I'm going to post my post from ES this morning here, but first I want to also share something God is teaching me about because in my Agni session this black goo (black plasma?) was coming up her spine (from/representing?) me. When I read Lisa's newsletter this month talking about this, I knew that's what that was and Source is providing more information for me. Unfortunately, my guides have to spoonfeed me because I'm so distracted and all over the place, but just now this... and the links to "Black Goo" and "Bucky Balls" are fascinating too, but for now, knowing that my black goo is the feces of the false ascension matrix is another nugget for the pouch.
Artificial Christ Consciousness
Session Excerpt - I'm seeing it is very strange, it's two-sided. The side down here in 3D looks pretty it looks like a version of Christ consciousness, it is a web work and a grid work of artificial white light, the False Ascension Matrix. And it is definitely the false matrix for Soul capture, this is an Artificial Christ Consciousness is what it is. Oh, and it has Mind Control broadcasting from it. So whatever this thing is it is two-sided. You've been starting to see the other side of it, that's what you're calling the invisible. It's like you go past the Artificial Christ Consciousness mind matrix, and you see the other side of it. This is on people, all this is a waste product that is covering on people. This program grid, this Transposition Filter field, it's like it creates waste, feces. That's the only thing I can say, it's artificial software and it's this projection field and it transposes the energies coming in and it creates a awful waste. And that waste product accumulates, it looks like Miasma, but some of it feels like Black Goo and it's really grotesque on the other side. So those things you've started to see and started to clear from people, that apparently is that double-sided structure you have been feeling in their body, infiltrated with false light webbing. [6] Transcript by Paige.
https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/False_Ascension_Matrix
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The other day(s) I listened to much of the psychic self defense and ascension class (3 for both), and got SO much guidance from it. I listened to the series earlier this year but now I'm going back and repaving my foundation - another layer - and it’s SO enriching. I am surrendering to the process of just chipping away at this slowly. I didn’t think that I’d be super-quick to get on board because the language is so different for me, but it’s a lot slower going than I hoped. I have a lot of personal damage to heal in my light body let alone the paradigm shift to connect to “what’s really going on here” in this crazy world! I was kind of “hurrying” before to “catch up”, but I am really sinking into the pleasure of the process now and wanting to allow it to wash over me and smooth me in divine right timing and order. All this to say, it’s okay to go back, it’s nourishing me and solidifying (still very unstable) structures.
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Is Lisa like Yeshua? Yes. <— said someone (one living in/with me) when I was typing that.
I dreamed about her - got to talk to her and Tomas and say some of the things I wanted to say. She kept her distance and mostly just observed but interjected some things but I could tell that she didn’t want to encourage me in my pursuit of HER too much.
The other day I was in the area near where I perceive she and Tomas live… not VERY near, not even the same town, but close… (Trader Joe’s in CH) and I daydreamed a whole series which has led me to observe and think about it…
I was HOPING she would be there. Just in the world I sometimes hope I’ll run into her. (I was at the Apple store last winter and just hoping that she’d be there even though I don’t think they like Apple products, but I just happened to have this deep hope to see her.) Anyway, Monday I was like wondering what I would do… I daydreamed that I would touch the hem of her clothes - ha - like the lady in the story of Jeshua ("your faith has made you well”) but then I thought she would NOT LIKE that so would my concern about upsetting her override that? Probably. I would probably just say hi and how much I love and appreciate her and that would be that. I thought about how even having thoughts like this makes me stalker-esque and admitting them will make her think poorly of me (when, remember, I so want her love/affection (help?!) (hello energy vampire). Anyway, I’m airing it for transparency’s sake. I need to work through my understanding of looking at her (or anyone plugged into Source) as my savior.
I used to watch the cords of light as people looked to our pastor…he was on the stage and people were corded to him and he was intentionally directing it up to God… but I think it’s hard for anyone not to appreciate all the power that is projected toward them when people look to them to connect with the divine/God. I think this is what takes so many spiritual leaders off course. It’s hard. I know it happened to me too… I was a co-leader of a spiritual group 9 years ago and it feels so good to be looked up to - people seeking you out to help them… and I was clothed in the love and light of God and divine wisdom poured through me as I surrendered as a vessel for His will.
