Shame's On Me

Message to Melanie:

"I just came here because I HAD to share this craziness... this morning I had such a tangle of emotions and I told Michael I wanted to punch something so he put his hand out for me to punch. I said I didn't want to punch it and instead I kissed his palm and put his hand on my face and I just stood there with his hand on my face and said I was so filled to the brim with shame. Riddled with it. (Nothing in particular, but it just came up as this overwhelming emotion... and I guess the wanting to punch something and emotional snarl is related to that... wanting to lash out or do something to get this feeling off me!!)

Aaaaaanyway, LOOK at what just came up as my glossary pick (AHHHH!!): https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Spirit_of_Shame "

"Shame on you"... such powerful words. I've carried such shame for so long... it causes me to lash out... I know when I used to fight with my husbands I would feel such shame and guilt for my emotions and behavior that it would cause me to behave WORSE... shame > behave WORSE > BLOW UP, THEN we could let it dissipate. It's so related to my pain body and unprocessed childhood (and/or previous life or ancestral) trauma. 

I still haven't read that article yet... hang on... let me read it. Thank you God!!!

YES:
Fear Bondage Loops
Walls of Separation

I remember digging into a potential past memory in the last year where I was a native American woman and had done something so bad (fallen in love with a white man or been deceived and gave away my/our power and access to our tribes) and everyone was murdered... my mistake had killed everyone. Whether that was real or a parable spirit gave me to understand that compartment of myself, this Spirit of Shame is definitely involved. 

YES:

Practice self-forgiveness, self-compassion, and remaining Neutral.

Wow. Thanks be to God!