Narcissism

 I also wanted to pop in and thank you, Diana, for bumping this thread. And Lisa for starting it. I really can't get enough reminders about narcissism. See what I'm doing now? Making it all about me! Gah! (Ha!)

But I did want to share that I am a recovering narcissist. Kaizer, you are on point about "awareness is key" and I'm so grateful to God for guidance and for these tools to better understand this behavior. In my defense (ack, see? I think I need to defend myself!), I believe this is part of my mission as an Indigo 3... my oraphim empath side is witnessing and helping dissolve/heal this nephilim narcissist bloodline (and reptilian influence). 

I wanted to bring that up because I feel that there is a propensity to look at narcissists as the enemy... which they are possibly projecting in order to get you to engage in their power game. Engagement of any sort, even silent contempt, triggers the cord and can lead to victim/victimizer battle wounding. 

From my experience the best thing one can do is send energetic love and kindness. The power of kindness disengages the arrogance - it's soft and not threatening to their perceived status and it leaves everyone unscathed. I mean, definitely stand back...or slowly back away... but if we can hold love in our hearts and compassion for the burden this person is carrying, it keeps us safe and leaves a God-seed there to grow. 

Organic narcissism is mostly a mental-body construct used to protect the being's ego identity - which they desperately cling to as their sense of safety. It is often coupled with the emotional body construct of pain body tantrums used to feed the beast (energy vampirism). These people are corded by the NAA who feed on them, so they need to feed on others. It's the whole setup. Whether it is ancestral or a response to trauma or the way they are raised ... or most likely all of the above... these are tortured souls stuck in a survival mode of sorts.

Just my thoughts (and journey). 
Love,
Carissa

Violet

All quotes come from today's daily glossary pick:

https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Rha_God_World_Creation

recently the 15D Amethyst Order template for the Violet Flame Holders has been rehabilitated with Violet Sun or Amethyst Sun Code transmissions, in which the Violet Flame Holders are embodying newly corrected masculine principle Rod coding. This has had significant impacts to the entire Violet Ray energy current system and has made architectural corrections to some of the fallen timelines in which recollection of the Maji Grail King identities that were lost during the Atlantian Cataclysm, was finally made possible. This event brings forth the importance of focusing upon the alignment of the masculine principle’s higher heart center and the Violet Flame Maji Crown lightbody connection made directly with the Holy Father. This allows the heart-brain and emotional body layers to connect directly with the soul-monadic matrix and then activate the permanent seed atom to express the new feedback loop of source field connection.

For many this means the lifting of the veil of dark ignorance and accurate life review, the ability for God forces to reveal the truth of conscious perception and experience in the contents of what has been co-created in any entity’s unique energy signature. All fallen entities that choose to rehabilitate will come face to face with their true God creator, and experience the results and consequences that these decisions and co-creations have made upon others, by perceiving them as the truthful accounts that were recorded in the memories held within their own consciousness body. 

All that remains is the absolute truth of one’s real identity, as well as intentions, beliefs, motivations and divine purpose. What did we learn while traveling in the fallen matrix of the Milky Way system?

My internal colors are green and purple... is this the Indigo contract and one part of consciousness sources from Amethyst Order and another from Emerald Order? Charlotte saw Emerald Order support and I am getting lots of nudges re: Amethyst Order (such as today's glossary pick about the Rha God World Creation)... I definitely feel like there is that... maybe that's the third flame? I don't know... I think it's different than the ray colors I'm seeing... the blue and gold ray... blue often. This is more foundational... but the return of Holy Mother is softening me and although I've always loved nature and been "outdoorsy", this is a new level that is softened by a deep love. It's actually teaching me what real love is...

This dispensation of the Code of the Violet Sun is sourcing from the Cosmic Holy Father and Cosmic Holy Mother unified creations in the God Worlds, which allows for all genetic lineages in our time matrix to have the opportunity to rehabilitate into the many possible pathways to ascension.

Fallen Angelic Infiltration of 11th Stargate

Due to the Annunaki Hybrid Fallen Angelic infiltration into the 11th dimensional Stargate, this past event resulted in the Checkerboard Mutation and multiple dimensional blending experiments with Artificial intelligence machinery. As a result, the Holy Father principle was hijacked into descending reversals throughout the timelines which manifested itself into many imposter versions of fallen entities representing abuses of power through the False King of Tyranny archetypes. The NAA exploited this damage in the time matrix and inserted themselves as the False Father Alien Gods of their organized religion, which required Blood Sacrifice worship and salvation from original sin. With the Holy Father Amethyst Order lineages showing up in Starseed gridworking and returning into our timelines, it is only a matter of time until the fallen entities will lose their power of controlling the manifestations in the planetary timelines.^[2]

Feels very relevant to my mission.

 Approximately by the end of this year, the Solar Rishi matrix will have braided themselves and anchored the entire Rishic matrix into the Planetary Staff for the purpose of the Universal Trinity integration within the organic timeline of this matter realm.. ^[3] 

May it be so.

In our session on Friday, Dr. Lara saw violet flame...or light... I don't remember what she said... let me see if I wrote it down. I just wrote "violet". Oh well. She probably said light. Anyway... she saw that all around me. I was skeptical because I've heard about the false violet light/astral bliss violet light stuff and I just, in general, was guarded about what came from her because she works with "archangels" and called in "archangel Michael" who I believe is a hijacked consciousness... and I don't want to be stuck in the false ascension matrix again.... the white webbing. 

