Grateful - physics fun

I'm feeling grateful and wondering if God sent Jordan's book and friendship as a substitute, or another option for consciousness expansion? I turned off Energetic Synthesis for a while and maybe this is another way to continue in my pursuit of understanding and maybe part of the human condition? I'm curious and skeptical about time being a scalar field and don't even understand what that means exactly (yet). But time as a wave... and somehow related to gravity? 

In another paper that Jordan is having peer reviewed, he said: "...that time itself functions as a dynamic physical field, capable of interacting with matter and consciousness to produce measurable scalar effects." Which I find to be interesting.

I'm waiting on Ryan to see if we can capture the duckies. We were supposed to go at 9am but he woke late and was sick. 

I don't want to date Ryan. I would like to be friends. But hearing about Le'Anna's experiences and the wonderful people she's met and from all the wonderful people I know and have met and have yet to meet, I don't want to limit that because of Ryan's ego. And I really need to learn to live my life for ME. Do what makes me feel good and right. And I can't do that with him. 

Also, the verbal and emotional abuse... and lack of shared vision in the intimacy department...  and bipolar situation and addiction situation... lack of wanting to address problem areas that may stem from past trauma... we're just not on the same page. I'm still "woo woo" and he's still "mainstream" and he believes that never the two should mix. I guess. Maybe I'm being poetic.

Anyway, enjoying Jordan's book - Zebra Poker: The Ultimate Unification of Physics

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Also walked the boys today, talked my parents as they drive to Dallas (to help with the Brya Zan opening), talked to Rosemary (who lost Ed one week ago today), worked on Brya Zan stuff, and read some of the book Mr. Burch is letting me borrow ("After Here: The Celestial Plane and what happens after we die), and gave the boys a raw femur bone to chew on.