I had an orgasm headache yesterday... it was a miracle that I had such a nice orgasm with Paul and it was so good and then it turned scary as a headache came at the same time I did... in the back of my head mostly.
I need to frame it as energy blockage and it's these energy pathways being opened. Panic attacks are trying to get me now. See it as fear. Don't give it power. It's not real.... I am timeless and eternal. I do not consent to any physical damages in my body. I am healing and releasing trapped miasma. Paul's and my love is healing me and us. We are best friends. He sent me the Queen best friend song the other day and it melted me.
He's my favorite. We went to a "Pasture Walk" with the Ag Extension Office - Dan Wells - this week and learned about pastures, grasses, and cows. We are healing. I AM healing Carissa.
This is an opportunity to choose to feel into this instead of contracting in fear. I feel the tension. I feel the fear. Fear of blood clot. Fear of stroke. Fear of vein problem. Fear of death. Let go and let God. When it's my time to go, it's my time. Hopefully not yet, but this is the time of year that I get to face death... turn my face to it... look at and feel the dark and fear and let it teach me what it wants to.
Rest. Care for my body. Learn.
He's my favorite. We went to a "Pasture Walk" with the Ag Extension Office - Dan Wells - this week and learned about pastures, grasses, and cows. We are healing. I AM healing Carissa.
This is an opportunity to choose to feel into this instead of contracting in fear. I feel the tension. I feel the fear. Fear of blood clot. Fear of stroke. Fear of vein problem. Fear of death. Let go and let God. When it's my time to go, it's my time. Hopefully not yet, but this is the time of year that I get to face death... turn my face to it... look at and feel the dark and fear and let it teach me what it wants to.
Rest. Care for my body. Learn.
My quote of the day that just came up at 6:16am is "I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear." - Nelson Mandela
9:00
Had dreams about airports and these two guys and maybe getting to a house and my family and travel.
Woke up at one point and smelled a smell that reminded me of a swimming pool locker room from childhood ... one in particular I think.
Later I woke up holding my neck with both hands. Healing any trauma associated with last night maybe?
Feeling into feeling abandoned by Mother and Father... Holy Mother and Holy Father. The sun today is very bright with lots of Christic light... whites and golds and yellows and some purples, but not a lot of green and blue colors coming through which usually remind me of my Holy Parents. Something to work with there regarding abandonment as a child.
Lots of anxiety. Need to take supplements. Zinc. And Paul recommended garlic which I agree with. Sweet Paul. I love him so.
Woke up at one point and smelled a smell that reminded me of a swimming pool locker room from childhood ... one in particular I think.
Later I woke up holding my neck with both hands. Healing any trauma associated with last night maybe?
Feeling into feeling abandoned by Mother and Father... Holy Mother and Holy Father. The sun today is very bright with lots of Christic light... whites and golds and yellows and some purples, but not a lot of green and blue colors coming through which usually remind me of my Holy Parents. Something to work with there regarding abandonment as a child.
Lots of anxiety. Need to take supplements. Zinc. And Paul recommended garlic which I agree with. Sweet Paul. I love him so.
14/9:11. Seeing 9:11 almost every day!! Goes along with what we were working with in yesterday's Charlotte session. Armageddon program - Connecticut grids.
Yesterday saw lots of numbers including: 7:07, 8:08, 9:09, 10:10, 10/13 10:00, 9:11, 13/11:13, 7:07, 18:08, 8:18
It's 14/2:22 and I saw 14/11:11 too.
5:44 6:44
Yesterday saw lots of numbers including: 7:07, 8:08, 9:09, 10:10, 10/13 10:00, 9:11, 13/11:13, 7:07, 18:08, 8:18
It's 14/2:22 and I saw 14/11:11 too.
5:44 6:44
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