This whole thing was like it was with Lori where I felt I had to sit there and be a witness but not submit to her... that my authority is and was God... I am sovereign and free. I AM God. One in God. Anyway... somehow I have to witness these energies without being sucked in or corded. I have to cut the cords and wipe away the energetic dust after it's over. 

I pray that I was ... my higher self... Avatar Christos... was able to support Dr. Lara on her journey and bring additional consciousness layers to she and Mark. I care about them.

So we'll see. 

Also: https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Code_of_the_Violet_Sun

I don't need to know all this... the work is still being done if I follow my Krystal heart.... but it encourages and inspires me to continue.... to be brave....to do the work. Yesterday laying in my nest (hammock) in the sun I saw the light codes had a TON more violet and purple in them. Very interesting. Noted, I say.

Ahhh... found https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Inverted_7D_Violet_Ray ... still need to read

Galactic Heart Class

 ...was soooooo good!

Here was my question... didn't get answered but I appreciated my question, ha!

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#10 Carissa 2021-02-27 14:31

I’m working with ALL of this. This was a miraculous talk… I’m stunned by the grace and love and support of God through you. I need to listen to this every day! I volunteer to transcribe it if that would be helpful to you.

I wanted to share my perspective that although my being carries this “Path of the Fall”, that we are here intentionally embodying the Fallen Tree in order to rehab it. (We = oraphim consciousness working through an Indigo 3 contract.) I may be responding in fear to your statement about getting freedom from this "path of the fall” only at death, but I was told (through my own heart) relatively recently that my higher self purposely embodied the fallen tree to show that it can be rehabilitated.

(Continued) From what I understand, I'm somewhere between the Fallen Tree and Krystallah bodies right now… (even though my lightbody is still riddled with damage and even though we are still working so much with negative ego, personality, and soul matrix healing)... so this shift appears to be happening despite not having completed those clearings. I’m working on it for sure, but still lots to go. I believe it's the Guardian teams’ work that is driving the blueprint upgrades which is freeing me from the prison and creating space for me to ascend (in order to support the planetary pathways).

ps. I just re-read my question... I was desperately trying to write it at the same time that I was listening because I didn't want to miss a drop.

Just wanted to apologize because it doesn't really sound like a question, but it was intended as such... I so appreciate your wisdom and perspective.

But like Sequoia said .... if I'm in want of something (like your perspective and help understanding this), then I'm in service to self...and this is what I want to get out of. So everything is perfect and I know God will continue to guide me in DRT.

So much love and appreciation to you both and all the friends and spiritual family members here!

I hope you feel 1000% better from here on out, Mhairi. Thank you both for your work. I'm a grateful recipient of the benefits.

Here's the two configurations... I believe I am in the process of transformation and moving from one to the other. More intel is in the Charlotte session transcript and my paper journal. 

  

Gift from Tree!

Whoaaaah you guys! Life is so surreal and beautiful!! I wrote before about how God had given me a piece of snowflake obsidian…. MIRACLE. And again today… another miracle, this time through God’s expression of my friend, Tree!

I want to clarify that I have had many passing tree teachers and tree friends but this one is uniquely special to me as she seems to be here in DRT to help with the deep trauma processing I’m called to at this time. She is a mirror and comfort to my soul. I introduced her here .

So TODAY on our walk - Moses, Rue, and I usually take the morning walk, my husband takes Moses (and sometimes Rue) on the afternoon walk. If I can convince him to take us ALL on a “family walk" (which includes Sioux (our horse) as well), then that is a treat! We go through family walk phases. Anyway, it’s the dogs and I in the mornings and they are so patient as I spend time with my tree friend.

Today she told me about a piece of garbage that she had to look at in her field of vision… and sure enough, there was an old plastic bag down a little slope and tangled in some roots and dirt. It would be hard to get to and I initially pushed back in my heart some (“I’ll get it later”)… but I knew I had to do it. (I have a whole thing about garbage … God makes me clean it up… when it is brought to consciousness it becomes a responsibility. I have tried to shut it down before and eventually I do…but I am shutting God-consciousness down with it and that’s not acceptable, so I need to listen and pick up the garbage when it’s given to me as a responsibility.)

So I set the dog's leashes down and proceeded to bushwhack through the vines and branches, hoping the beautiful coat my mom just sent me wouldn’t tear, in order to get to that bag. When I got there I saw there was maybe a piece of styrofoam as well as this bag which may or may not have had poop in it! Eep! (It didn’t… my mind just goes there often.) There was also a metal pipe. I gathered the garbage, however, when I picked up the “styrofoam” which was partially buried, it ended up being THIS AMAZING GIFT!!! (Photo attached)

It’s like a trophy and treasure and gift all at once! I feel confident and blessed that it was from my friend and will now be a cherished adornment for our home! (Currently it’s on my desk with a chunk of orange calcite in it.) I just wanted to share… what a life!

  

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Dear beloved Rosemary, Thank you for all you share! First of all, I am always so grateful for your compassionate witnessing - it means a ton to me!

Also, these nuggets that you've shared this morning have been incredible! As soon as you said that about the feminine/masculine quartz, I looked it up and shared it with my friend who has what seems to be like a HG giant quartz (possibly Lemurian quartz)... one is milky colored and the other is clear and they used to be fused together but they broke apart years ago. Anyway, I was excited to share your fun fact with her!

