babylon/understanding-jurisdiction/
It seems so unfair to have these contracts if we aren't AWARE of them! Because our parents signed us up for a birth certificate, now we are slaves to the state? And marriage covenants invite the state into the union so the fruit of the union also belongs to the state (which is why they can take people's kids).
I guess that's why the programs/meditations that are offered here are so very important. The Core Soul Protection is on point! https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Commanding_Personal_Space
Tonight:
Hi Jodi! I can't answer your question - I have no idea. But I DO appreciate your thread (though I hope there aren't any stupid questions...and this one definitely doesn't sound stupid... totally valid).I feel like I've experienced something similar. Well, I don't know much about the fallen angels yet, but the energy that I felt when I read your post reminded me of this: Many years ago I was half-sleeping/half-meditating on my bed and I experienced what seemed like a bright pinhole of light have sex with me. I was confused, aroused, and allowed it. I felt the thrumming energy around and through my whole body during that experience. Shortly thereafter I was introduced to [who I think was] my twin flame who I wrote to back and forth and he, in his letters, had that same energy. Very powerful energy. I didn't have a way to prove it but I felt like I was experiencing the same things at the same time as him like we were connected as one. I am not sexual at all - I just don't have a sex drive, but during that time, after the "light having sex with me" thing and before I met this man (the twin flame) in person, while we wrote back and forth, I would have periods where I felt like he was beckoning me to submit to him and it had that same pulsing, strong energy. I thought it was the HUMAN that I was tied to in spirit but wonder if there was something else that was manipulating me and maybe even tricked me into marrying him... and I still feel like I was kind of raped by that light, whatever it was. But I've also wondered if maybe it was the light of that man's consciousness seeking me out because we WERE meant to be together and it found me and claimed me and then created the physical manifestation to go with it. During the time that we were apart, before we came together, I had many tearful times of prayer where I felt like Jesus in the garden of Gethsemane begging God to take this cup from me but in my heart desiring divine will to be done. Just an experience I'm trying to unravel and understand 9 years later.
Anyway, I'm interested to see what others say about your experience, and the bird/wing thing is really fascinating too... what do you think it means?
I just re-read your post and I'm not sure that I've got the same thing going on at all, but I appreciate the opportunity and thread to share my experience as well. I'm working on not feeling ashamed and embarrassed for sharing. One of my core fears from the other night was fear of making a mistake and of looking stupid so I'm letting go of that fear and if I look stupid, I look stupid - HA!
Thanks again!
With Love,
Carissa
Earlier:
[quote="Tab" post=10969]
so many people are unaware and how even by holding a drivers license we are participating in their "world" game and giving our power away and being in their jurisdiction.
[/quote]
Joe, Tab, Wonderer & Bulbasaur, WOW! What great, thought-provoking shares! Each of you, through your words, nudged me to do more inner searching for my own way and truth. Thank you!
I did want to come alongside Tab and share my experience just this past week with driver's license/jurisdiction. I am straddling the fence on true sovereignty/freedom and whatever it is that we are told we have as American citizens, land of the free (not necessarily true, as we now see). Speaking of cognitive dissonance, I'm quite torn on this topic because I'm not sure that it matters to me in my heart - I don't feel like I am serving another "God" by participating in the corporation of the United States, but it does add another layer of authority that I don't necessarily trust.... but there are wonderful benefits by participating (safety, access to convenient goods, etc.).