But the trick for me was finding the line where my ego didn’t feed on that light… it skimmed some of God’s glory off the top of those interactions to feed myself. (Jeremiah 23) Even so, God was gracious to forgive me and lead me deeper into the truth and away from the mainstream where I spent years in the proverbial desert learning directly from God (1 John 2:27).
I know I was gifted a “mountain top experience” for a couple years and I think I had to fall into a valley of despair so I could learn the discipline and tools to “do the work” to heal myself. The glimpse of glory that I was given was incredible and maybe I didn’t have to fall off the path - maybe I “took the wheel back” to feed my earth-self/flesh/ego, but maybe that’s also so that I get to do the transmutational work that I’m doing now. (Slowly digging my way out.)
Aaaaaanyway, I dreamed of Lisa and Tomas last night. I don’t usually remember my dreams but they were with me lots and I woke up and went outside and came back and I kept pondering what I’ve read here about there being “false Lisas” that come in dreams and I wondered that while dreaming…but it was supportive to me overall. Of course neither of them knew who I was and we were I don’t know, in a cafeteria or gym or wedding reception, and Tomas saw me stretching my feet and he came over to show me a way to get a deeper stretch. And I introduced myself and also introduced myself to Lisa. (I was not cool and collected and experienced lots of drama/emotions that ran through my being.) I think I must have been living out my Trader Joe’s daydream. Long story short, she was not impressed and there were a lot of energetic downloads and exchanges that didn’t look like much but it was very educational. Mostly she wanted to stay away from me but was polite. It’s not my time yet.
Yet.
Okay. So that’s it. Keep doing the work.
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ODE TO MELANIE
I cannot express how absolutely WONDERFUL and LIFE-GIVING it is to have an ES friend!!! Melanie and I connected a couple months ago and talk regularly about our life and world - especially the wild world of energetic synthesis!! I really feel like it has accelerated my growth… keeps me engaged and accountable outside my own little bubble.
It is a gift it is to have ALL OF YOU to share with, this divine container where we can wade through the layers and levels of our holograms and share what we’re learning and encourage one another is truly a divine gift! I am now also really appreciating having my sweet soul of a friend to walk through the day-to-day muck with… someone who knows the names of all my family members (including fur/feather-babies) and genuinely cares about individual circumstances (“how’d that go for you today?”) and, by the spirit in both of us directs my soul to resources or revelations that supports my highest purpose in service to the One Light.
Melanie is:
Brave:
The courageous mindset that leads my friend in her decisions and actions are an honor to witness. She has taken leaps of faith and surrender as she steps out of what she’s always known and into the unknown where this life-giving current drives her forward in her evolution.
Wise:
Not only smart in the world’s eyes, but the wisdom of her heart shines through. Melanie cares deeply about honoring the beings (animate and inanimate that surround her) and listens and learns from them. She digs deep and connects with the Source of her wisdom by taking time to rest and go to the rivers and oceans and jungles that whisper guidance to her through her teams (and teams and teams).
Compassionate:
Understanding and a great listener. She hears me and others as they share their experiences. Melanie truly is a compassionate witness. She reflects back what she hears through words and wisdom and sharing of her own experiences, all of which help me to better understand myself and my journey as well. It’s a rare gift in this world to find someone who is a compassionate and kind listener and to be able to call them your friend and to share the mutual pursuit of God …it's like winning the lottery of lotteries!
I could go on and on but suffice it to say, Melanie is my favorite friend - the one I most want to hear from - what is she learning? What meditations are supporting her? What does Source have to teach me through our friendship today?
We get to mirror each other in many ways (in the midst of these wild shifting timelines) that reveal deeper truths as we proceed - we are so different - almost opposites in many ways - yet our hearts are knit together in love. Divine friendship indeed.
I am trying not to cling too much as I know anything could change and God’s will be done, but for right now, in this present moment, I am beyond blessed to call Melanie my friend.
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