As far as the chalice and 9th sphere/dimension and brain integration, etc.... I'm not sure how you're doing it... probably through your love and our friendship and tapping into my energy signature, but that's exactly what we're working on right now. My teams are repairing those areas. The vagus nerve at the base of the spine sustained an injury in the Nephilim wars and is being repaired, and I have sustained a ton of psychic attack and other (four-body) brain damage in this (and I suppose other) incarnations. 

There's more to that "chalice" piece. I recognized that on some levels as well and have a couple hunches but they aren't for me to go poking at right now as we've got a lot on our plate.

Thanks for the nudge re: the Alpha Omega meditation which landed in my field again yesterday. The Brain Integration one is on regular rotation right now. Also, while we're talking about meditations I just want to thank Lisa-Sophia for bumping or sharing or somehow bringing forth the "Reclaiming Mother-Child Bond" meditation from June 2015. It was exactly what I needed yesterday - I cried lots of tears and it set me up for more density release later in the day as well. 

Such a gift all of you are to me. With me. I love you. WE ARE UNITY.

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Also, here is a response I put on Eddie's thread:

Thank you for your messages Eddie! I appreciate them very much.

I felt led to respond to this even though I can't answer your question, but I was directed to share here. (The notification about your email/subscription/post popped through my computer and I somehow clicked on it and it opened up.... unintentional... but I had a knowing to pay attention.)

Last night at 1:11 I woke up and wrote (Note, I can't really read my slurred writing very well but I'll do my best.)
"Attack - We do not consent. We command our power and space and bodies in all layers of being in the name of Christ-Sophia. 
Yes, this does have to do with clearing the bodies and restoring correct cording and charge. Supporting all creatures, energies, and flows in the human body" (then something I can't read). At 3:00 - 3:03 I wrote "microbes, synapses, and dendrites" .

Sorry for the strange message but am practicing following guidance even if it's weird, lol.

With Love & gratitude,
Carissa 

Pretty rainbows

Ah ha! THIS is what I'm seeing! 

The beloved Aurora flows are very clearly helping to build the earth’s dark matter body layers, with flickering and glittering opalescent rainbow pearl energies being observed as they are weaving through the layers, in a beautiful tapestry of flowing currents.

ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Eukachristic_Body

Today I saw MORE new patterns and textures almost like layers of rainbow light stitches superimposing with the rainbow bullseye things... very interesting to watch!!  I wish I could re-create them. Maybe someday.

Did I mention here about the vibrant rainbow phoenix? I've seen this a couple times. 

Today, probably because it was so clear and sunny, I also saw strong white 12D ray , layers of gold ray, and a couple times a strong blue ray overlay. (I just connected the dots when I linked that article that the blue ray is 13D and the gold is 14D. I haven't really ever noticed a violet ray (15D), but I saw a magenta ray once... though lately I read something that made me wonder if that was not the best thing...a false consciousness overlay or something. I don't know. I have to just wait for these things to reveal more information in DRT.

Anyway, very interesting. I also had an incredible interaction with a gorgeous vulture this morning. She flew over the path we were walking on and landed in a tree nearby and let me get a good long look at her... I took some photos with my terrible cell phone camera... but it was the heart connection that was so powerful. According to a couple spirit animal websites (like this one ) "People with the Vulture totem know how to use their energy powerfully and efficiently. Like the Rattlesnake totem, they can also see auras and colors around people with their higher vision."  I'm not sure about the first part (knowing how to use my energy efficiently), but maybe my vulture friends are helping draw out my ability to see these things which are kind of like planetary auras? Oh, or maybe it's just my own aura? Like I'm seeing it from the inside? Of course that makes sense! I used to be able to see auras a bit... it comes and goes... so we'll just keep watching.
 

USE your talents, dangit

 ARGHHHHHHH!! So USE them.... okay... but God, HOW? Please lead me.

 Matthew 25:14-30

(14) For the kingdom of heaven is as a man travelling into a far country, who called his own servants, and delivered unto them his goods. (15) And unto one he gave five talents, to another two, and to another one; to every man according to his several ability; and straightway took his journey. (16) Then he that had received the five talents went and traded with the same, and made them other five talents. (17) And likewise he that had received two, he also gained other two. (18) But he that had received one went and digged in the earth, and hid his lord's money. (19) After a long time the lord of those servants cometh, and reckoneth with them. (20) And so he that had received five talents came and brought other five talents, saying, Lord, thou deliveredst unto me five talents: behold, I have gained beside them five talents more. (21) His lord said unto him, Well done, thou good and faithful servant: thou hast been faithful over a few things, I will make thee ruler over many things: enter thou into the joy of thy lord. (22) He also that had received two talents came and said, Lord, thou deliveredst unto me two talents: behold, I have gained two other talents beside them. (23) His lord said unto him, Well done, good and faithful servant; thou hast been faithful over a few things, I will make thee ruler over many things: enter thou into the joy of thy lord. (24) Then he which had received the one talent came and said, Lord, I knew thee that thou art an hard man, reaping where thou hast not sown, and gathering where thou hast not strawed: (25) And I was afraid, and went and hid thy talent in the earth: lo, there thou hast that is thine. (26) His lord answered and said unto him, Thou wicked and slothful servant, thou knewest that I reap where I sowed not, and gather where I have not strawed: (27) Thou oughtest therefore to have put my money to the exchangers, and then at my coming I should have received mine own with usury. (28) Take therefore the talent from him, and give it unto him which hath ten talents. (29) For unto every one that hath shall be given, and he shall have abundance: but from him that hath not shall be taken away even that which he hath. (30) And cast ye the unprofitable servant into outer darkness: there shall be weeping and gnashing of teeth. 
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Paliadorian Activation

 My work:

https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Paliadorian_Activation

Some snippets that stood out to me today:

During this phase, the Planetary Staff is being rehabilitated by Krystal Star Guardian Host, which means that our own inner Vertical Channel and relationship to the planet and the stars, is also being radically transformed in this cycle.

