Tonight:
Hi Jodi! I can't answer your question - I have no idea. But I DO appreciate your thread (though I hope there aren't any stupid questions...and this one definitely doesn't sound stupid... totally valid).I feel like I've experienced something similar. Well, I don't know much about the fallen angels yet, but the energy that I felt when I read your post reminded me of this: Many years ago I was half-sleeping/half-meditating on my bed and I experienced what seemed like a bright pinhole of light have sex with me. I was confused, aroused, and allowed it. I felt the thrumming energy around and through my whole body during that experience. Shortly thereafter I was introduced to [who I think was] my twin flame who I wrote to back and forth and he, in his letters, had that same energy. Very powerful energy. I didn't have a way to prove it but I felt like I was experiencing the same things at the same time as him like we were connected as one. I am not sexual at all - I just don't have a sex drive, but during that time, after the "light having sex with me" thing and before I met this man (the twin flame) in person, while we wrote back and forth, I would have periods where I felt like he was beckoning me to submit to him and it had that same pulsing, strong energy. I thought it was the HUMAN that I was tied to in spirit but wonder if there was something else that was manipulating me and maybe even tricked me into marrying him... and I still feel like I was kind of raped by that light, whatever it was. But I've also wondered if maybe it was the light of that man's consciousness seeking me out because we WERE meant to be together and it found me and claimed me and then created the physical manifestation to go with it. During the time that we were apart, before we came together, I had many tearful times of prayer where I felt like Jesus in the garden of Gethsemane begging God to take this cup from me but in my heart desiring divine will to be done. Just an experience I'm trying to unravel and understand 9 years later.
Anyway, I'm interested to see what others say about your experience, and the bird/wing thing is really fascinating too... what do you think it means?
I just re-read your post and I'm not sure that I've got the same thing going on at all, but I appreciate the opportunity and thread to share my experience as well. I'm working on not feeling ashamed and embarrassed for sharing. One of my core fears from the other night was fear of making a mistake and of looking stupid so I'm letting go of that fear and if I look stupid, I look stupid - HA!
Thanks again!
With Love,
Carissa
Earlier:
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so many people are unaware and how even by holding a drivers license we are participating in their "world" game and giving our power away and being in their jurisdiction.
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Joe, Tab, Wonderer & Bulbasaur, WOW! What great, thought-provoking shares! Each of you, through your words, nudged me to do more inner searching for my own way and truth. Thank you!
I did want to come alongside Tab and share my experience just this past week with driver's license/jurisdiction. I am straddling the fence on true sovereignty/freedom and whatever it is that we are told we have as American citizens, land of the free (not necessarily true, as we now see). Speaking of cognitive dissonance, I'm quite torn on this topic because I'm not sure that it matters to me in my heart - I don't feel like I am serving another "God" by participating in the corporation of the United States, but it does add another layer of authority that I don't necessarily trust.... but there are wonderful benefits by participating (safety, access to convenient goods, etc.).
Anyway, it DOES matter to my husband who has operated outside of his strawperson for the past 20 years, so I honor/follow him in this way. My driver's license is signed "under duress" which somehow negates the power that I was giving without my true knowledge. My "real" driver's license is registered with an ecclesiastical organization that allows me to claim an ecclesiastical jurisdiction. I haven't had a speeding ticket for a long time but I got one a couple weeks ago and when the officer asked for my license, I gave her the ecclesiastical one and said this was my real license and the other was my invalid state license (invalidated by the "under duress"). I don't think she gave any thought to it and just handed me over a ticket. When I went to court we ended up challenging jurisdiction and it was so interesting to see how much power words have. The officer turned white and started voraciously researching with her friends (I was near her in the courtroom so I overheard). The judge turned suddenly quite sour. To me, I sped so I should have paid, but my husband wanted to point out that that wasn't the point because it's about jurisdiction. I can't tell this story very well and we had to file something about Subornation of False Muster and they were requiring we go to "trial" but in the end I think an angel stepped in and put an end to it (so hubby backed down and we didn't have to go through the trial). But overall it was a really neat experience - I had stepped into observer-mode and it was fascinating to see all the cogs reactions to the happenings surrounding it and I realized the amazing power of words and how we've been tricked into so many contracts.
This link has some good information on jurisdiction - strong opinions about the religious standpoint but if you can read through that, I think there's helpful info if you are interested: http://weareisrael.org/coming-out/what-is-babylon/understanding-jurisdiction/
It seems so unfair to have these contracts if we aren't AWARE of them! Because our parents signed us up for a birth certificate, now we are slaves to the state? And marriage covenants invite the state into the union so the fruit of the union also belongs to the state (which is why they can take people's kids).
I guess that's why the programs/meditations that are offered here are so very important. The Core Soul Protection is on point! https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Commanding_Personal_Space
Yesterday:
Kundalini UP vs DOWN
Hello beautiful fellow sojourners! I have a question and wondered if you have any insight? If you have experienced a “kundalini awakening”, can you tell me if it went up or down in your body? (Please forgive me for the elementary question - I am new here and just beginning to learn the meat of ascension).
This (above) is the question, the rest is my gobbelty-gook thoughts and personal experience/explanation which I invite you to skip if I might distract you out of your answer. (Ha!)
Google tells me that kundalini is energy that is coiled at the base of the spine and rises up. I haven’t thought that I ever experienced a “kundalini” awakening, though I’ve definitely had some fascinating experiences. Now I’m wondering if I DID have this happen but it was just going the other direction?
