Please pray and tell me what you see in regards to me going to serve in an orphanage in Mutai, Uganda for 3 months this fall. I believe God has been knocking on my heart about it and today I was given the opportunity to live there and manage the orphanage at no cost to me (except getting over there).
Mutai is where the church I worshipped in is and where my translator/pastor is from.
"hints"= In the past week and a half I have had:
*1 letter in the mail with a random insert about Africa
*1 person say "and we have starving kids in Africa" to me (out of no where- I had to say "WHAT DID YOU SAY???" because it freaked me out and felt very Godbreathed).
*1 random email from a youth leader in Uganda asking me what was up
*1 random email from someone I've never heard of in Uganda introducing himself to me
*A non-Christian with an amazing heart offer to care for Rue if I went to Africa
*An experience during corporate worship where we were asked what God was telling us to do that we weren't doing and I thought "go to Africa"
*Offered a place to live for free and work in the orphanage that I SHOULD have helped during its founding (I was supposed to be there earlier this year and didn't go for who knows what reason (Satan?)!! I can't even remember- it's terrible. Obviously NOT a great excuse.
*I had a group of people in my church pray over me for direction a week and a half ago and all this has happened since then.
Not to mention the fact that a couple weeks ago I began knowing that my time here was coming to an end, but was waiting on God's revelation for my next step (job, etc.).
Crazytimes, I know.
This would only be a 3 month deal- I've been here over 3 months now, so it will fly.
I'm asking you because I know you will pray in the Spirit (and not worry / contemplate pros and cons in the flesh). Please pray and let me know your thoughts.
And DOUBLE PLEASE let me know if there's anything I can help pray for you about.
Thanks Sayre. I love you.
<3
There is much "moving" drama going on.
Le'Anna is being a tyrant to my sister (she was going to kick her to the curb last week because her son left toys in the living room)... she has already chased out one roommate. It's not good. Today she told me that I couldn't come back to my OWN house for 2-3 weeks between Pittsburgh and Africa.... nuts.
I'm still a pharisee. I see myself expecting people to think something of me when I say that I am going to go work at an orphanage in Africa. I want them to think I'm good.
I'm not good.
I'm bad.
Despicable and bad.
But God.
GOD is GOOD... INCREDIBLE and GOOD!
He somehow LOVES me and has given me such grace and blessing and allows me to know and love Him.... and God, PLEASE transform me- help me to love you MORE... take away my stony heart and give me a new heart...a new wineskin. Teach me who you are so that I can worship you in spirit and in truth!
Father, you are AMAZING! Thank you for my students here. Thank you for Tyrone- I pray (if I may) that he will send me another letter and that I didn't scare him off. I pray for you to teach us both who you are- deeply- help us to drink of You so that we might eat of Jesus flesh and drink of his blood <-- and please teach me what that means.
God, thank you for answering my prayer for direction.
Thank you for answering my prayer for companionship - someone to talk about YOU with - you've sent Jessicker, Carol, Tyrone, Ed, Patrick, and Sayre.... I am full and immeasurably blessed.
Lord, I pray for discipline. Help me to stop being such a sloth- lazy- not getting up to work out. Not eating well.
God, please light my steps- show me what I should and shouldn't do. Guard my lips. Keep me. Help me to EDIFY the brethren. Help me to speak truth and not lies. Help me not to speak badly of the "cult", but thank you for confirmation that it IS a cult...so much that they do is similar to this website that you pointed me to through a conversation with one of yours, today: http://www.reveal.org/
Okay... it's late...gotta go to bed.
Today Hebrews kicked my butt... STUDY HEBREWS MORE... it explains things clearly!
I also am asking for light on the lion of Judah.
LORD, HELP ME. I'm a despicable mess.
Help me. Rescue me from myself. Place me on a firm foundation. My iniquities no longer control me... I am a slave to righteousness now, NOT sin. What does that MEAN? I must worship in spirit and in truth.... does worshiping cleanse me? Obedience? I must be pure... can I really be pure? Can I be pure in the flesh or is it only by being baptized into Christ because I'm pure when I'm covered by the blood. Drink his blood and eat his flesh?? Tell me more about that. What did I read in Hebrews that made me wonder about that and about the Catholic's transubstantiation.... hm. Can't find it. I might have made it up in my head. :)
Okay. to bed. xo
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