I'm a mess - But God

I'm a horrrrrrrrrrrrrible mess right now. I'm distracted and distractable. I'm unfocused and disobedient. I'm succumbing to the dark side (making compromises in the attempt to control my sin nature (CONTROL IT!!!) instead of REPENT and REJECT it!).... Last night I ate desserts for dinner and a pizza at 1am!

I wish I could describe the feeling of being completely cut in half.... because that's what I feel like.... there is a battle for my heart and mind and I am in the MIDST of it. God has told me over and over this week that HE has OVERCOME the world (John 16:33)!!! and just REST (Hebrews 4:10-11)..... and be OBEDIENT (1 Peter 1:14). TRUST in Him (Isaiah 26:3-4)... have FAITH (Hebrews 11:33)!

He wants me to come back before it is too late (Hebrews 6:4-8)

I am SO thankful for the friends that God has surrounded me with- people who love me and build me up. Just the right people at just the right time. One of those people, my dear dear friend Ashley, was used by the Lord to speak truth to me last night in the spirit of Hebrews 3:13.  <-- *Can you tell that I've been reading Hebrews? God told me to read Hebrews a good 3 days ago (maybe 2), but I hadn't done it. I wanted to read what I wanted to read (because I'm sooooooo close to having read through the whole Bible, I wanted to sprint to the finish (but God had other plans! :))

Anyway, I wanted to share a snippet from an email that Ashley sent me in response to the picture of the pizza that I sent her at 1am last night. Here.... here's the disgusting thing.... (I'm all about transparency... LOOK AT MY MESS!!!!!)

Here's Ashley's response (edited to only keep in the stuff about me- I DO respect her privacy a little (obviously not a LOT because I'm posting her email on my blog without her permission!: :)):

"Wow, that is a very large pizza.  Please tell me that you didn't consume the whole thing early this morning.  I will keep praying that you believe truly that God has already broken your addiction with food.  He has taken those chains and thrown them away.  You have put them back on. 

Don't worry, all things well be revealed soon.  God has a narrow path for you that is going to be difficult but worth every step.  That is what He has been preparing you for these past few months.  Satan has had to up his attacks because your life is that valuable.  He wants to derail you and God wants you to submit to whatever He has planned. 

There are great challenges ahead but each one of us will come through because Christ has already won.  These battles are a distraction, but our story has already been written and our paths chosen for us.  We just have to have faith and step out with a Yes for Him. 

Anyway, live in this moment and don't worry about the things of tomorrow.  If you do, then you are allowing the enemy to steal the beauty of what God has placed before you in this breathe.

I love you, My Sister in Christ!  You are beautiful!
Ashley "

Was that not the best letter EVERRRRRRRR???? I'm so blessed!
Okay... gotta get rolling.
God is SOOOO good!!!! :) :) He loves me so much, EVEN (especially?) in my mess!!!