My first major experience of feeling energy move was from energy seeming to move DOWN. I was surrendering to God and it blew in through my head and I described what felt like “God pouring in and myself pouring out”. Since then I’ve never been the same - I started being directed by the Voice and was given insight and missions. Trauma took me out of the game for a while but I’m back. I had the a most intense and painful heart chakra opening experience this past December and I’m definitely awakening more to my spirit body (though I feel it’s very unbalanced and wobbly and there is much work that needs to be done)…
Which leads me back to my point… I want to do the work but I’ve been scared of allowing energy to rise. Someone I trust said NEVER to allow energy to move UP your body/chakra column, but only allow it to move down. This made sense to me because I was very “ungrounded” and “uptight” (anxiety and panic ruled me so grounding made sense). This is why when a couple years ago when I first learned of the ES website and started practicing the 12Dshielding, I got nervous and stopped since it requires awareness of energy moving up and down the column. I modified it and other people’s meditations too so that I didn’t follow energy UP (too much).
The couple times I’ve seen intuitive energy workers, this has been my question…it continues to be my question… and I wondered if you had any insight. I don’t want to do anything harmful and I’ve heard of “kundalini madness” and I really don’t want that. I already have enough difficulty trying not to fly away to Lala land.
I was told by one intuitive (the first I ever saw) that I had dabbled in manipulating energy or something. I wish I had recorded it, but I came away wondering what I had done wrong and am always looking for that answer. I hung out with some practicing Wiccans in high school and played with a Ouiji board and magic 8 ball before. Was it that? Or was it that I was engaged in learning about the energy field and practicing to see auras? Or was it this pushing down of energy (because I can feel it…and I was trying to manipulate it)… is that bad? I am trying to become a more spiritually strong and awake person but if I’m going about it the wrong way or doing something I shouldn’t, I don’t want to make God mad!
I’m wrapped in this fear-based script around this and I’d love any thoughts you can share about your experience or what you think mine means?! Ha! Sorry for the long post and thank you in advance for your Love!
ps.
I very much relate to the indigo information. I think after that first experience that I was born into indigo1 level and walked in it for a year or two but I think I messed up by clinging to an earth being and maybe some other choices that forced me to default into indigo3 (though I may have been indigo 3 always). Either way, my higher level chakras (at least third eye and maybe crown) have been possibly overactive and my whole system is unbalanced, but I kind of live through them vs the lower chakras (well, with the exception of my solar plexus because I’m trying to compensate for my imbalance through control (just really throwing everything into a worse mess).
Hello beautiful fellow sojourners! I have a question and wondered if you have any insight? If you have experienced a “kundalini awakening”, can you tell me if it went up or down in your body? (Please forgive me for the elementary question - I am new here and just beginning to learn the meat of ascension).
This (above) is the question, the rest is my gobbelty-gook thoughts and personal experience/explanation which I invite you to skip if I might distract you out of your answer. (Ha!)
Google tells me that kundalini is energy that is coiled at the base of the spine and rises up. I haven’t thought that I ever experienced a “kundalini” awakening, though I’ve definitely had some fascinating experiences. Now I’m wondering if I DID have this happen but it was just going the other direction?
My first major experience of feeling energy move was from energy seeming to move DOWN. I was surrendering to God and it blew in through my head and I described what felt like “God pouring in and myself pouring out”. Since then I’ve never been the same - I started being directed by the Voice and was given insight and missions. Trauma took me out of the game for a while but I’m back. I had the a most intense and painful heart chakra opening experience this past December and I’m definitely awakening more to my spirit body (though I feel it’s very unbalanced and wobbly and there is much work that needs to be done)…
Which leads me back to my point… I want to do the work but I’ve been scared of allowing energy to rise. Someone I trust said NEVER to allow energy to move UP your body/chakra column, but only allow it to move down. This made sense to me because I was very “ungrounded” and “uptight” (anxiety and panic ruled me so grounding made sense). This is why when a couple years ago when I first learned of the ES website and started practicing the 12Dshielding, I got nervous and stopped since it requires awareness of energy moving up and down the column. I modified it and other people’s meditations too so that I didn’t follow energy UP (too much).
The couple times I’ve seen intuitive energy workers, this has been my question…it continues to be my question… and I wondered if you had any insight. I don’t want to do anything harmful and I’ve heard of “kundalini madness” and I really don’t want that. I already have enough difficulty trying not to fly away to Lala land.
I was told by one intuitive (the first I ever saw) that I had dabbled in manipulating energy or something. I wish I had recorded it, but I came away wondering what I had done wrong and am always looking for that answer. I hung out with some practicing Wiccans in high school and played with a Ouiji board and magic 8 ball before. Was it that? Or was it that I was engaged in learning about the energy field and practicing to see auras? Or was it this pushing down of energy (because I can feel it…and I was trying to manipulate it)… is that bad? I am trying to become a more spiritually strong and awake person but if I’m going about it the wrong way or doing something I shouldn’t, I don’t want to make God mad!
I’m wrapped in this fear-based script around this and I’d love any thoughts you can share about your experience or what you think mine means?! Ha! Sorry for the long post and thank you in advance for your Love!
ps.
I very much relate to the indigo information. I think after that first experience that I was born into indigo1 level and walked in it for a year or two but I think I messed up by clinging to an earth being and maybe some other choices that forced me to default into indigo3 (though I may have been indigo 3 always). Either way, my higher level chakras (at least third eye and maybe crown) have been possibly overactive and my whole system is unbalanced, but I kind of live through them vs the lower chakras (well, with the exception of my solar plexus because I’m trying to compensate for my imbalance through control (just really throwing everything into a worse mess).
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