Anyway, it DOES matter to my husband who has operated outside of his strawperson for the past 20 years, so I honor/follow him in this way. My driver's license is signed "under duress" which somehow negates the power that I was giving without my true knowledge. My "real" driver's license is registered with an ecclesiastical organization that allows me to claim an ecclesiastical jurisdiction. I haven't had a speeding ticket for a long time but I got one a couple weeks ago and when the officer asked for my license, I gave her the ecclesiastical one and said this was my real license and the other was my invalid state license (invalidated by the "under duress"). I don't think she gave any thought to it and just handed me over a ticket. When I went to court we ended up challenging jurisdiction and it was so interesting to see how much power words have. The officer turned white and started voraciously researching with her friends (I was near her in the courtroom so I overheard). The judge turned suddenly quite sour. To me, I sped so I should have paid, but my husband wanted to point out that that wasn't the point because it's about jurisdiction. I can't tell this story very well and we had to file something about Subornation of False Muster and they were requiring we go to "trial" but in the end I think an angel stepped in and put an end to it (so hubby backed down and we didn't have to go through the trial). But overall it was a really neat experience - I had stepped into observer-mode and it was fascinating to see all the cogs reactions to the happenings surrounding it and I realized the amazing power of words and how we've been tricked into so many contracts.
This link has some good information on jurisdiction - strong opinions about the religious standpoint but if you can read through that, I think there's helpful info if you are interested: http://weareisrael.org/coming-out/what-is-babylon/understanding-jurisdiction/
It seems so unfair to have these contracts if we aren't AWARE of them! Because our parents signed us up for a birth certificate, now we are slaves to the state? And marriage covenants invite the state into the union so the fruit of the union also belongs to the state (which is why they can take people's kids).
I guess that's why the programs/meditations that are offered here are so very important. The Core Soul Protection is on point! https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Commanding_Personal_Space
Yesterday:
Kundalini UP vs DOWN
Hello beautiful fellow sojourners! I have a question and wondered if you have any insight? If you have experienced a “kundalini awakening”, can you tell me if it went up or down in your body? (Please forgive me for the elementary question - I am new here and just beginning to learn the meat of ascension).
This (above) is the question, the rest is my gobbelty-gook thoughts and personal experience/explanation which I invite you to skip if I might distract you out of your answer. (Ha!)
Google tells me that kundalini is energy that is coiled at the base of the spine and rises up. I haven’t thought that I ever experienced a “kundalini” awakening, though I’ve definitely had some fascinating experiences. Now I’m wondering if I DID have this happen but it was just going the other direction?
My first major experience of feeling energy move was from energy seeming to move DOWN. I was surrendering to God and it blew in through my head and I described what felt like “God pouring in and myself pouring out”. Since then I’ve never been the same - I started being directed by the Voice and was given insight and missions. Trauma took me out of the game for a while but I’m back. I had the a most intense and painful heart chakra opening experience this past December and I’m definitely awakening more to my spirit body (though I feel it’s very unbalanced and wobbly and there is much work that needs to be done)…
Which leads me back to my point… I want to do the work but I’ve been scared of allowing energy to rise. Someone I trust said NEVER to allow energy to move UP your body/chakra column, but only allow it to move down. This made sense to me because I was very “ungrounded” and “uptight” (anxiety and panic ruled me so grounding made sense). This is why when a couple years ago when I first learned of the ES website and started practicing the 12Dshielding, I got nervous and stopped since it requires awareness of energy moving up and down the column. I modified it and other people’s meditations too so that I didn’t follow energy UP (too much).
The couple times I’ve seen intuitive energy workers, this has been my question…it continues to be my question… and I wondered if you had any insight. I don’t want to do anything harmful and I’ve heard of “kundalini madness” and I really don’t want that. I already have enough difficulty trying not to fly away to Lala land.
I was told by one intuitive (the first I ever saw) that I had dabbled in manipulating energy or something. I wish I had recorded it, but I came away wondering what I had done wrong and am always looking for that answer. I hung out with some practicing Wiccans in high school and played with a Ouiji board and magic 8 ball before. Was it that? Or was it that I was engaged in learning about the energy field and practicing to see auras? Or was it this pushing down of energy (because I can feel it…and I was trying to manipulate it)… is that bad? I am trying to become a more spiritually strong and awake person but if I’m going about it the wrong way or doing something I shouldn’t, I don’t want to make God mad!