Through the current cycle of the Paliadorian Activation, the next stage for the Paliadorian groups are being highlighted, namely the Aquaferion and Krystic Blue Dragon races to support the rehabilitation of the Blue Ray lineages. The Blue Rays restore the Mother Arc 13th Transharmonic gateways throughout multiple harmonic universes and are rebuilding the vertical Planetary Staff to naturally align into the heart of Andromeda. The rebuilding of the Planetary Staff is gradually shifting the unnatural rotational axis of the earth body to become more of a straight line or perpendicular which allows easier access in and out of this Universe, particularly for Diamond Sun beings.^[1]

The current theme during the Paliadorian Activations is the clearing of the Yahweh Matrix and its Blood Covenant bindings out of the Human 12 Tribes genetic records, with the transmissions and support of the Blue Feathers of Aquaferion. 

The Paliadorian eternal light beings created the entire original blueprint and instruction set for all of the 12 human tribes, which when all combined together, comprises the human Tribal Shield records in all of the planetary evolutionary rounds. 

During this cycle through the rise of the Paliadorians, this is activating the human Tribal Shield to become freed of the blood covenants and Alien Hybridization coding imposed upon angelic humans. 

From the Guardian perspective, there are cycles upon cycles completing and converging now in the particle and anti-particle merge, comprising the historical timeline events of human seeding and planetary evolution, with the 8th and 12th Astrological precessions being of specific importance. As a result of the Paliadorian Activation and Aquaferion recoding, the Tribal Shield and the coded DNA information is removing alien hybrid genetic codes, AI codes and an assortment of Blood Covenants used as Consciousness Traps.

Thus, the Vertical Channel and Staff configuration in our head, crown, heart and solar star is shifting alignment to receive more step-down frequencies of the Cosmic Heart Mother Blue Ray through the Aquaferion Host network, through which we may experience intense to surreal Lightbody upgrades. This also may result in levels of spiritual warfare instigated from the Yahweh system entities to regain control or access to your lightbody or block the systematic purge of Black Cube Matrix and layers of the Yahweh architecture and its AI Signal from being extracted out of your lightbody.

As this intense initiation occurs, it brings the karmic imprints that form into the pain body and shadow selves to rapidly burst out onto the surface reality, so these frequency patterns can be released so the new frequency sets being transmitted can embody.As we become aware of the releases of karmic imprints or shadow energies, we can intend to transmute those energies through the Solar Logos, seeing the Christ consciousness as a Sun image, merging the combined shadow energies with the Solar light, to bring them into synchronization with the highest possible harmony and outcome.^[4]

This Galactic activation holds an assortment of liquid rainbow plasma frequency sets and new elemental patterns and geometric blueprints to override Metatronic Reversal coding. These are being transmitted for co-creating an organic ascending architecture for the Earth, Taran and Gaian historical timelines that are being directly hosted by the Andromedan system.

Tree friend

Oh my gosh! This thread just got even better and I had to come skipping back to share my enthusiasm for the added information that Lisa shared re: their tree guardians!

What a beautiful opportunity to introduce you to my new friend too! I have dragged my husband and later my nieces and nephews over to meet her - she is so special to me. I don't know how it happened but one day we recognized each other. I often see mirrors of my consciousness in trees and this one, who I have walked by daily for years, all of a sudden reached out and I recognized her (and myself in her). She has been badly wounded but is strong and beautiful in her imperfection and in a way represents me. It's only been maybe since the beginning of this year since she and I became friends but every day I stop and deeply hug her and kiss her and sometimes compassionately witness her wounds (which are portals of consciousness to individual and collective abuse - most often showing up as scars from SRA and/or sexual misery programs). 

My dogs are always patient as she and I share beautiful energy on our daily walks - rain or shine - and this week she introduced me to her friend nearby who actually has energy that reminds me of my husband, ha! He's a river birch, I believe, and so beautiful. I'm not sure what kind of tree my friend is, but I guess I should find out. Anyway, the other day as we were walking by there was a piece of indigo glass in the path and I almost pocketed it but then thought to bring it to my friend as a gift and adornment. I think she really likes it! So THANK YOU, Lisa, for your message... it was very aligned with my experience and I will now try to be even more conscious of the trees' consciousness. 

Oh, one more thing, we have some amazing roots that I try to stand or walk on each day too. One of them looks like an eye that I feel is very powerful. I'll have to take a picture of it one day. In the meantime, here's a snap of my friend:
 

With joy,
Carissa


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Here's what I said earlier:

Absolutely GORGEOUS!!! Thank you for the beautiful upgrades to the site! Love the trees!!!

