1/11/2020 - ESF Join Request / Introduction

I just re-read this and thought it was very clear and good. Good job Carissa! I wish I could be this clear all the time. God helped me there obviously. ;) 

From: Carissa Wages <crwages@gmail.com>

Subject: Re: Energetic Synthesis Foundations - Hi Carissa Wages! ES Foundations Subscription Next Steps

Date: January 11, 2020 at 7:54:19 PM EST

To: Energetic Synthesis Foundations Sign Up <foundations@energeticsynthesis.com>

Hello Lisa Renee! 

Thank you so much for your work and this community! I found your website a couple years ago and signed up for your newsletter which I look forward to each month. They have made more and more sense to me as I (and we as Unity/One) continue the ascension process and have provided valuable morsels to help me on my way thus far.

Now I’m ready for more. <--And by ready, I mean, it’s coming whether I like it or not - ha! (I intend it though - my deepest desire is to be a channel of Love and be of use to increase Light and part of “tikkun olam” - to heal the world.) I had a rough last few months - lots of emotional baggage came up for release and my heart chakra experienced a memorable opening. I’ve been fear-based my entire life and have lots of ego shedding to do. I’m grateful for the knowledge that I am both a recovering energy vampire and co-dependant/empath that gives energy away… I’m not sure if everyone is both, but I am…. was… I’m allowing it to dissipate by bringing attention to it and practicing non-resistance. :) 

I experienced my first (abrupt, radical, memorable) awakening where higher self merged with lower self in January 2010 and I haven’t been the same since. It’s been a wild ride. Since then I have heard what I’ve called the voice of God (it may be Source or guides or who knows… I don’t know… but I definitely have voices in my head (ha!) - I feel like this might be the audience that that is funny to. It was NOT funny to the doctors who I kept running to for help and understanding when I had what I (now) know to be symptoms of awakening. 

Anyway, I love to read and learn and am grateful to the Universe who keeps supporting me with new materials. Right now I sense I am meant to join this group as we are leveling up. I have a big problem with ego/mind which tries to run the show - it has tried to be in control of everyone and everything and has really done some serious damage but I’ve been watching her and am beginning to get her number. I’ve asked her to leave body alone and stop trying to micromanage body, and I’ve asked her to allow spirit to lead as it should. 

I’ve been reading on drlwilson.com’s website for years about souls and rogues and controller souls. I’ve sent him your material a couple times hoping he will connect - you both have similar understandings (though yours is much more complex), But I’m ready for more. 

I have done the 12D shielding off and on and now see the tremendous need for it and I intend to do it every day now. I had read some of your free materials before but today I dug in more and there are so many riches right there - but I still thought I’d try membership for access to additional meditations, community, and resources. I appreciate and have read and understand (to the best of my ability at this time) the Member Guidelines.

Thank you for taking the time to read my response.

With Love,

Carissa