I’m wrapped in this fear-based script around this and I’d love any thoughts you can share about your experience or what you think mine means?! Ha! Sorry for the long post and thank you in advance for your Love!
ps.
I very much relate to the indigo information. I think after that first experience that I was born into indigo1 level and walked in it for a year or two but I think I messed up by clinging to an earth being and maybe some other choices that forced me to default into indigo3 (though I may have been indigo 3 always). Either way, my higher level chakras (at least third eye and maybe crown) have been possibly overactive and my whole system is unbalanced, but I kind of live through them vs the lower chakras (well, with the exception of my solar plexus because I’m trying to compensate for my imbalance through control (just really throwing everything into a worse mess).
Hello beautiful fellow sojourners! I have a question and wondered if you have any insight? If you have experienced a “kundalini awakening”, can you tell me if it went up or down in your body? (Please forgive me for the elementary question - I am new here and just beginning to learn the meat of ascension).
This (above) is the question, the rest is my gobbelty-gook thoughts and personal experience/explanation which I invite you to skip if I might distract you out of your answer. (Ha!)
Google tells me that kundalini is energy that is coiled at the base of the spine and rises up. I haven’t thought that I ever experienced a “kundalini” awakening, though I’ve definitely had some fascinating experiences. Now I’m wondering if I DID have this happen but it was just going the other direction?
My first major experience of feeling energy move was from energy seeming to move DOWN. I was surrendering to God and it blew in through my head and I described what felt like “God pouring in and myself pouring out”. Since then I’ve never been the same - I started being directed by the Voice and was given insight and missions. Trauma took me out of the game for a while but I’m back. I had the a most intense and painful heart chakra opening experience this past December and I’m definitely awakening more to my spirit body (though I feel it’s very unbalanced and wobbly and there is much work that needs to be done)…
Which leads me back to my point… I want to do the work but I’ve been scared of allowing energy to rise. Someone I trust said NEVER to allow energy to move UP your body/chakra column, but only allow it to move down. This made sense to me because I was very “ungrounded” and “uptight” (anxiety and panic ruled me so grounding made sense). This is why when a couple years ago when I first learned of the ES website and started practicing the 12Dshielding, I got nervous and stopped since it requires awareness of energy moving up and down the column. I modified it and other people’s meditations too so that I didn’t follow energy UP (too much).
The couple times I’ve seen intuitive energy workers, this has been my question…it continues to be my question… and I wondered if you had any insight. I don’t want to do anything harmful and I’ve heard of “kundalini madness” and I really don’t want that. I already have enough difficulty trying not to fly away to Lala land.
I was told by one intuitive (the first I ever saw) that I had dabbled in manipulating energy or something. I wish I had recorded it, but I came away wondering what I had done wrong and am always looking for that answer. I hung out with some practicing Wiccans in high school and played with a Ouiji board and magic 8 ball before. Was it that? Or was it that I was engaged in learning about the energy field and practicing to see auras? Or was it this pushing down of energy (because I can feel it…and I was trying to manipulate it)… is that bad? I am trying to become a more spiritually strong and awake person but if I’m going about it the wrong way or doing something I shouldn’t, I don’t want to make God mad!
I’m wrapped in this fear-based script around this and I’d love any thoughts you can share about your experience or what you think mine means?! Ha! Sorry for the long post and thank you in advance for your Love!
ps.
I very much relate to the indigo information. I think after that first experience that I was born into indigo1 level and walked in it for a year or two but I think I messed up by clinging to an earth being and maybe some other choices that forced me to default into indigo3 (though I may have been indigo 3 always). Either way, my higher level chakras (at least third eye and maybe crown) have been possibly overactive and my whole system is unbalanced, but I kind of live through them vs the lower chakras (well, with the exception of my solar plexus because I’m trying to compensate for my imbalance through control (just really throwing everything into a worse mess).
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