I've been thinking that I needed to update my profile photo for the past couple weeks. Logging in and seeing this motivated me to go snap a new photo with my beloved Roody to go along with the new clothes/look of the site!   

I can't even begin to imagine how much work went into this - THANK YOU for your hard work and the incredible dedication, discipline, and diligence that is required to follow through on the God-breathed vision entrusted to you. You are moving the needle ... okay...a LOT MORE than a needle now! 

GOD BLESS YOU Lisa & Tomás, and all the beings, teams, and that which is beyond my comprehension that are supporting this incredible undertaking! 

Love & Gratitude,
Carissa
 

Raise my vibration

 Glossary pick today: https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Depression

This is why Abraham-Hicks helped so much... listening to her and the positive spin and energy brought forth helped me to shift out of some very deep black subtle forces and demonic possession. 

Today I'm getting lots of information about RAISING MY VIBRATION... this is the key to the next harmonic universe, to the Soul Matrix, so I can unite the Soul and Monadic planes. 

I was also served (through my friend Rosemary) with a link to the Azazael article which led to LOTS of valuable information about dark forces. 

I feel super supported and grateful!

Took this photo - new one for my ES profile... it's been niggling me for a week or two... Roody and I this morning!

Mockingbird

I've loved Mockingbirds for a few years but this year they've been showing up and speaking to my heart. Just now I looked them up because I wonder if they are another spirit guide or totem animal like the vulture? They are definitely speaking to me now... maybe these are seasonal influences, but either way, I want to learn.

http://www.shamanicjourney.com/mockingbird-power-animal-symbol-of-overcoming-fear
Mockingbird power animal symbol of overcoming fear!!

https://whatismyspiritanimal.com/spirit-totem-power-animal-meanings/birds/mockingbird-symbolism-meaning/

Mockingbird teaches you how to discover your voice, all while showing you what inspires and ignites your soul. 

We cannot talk about Mockingbird meanings without touching briefly on the famous book, “To Kill a Mockingbird,” by Harper Lee; in this tome, the death of a Mockingbird is a representation of the loss of innocence, specifically by coming into contact with evil. The story implies killing a Mockingbird is a sin because the only thing they do is sing and make beautiful music.

Some of the key characteristics and attributes of Mockingbird Animal Spirit include inventiveness, keen-mindedness, happiness, playfulness, protection, thankfulness, security, and, most of all, communication.

The Mockingbird Spirit Animal carries several messages on its wings. Perhaps the most important one is that of finding your voice and the music that inspires your soul. Your “song” has power – the vibration in your words ring out with intent. There is no need to keep this powerful energy within. Sing! Along the same lines, you should probably take some time to think about your interactions with others. Do they understand you fully? If not, let Mockingbird help.

Another lesson Mockingbird offers points to the utility of imitation. Imitation is a form of flattery; in some instances, it is far more than just that. Children imitate the behaviors of their parents, which helps teach safety, social strictures, respectfulness, and, of course, language; 

Finally, Mockingbird teaches us how to be curious and learn from experience. Every sound a Mockingbird sings comes from discovery. They hear it, seek it out carefully, and then begin replicating that through practice.

Mockingbird Symbolic Meanings Key

• Boundaries
• Communication
• Family Unity
• Gratitude
• Innocence
• Inventiveness
• Playfulness
• Protection
• Safety
• Security

Loosh Farming

 Been talking to friends more often about the Loosh farming that’s happening. We are cattle. These days and in our country, we are set up from birth...  a strawman ear tag created to track us and add us to their pot of human commodities. I thought about this years ago and wondered what they were farming… I thought it was maybe economic influence... but now I see it’s loosh production. More people = more Loosh . 

The world has been intentionally manipulated to get to this place where people are traumatized, broken, and filled with cords and portals to suck their life force out! I see now how the NAA controllers have put processes in place to splinter souls. Disconnect people from their Source, crack up their emotional bodies, implant their mental bodies with false realities, and deny their divine connection to Spirit. Compounded with (on and off-planet) SRA and all the medical, educational, and religious structures set up to traumatize and fracture the beings....and we've got a highly operational Loosh factory going! 

Attached artwork is from screenshots from this YouTube video . (Starts off with reference to 23 as well. Ahh!!) I couldn’t listen to the sound, but the imagery was what I was looking for to an extent. (Though really we've got sunny skies and we THINK we are happily “living”, but we are in captivity and being JUICED.)
 

Wanting context and other thoughts from today

 Isn't it my MIND that wants CONTEXT for these experiences?

post on FB answering this person's question: "What do each of you "feel" about this? I'd like to hear your thoughts and your feels on it."

I said: I personally FEEL the magnetic shifts. I've become much more sensitive to magnetic frequencies (verified using a Tri-Field meter over the years). I learned lately that the magnetic field is related to the feminine (where electric is masculine) and I have heard many say that more "divine feminine" energy is accessible now. So this seems to be in line with your meme.

All the ideas that I appreciate seem to provide context for my experiences. I realize they may not be exactly what's happening but take them in and hold them because I want something to explain what I think I am living. Ultimately it's probably about no longer needing context and as the messenger from God who has quietly helped me for many years says... learning to "just beeeee" is the key.

I'm still in the phase where I want context, but maybe the recognition of this crutch is a sign of evolution on the horizon.

