Music codes, etc.

3:54am 4/4/22

I was tortured to not sleeping all night with that dang Ghost song running around and around. I just put on Christian music to try to wash it out. It was one of my favorites - Griftwood - even the part about Holy Mother - but it feels like there are reversals coded into it. It seems to be blocking and damaging my consciousness. Like little bombs... splitter tech. I have to be careful about what I listen to. I can't listen to that unless I'm very very very bathed in LIGHT. 

Up at 3:32 and saw 3:33
Saw 33:30 too (minutes for Paul to drive to work).

Read up on the supposed satanic influence of the Eagle's "Hotel California" too. Much to unpack here with music...satanism...anti-life....what does it all mean? Thank you God for letting me explore!

Christian music is "sticky" too. But does it have more positive messages? Is the Ghost music NOT "positive"? I don't know. As Paul mentioned yesterday, it DOES create happiness for him...and for me too. But what are the messages? Are they pointing toward a snare? What if I don't believe in any "diety" like lucifer or satan or jesus? I like to think that Jesus/Yeshua lived and that he was an activist like Ghandi or Lisa Renee - sharing and living wisdom and truth, inspiring people to drop the shackles of religious overlays. 

But "lucifer" and "satan" are "gods".... same as Baal, Molech, YHVH, etc... people in the sky. But do we have people in the sky? Puppetmasters? What are these "Controllers"? Those who are doing the hybridizing and influencing the Controllers? And who is driving these Gestalts? I AM. WE ARE. 5:00 4/4/22

4/4 5:44 Watching this interview with Kirk: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GYqbKMjfxow

What's so interesting is that I've been pondering Music and its influence. Yesterday Paul and I were talking about Motzart and Deirdre and I interacted around coding in music... and then today Kirk sent an email about the Waltz of the Turtle Duck aka Beethoven's Symphony #9. 

What am I? Who AM I? I AM. 
I am observing, learning, feeling into, and "reverse engineering" the distortions, fear, etc. Paul sent me a message a few minutes ago about how my anxiety is the result of lack of trust in the universe - not reading the signs. Here's the telegram interaction. 

I was listening to The Energy Codes on my way in to work. I was thinking that your anxiety issues stem from a lack of trust in the universe. I also realized that I tend to ignore the energy aspects of healing. We both can heal quickly with a simple shift.

Carissa Wages, [Apr 4, 2022 at 6:04:47 AM]:

Thank you... I appreciate that so much. I agree about my anxiety and I'd love to heal quickly with a simple shift!!! What is the shift?

I also love that you were listening to the Energy Codes!

Paul 💗 (Sha’ul) Newman, [Apr 4, 2022 at 6:05:20 AM]:

For you: learn to trust and read the signs.

Carissa Wages, [Apr 4, 2022 at 6:06:33 AM]:

I

I've been a slave to fear. "trust" isn't easy

Paul 💗 (Sha’ul) Newman, [Apr 4, 2022 at 6:07:26 AM]:

I know. But remember that universe is perfect. Nothing flawed.

Carissa Wages, [Apr 4, 2022 at 6:07:36 AM]:

I love you so much!

Paul 💗 (Sha’ul) Newman, [Apr 4, 2022 at 6:08:02 AM]:

Right back at ya. 😍

Carissa Wages, [Apr 4, 2022 at 6:14:40 AM]:

I feel like I read the signs. A lot. Too much. No. Not too much. But I am definitely a sign reader. Maybe I forget. I definitely forget. I experience magical moments and see how things come together but then am impatient about letting them finish their path. I want the next "hit" of a "sign". This is separate from anxiety but anxiety is from fear which is coded into my bones. This actually seems to RESULT in lack of trust vs being driven by it. 

What are your simple shifts?

I wish I hadn't written "I love you so much!"... it wasn't from the heart. It was words. I think I DO love Paul but there are so many layers to work with. Sometimes I feel it deeply and sometimes not at all. Right then I didn't really feel it. I was trying to encourage him for his care and pondering. Isn't that manipulation though? Empty words. I don't like it. Watch.

I DO appreciate Kirk and his energy. There may be...surely is... appears to be... a big Ai influence through him, but he still brings forward what appears to be truth.

I saw 6:06... now it's 6:18 and I want to go back to bed. 

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11:11 - I see I am dealing with TONS of splitter tech and metatronic reversals. And when I give myself away to things that are not aligned with my soul, that is when I am damaging myself. This past month's ESF call was fannnnntastic. Answered lots of my thoughts and questions... the music IS all coded with reversals. I need to batten down the hatches and hold my LIGHT. 

11:44, 12:22, 12:34, 12:48, 1:11, 14:41, 2:44/4, 2:54, 2:55, 3:33, 16:43/4, 44:55, 4/4:54, 5:55

4:00am on 4/5/22 - I just want to whine but I don't want to open a new entry.... the dark music is trying to drive me crazy! Don't let it! FEEL INTO IT. Don't resist... learn. I woke with the "holy mother you are the sun and moon and the stars in the sky" stuff from Griftwood. I didn't listen to Ghost at ALL yesterday. I DID watch "Lucifer" but I don't think there is a message there for me. I think I'll stop watching that. An Ozzy Osbourne song - I think the one about Giants was playing as I was trying to fall asleep for 4 hours. I went to bed at 8:00 on the nose but didn't sleep until closer to midnight. Got up with dogs at one point. Maybe I "rested" some of that time. Just breathe. Don't get upset. And definitely don't take it out on Paul which is what I want to do.

I put on Christian music this morning - it's 4:04 - as I made Paul a nice breakfast - avocado toast with fried egg and fresh tomatoes, onions and cilantro as well as an almond butter toast. I am also making fresh cooked veggies for his lunch. I like doing this... this is kindness. 

This music is much better. 
Just learn sweet girl.
Paul may be broadcasting too. Shield. Learn. THIS IS THE SCHOOLHOUSE OF THE LORD!! Remember? Yes. 

"Truth Be Told" by Matthew West is supporting me right this second. 
This whole thing is about casting out the lies and learning to live in alignment to my soul, to my Godself. 

4:11 - Paul just told me that the Ozzy song that was playing is about nucleaar war and of course the other one with Holy Mother speaks to me, of course, about Holy Mother and earth... so maybe these are messages from God and gridwork in a way. We've got this whole war/armegeddon program running on the earth right now so maybe I'm picking up on that and working with it in my consciousness in a way. Russia, of course, is related to the 6th stargate and Indigo consciousness, I think. I shouldn't say "of course", but as I understand. And it does feel like a planetary and Carissa heart opening happening too.

5/5:05

5/5:33 - my AG pick was Sekhmet and I'm smitten!

In Egyptian mythology, Sekhmet, is a warrior goddess as well as goddess of healing. She is depicted as a lioness, the fiercest hunter known to the Egyptians. It was said that her breath formed the desert. She was seen as the protector of the pharaohs and led them in warfare. Upon death, Sekhmet continued to protect them, bearing them to the afterlife.

Sekhmet is also a solar deity, sometimes called the daughter of Ra and often associated with the goddesses Hathor and Bastet. She bears the Uraeus, which associates her with Wadjet and royalty, and the solar disk. ^[1]