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In Michael's class, no less, I learned/saw that the mention of the Nephilim being the kids of the Annunaki (Anuk, it says) is from Numbers 13:33 (note the number code.)

I've been thinking that I should go through the bible and look at the number codes ... look up all 9:23's for example. I did that with one number at least 10 years ago...wrote down all the verses named 1:11 or something. NOT that, but something like that. 

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I don't like that Michael is sick. He's healing. His body is tired. He's been doing MMS protocol and I wish he'd slow down. 

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Ah, my last post was at 12:55. Just sayin'! This isn't what I wanted to share but I saw today the mention of the Nephilim being the kids of the Annunaki (Anuk, it says) in the bible - Numbers 13:33 (note the number code). 

I've been thinking that I should go through the bible and look at the number codes ... look up all 9:23's for example. I did that with one number about 10 years ago...I'll find it when I get to that journal, but I've been thinking I should do that more. Even now I'm seeing relevant codes in the numbers. Psalm 23:4 for instance. The other day Luke 9:23 reminded me to deny my lower-self and take up my exposure to death and follow Yeshua's example (which sure wasn't comfortable for him, but he did some great work)....and not to cling to my life (which is ultimately a mirage), but to be willing to surrender my life (I commit to serving my highest power fully, completely, and totally) for the sake of God/Unity.

I haven't been reading the bible a ton the past 5 years or so but I was heavily trained by my higher self on it starting in January 2010 - teaching me to read it with new eyes and deeper understanding, highlighting distortions, etc. I think there is a reason for this and I was told many times this last decade "not to throw the baby out with the bathwater"... just because there is a ton of gunk in there, doesn't mean that there aren't also valuable creation codes. Yeah. This really may be related to this number situation. You guys... I'm trying not to inundate anyone but I get like SO MANY number codes each day... you can see I'm a little unstable about it. I was glad to hear Mhairi talk in the last Galactic Heart Ascension Call about her experience and also wondering if she was going a bit insane when this happened to her years ago. 

Oh my gosh... this isn't even why I'm writing. And I'm sorry to be writing again, but I wanted to share/document this. I was reading this AG page on Dreamwalking (thank you Eddie. I loved this article before but loved it even more today! Also, not that you'll see this, but wanted to thank you for all you post. The other day one of those Celtic music videos or maybe it was your comment with it left me sobbing.)

So anyway, from https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Dreamwalking. I thought this was a really good summary of our work. Much better stated than my feeling that my purpose is to "drag darkness into the light" but pretty much saying the same thing more eloquently. When I read it I thought of you and our interaction earlier, UNITY4ALL, as this is the polarity integration we get to be a part of. 

The path of awakening is to bring that which is unconscious into consciousness, in order to heal the darkness or reveal the deception in order to see the greater truth. This is the state of bringing the eternal light to illuminate the shadows of darkness, thereby alchemically transforming its nature to reflect the higher truth, as the light shines upon it.

But here's what I want to talk about a little as I hope and believe I am shifting my present day architecture by reading my journals ("an examined life"/is this the same as life review?) and re-experiencing my painful energetic signature from that time. I am trying to compassionately witness and bringing true parent energy to that timeline, but it's really hard/intense.

But this is an opportunity to practice first on myself and then maybe I can be of honest use to others. (I believe that in the past or other timelines or something I have really mucked around in people's lives using this kind of dreamwalking technology or something similar. I've been told more than once that I messed around with dark energies and/or was involved in spiritual leadership abuse or something like that. I think it just comes back to heart intent... STS or STO? I've been a raging control-freak manipulator (or part of me has, anyway)... but thanks be to God that now we are given a chance at rehabilitation. 

The act of observation collapses certain wave potentiality that makes a situation, event or object become physical or change in ways that shift the timelines, and this is not measurable by current science. It is a direct function of higher consciousness embodiment to shift timelines from destructive probabilities or annihilation, by restoring harmony and energetic balance between the polarities. When we observe electromagnetic wave-forms, archetypal patterns and the creational myth or dream symbols active in the field, we can change the physical environment and how that Electromagnetic Signals or pattern is being expressed in the manifest. The act of Compassionate Witnessing during consciousness transport, such as dreamwalking, allows us to witness what has happened to the earth body, where the earth was damaged, and the blueprint content that influences the direction of the collective consciousness of humanity. Where the earth has been damaged, is also the location of tremendous amounts of human pain that is stuck in that area. As a result of this trauma, the accumulated collective human soul pain has been made into energy harvesting stations for the NAA.

First heal me/this incarnation and then I can maybe continue to be of assistance on a planetary level. I don't discount that I am a mirror of the macrocosm so healing my microcosm supports the structure to heal the whole, but still... my focus right now is on Cristy (my inner child and "self" this incarnation...and bleed-through multi-d issues that pop up). What a GIFT I've given to myself though, ya'll! You should see my journals - they are really raw and sometimes I even talk to my future self (me now), it's wild. Mostly painful though... really hard to witness the suffering and addictions and choices and experiences... I am not going as fast as I should because it's so heavy.

But this is the work. And an absolute honor. 

I've been inspired by those who are working with the PEG projects but I just know thats not for me now. It sounds so glamorous and wonderful but it's not my time yet. I'm even having to disengage with the SRA transiting thread (mostly... I peek sometimes - ha!), but my work right now is witnessing, repairing, and transiting my own SRA damage and, of course, continual negative ego clearing .... feels like that will never end. I've got to break down my resistance to it (the negative UCKIES that come up - fear, pain, sadness, shame, etc.)... I just wrote to myself that "resistance is futile... or damaging at least... accept and flow with it." I couldn't have said it better myself! ;) 

MUAH!

Random Musings

 Ahhhhh!! Rosemary!! Look at this love note I just found!! Bless you! Thank you!!! (I'm sorry I didn't see it earlier. Maybe I unsubscribed somehow from my own thread? Ha! I'll check that out. THANK YOU!!) I got it now though, in DRT, so it's all good! So much love and appreciation to you for the love notes you leave so many ... they are kind and soothing nuggets for our souls. 

Today's musings stemmed from my glossary pick:  ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Alien_Implants  > "Tracking Important Releases of AI Implants”

Reptilian Tail  is observed as Alien Implants on the base of the coccyx which are used to stop the lower three bodies (1D-2D-3D) from forming into a merkaba spinning field which allows for drawing in higher source fields from the higher  Soul  planes and the  Monadic  planes for the spiritual  Lightbody .It is designed to block  Kundalini  activation while feeding the lower  Negative Ego  mental body complex.

I’ve been wondering if the terribly painful and inexplicable tailbone pain that I’ve been experiencing since January 4th this year is related to the healing of a reptilian tail. I know Lisa has talked about this since last year so I feel good about it - on track - strong and grateful for the shift....but it's definitely unpleasant. I have pain in my left side as well that I think is related to my 4th sphere maybe moving upwards as my energetic body morphs to the next stage.

Along with this thought about reptilian tail (which is often what came to me when it would hurt so bad at night. It might be better now).... but I am trying to understand the “reptilian” influence. Dear Roseanne has a lot of knowledge about reptilians as a species and has motivated me to try to pay more attention. For some reason I had lumped reptilians in with Nephilim and Annunaki but that's not right. The latter are human or angelic types/hybrids, while reptilians are lizards. I believe that I have Annunaki/Nephilim influence that I am working with, but waiting to unpack this reptilian piece.

Back to that bullet point: I have exploded and absent 1-3rd chakras (spheres too?) in some dimensions/timelines (likely to be this one or one that I’m currently collapsing)… so this is aligned with my experience and I feel confident that we are on the road to recovery!!

Scalar Tagging  has been used on 4D astral plane by extra-dimensionals for quite a long time. With inner vision, some versions of them may appear like dark "jacks" or "confetti" splattered around your aura field. 

I have also noticed a TON of these little shadows floating around my field. I used to see a couple here and there but lately it’s like confetti as Lisa described. The first time I noticed how many of them there were I was talking to a friend and I thought that maybe these were HIS but they’ve stayed with me so I guess it was just the light or maybe even his and/or his wife’s energy fields that triggered my HSP. I don’t know. But this hit home for rme. 

While we're on the topic of strange visual occurrences, I have ALSO noticed a bunch of little aurora rainbow dots… it’s hard to describe but it looks like maybe what it might look like if you were under the surface of water when it was raining on the water, the little drop lands and expands with rainbow rings coming out of it. Anyone have any insight. The fact that they are rainbow makes me feel good about these. The other ones are dark shadows and they do not make me feel good, though I have hope that they are brought to my attention for the purpose of healing/removal... first I noticed them and now I'm learning what they are. God is with us.  

Both the rainbow drops and the shadows are actual visuals, not inner vision stuff. Same with the ray colors that I keep talking about. Actual colors. The green and purple colors are seen more with inner vision. I wonder what’s “real” and what’s artificial? Hard to know. Just have to keep walking.

Metatronic Implants  - are  Metatronic Reversals  connect to  Metatronic Implants  in the shadow body or  Negative Form  that are designed to reverse and drain life force out of the earth body and the human body. The shadow body or  Negative Form  must be cleared from the human  Lightbody  in order to reconnect the ascending potential of the twelfth dimensional template of the human body.

There were a few days lately that I sensed (hoped!!) that my body was getting upgrades to connect to the organic source of life and Holy Mother. It felt like I was getting the life drained out of me but I wondered if maybe it was because I was being disconnected from an inorganic cord that was both fueling and funneling from me. I thought maybe it left me a little depleted because I was building pathways to connect to the organic matrix aligned with Christ Sophia I AM. I was led to do the Umbilicus reset a few times during the time I was sensing this the strongest so I do think it’s related.

Baby steps. I always think I’m so much farther along than I am, but even so, I’m going in the right direction right now. Each breath, each thought, each action is an opportunity to choose directions. 

Since I’m chatting, I also want to throw my hat in about feeling the Victim/Victimizer energy. The other night I was led to do the VV meditation . Sleep has been hard to find lately (until last night - last night I got some!) I woke up at 12:34 3:55 and 5:53, but otherwise good! Side note: is there something I’m Supposed to DO with those numbers? I track them but, for instance, last night I knew that 3:55 and 5:53 were nudging me re: the NRG grid, so I brought consciousness to it and a prayer for God’s help and presence, but what else do people do?

I am torn because I make myself sound stupid and naive when I have so much understanding and wisdom, but often it’s just on different layers in my consciousness experience. It’s there and it is accessible when needed, but when it’s not needed and my inner child wants to communicate or connect with other people, I just work out of this space of ignorance (which isn’t TRUE…it’s a lie in a way… not in a way, but in a way it is.) It’s forced… push-pull energy. It’s not who I AM. Who I AM is supposed to just BE and NOT “try to connect” with others (manipulation of experience), who I AM is meant to be present in the flow and allow life to live through me. So the problem is my “me” trying to … well, “TRYING” to do anything. JUST DO. Dang. Well thanks be to God for that information too. So what do I do with it? Erase all this? Share the process? 

New Topic:
I was going to delete this story re: energy vampirism (triggered by the metatronic implant bullet) but I think I’ll leave it. 
I’ve been conscious of the life being sucked out of me. I know I’ve talked in the past of being an energetic vampire, but I also have had the pleasure of BEING vampirized by a starseed sister who is like me… she really is like a twin… a stronger, more powerful, more intelligent, more empathic twin. In fact, she was brought the term “energy vampire” to my field in 2016 and accused me of this, which I initially pushed back on, of course…but then I saw. 

However, turns out that she was one too. Anytime I talked to her I felt like she was like making copies of me and like she was becoming me in a way…feeding on my soul essence... hard to explain, but it made me want to protect myself.  She was/is so caring and always asked me about myself but when I shared it I felt like it was food for her in some way. Again, she doesn’t know this… it was happening energetically. (And I see now how I do/did this too!!)

She lives a half-a-country away so I don’t see her in person often - maybe once a year for the past 4 years - and every time I was with her I would also get so drained. It happens on the phone too, but in person it is magnified. Last year we went on a little mini-vaca together and I found myself so depleted and I started getting snappy because I just felt attacked (though she was definitely NOT attacking me…she was being so kind and lovely and becoming even more energetic and bright. I see now that it was her (subconsciously) feeding off my energy as fuel. Thanks be to God for this experience and opportunity to learn. I have wondered for years if I should tell her, but I don’t think so. I’ve tried to share ES materials with her to no avail for a couple years so I just have to trust the process.

One more thing…this friend does energy work and I used to be so grateful for her support and insight, but I’ve been declining her offers for a few months. This past week she offered again and I felt bad so I let her. I tried to honor an energetic exchange and sent her some money so that it would be on the up-and-up. (In the past she has done it for free … sometimes I’ve paid her and sometimes I’ve traded services with her….but it’s always a little blurry and since she is a dear friend - we share our lives and truly think of ourselves as sisters it just seemed okay to let her care for me in that way and she always said she really wanted to. Anyway, I wanted to put an end to the blur and try to put some energetic boundaries around it.) Unfortunately it was still not clear-cut and finally, this week, I told her that I really didn’t want her to access my field now … that I’m trying to close up portals of consciousness. She explained that it was God that was accessing me, not her, and I told her I understood but it’s just what I feel to do now. So I feel good about that. 

ONE MORE THING - I wanted to start a thread to just thank all the the amazing people who are saving us through the work they are doing! I for sure feel like I am being rescued and am beyond grateful to those who are supporting the gridwork to help get us out of the webs and wormholes we’ve been stuck in. BUT I also realized this is perpetuating the Hero/Savior complex. My idea that I need to be rescued and looking at others as heroes who are saving me is more negative ego plaything… so I want to both honor my gratitude and the work and call out the stickiness of my hero complex. 

Believe it or not, this is just a drop in the hat of my world. We’ve got SO MUCH going on on so many timelines. OH SHOOT….okay, ONE MORE THING… last one, I promise. (I hope.)

I had this realization last week about DETOX. You know how we are detoxing our bodies so that the toxins can move out? Well I am also detoxing my mind, emotions, and spirit. My energy body as a whole. All four bodies need detox and help supporting the detox pathways. People like me who are so “toxic” are highly sensitive to stimuli. EMF, mind control, implants, all the NAA games, etc. 

My detox pathways in my physical body are all clogged up with heavy metals, old pharmaceuticals, and other junk so when I try to support the body with a new supplement I have to go very “low and slow”. At one point I was cutting a single vitamin in 5 or 6 pieces or shaving off just a tiny piece because one vitamin could cause herxheimer reactions that kept me bedridden for days thinking I was dying! Anyway… this actually applies to all four of my energy bodies. I am opening pathways for stored emotional traumas and stored mental beliefs and ideas that were never understood or processed and have poisoned my body… gotten stuck as “biounavailable” pieces in my energy body. When they start to fester they create disease states. 

I think many of the young indigos and those “on the spectrum” are also just coming in with such gunked up detox pathways (passed on through genes and perpetuated by environmental factors)… and since they are designed to be moving so much spiritual energy, they get caught in this herxheimer reaction on a spiritual level (and all levels). We need to go low and slow and build pathways for all our four bodies.

I’ve never been big into TV but I’ve watched a moderate amount of television and movies and I know that when I watch one, especially these past few years when I’m already processing so much, I have a really hard time working it (the drama in the TV show) though my system… I can watch an hour long show and it can take a day or more to work it all out emotionally (depending on what it is). I remember the first time I noticed that was when I watched Titanic in the theatres … I realized that on some level I BECAME those characters and lived their experiences. I guess I did this through books as well. I always liked to read. So I wonder how these external dramas affect our four-body detox pathways?

Okay…stopping…..
Thanks be to God for all the lessons these days. 
I am grateful to be here with you all.
Love,
Carissa