Loves me and takes care of me and helps me
When he's not overburdened and his nervous system is strong, he can be there for me. I need to be there for him.
He wants to help me heal and get better too. He takes tangible steps - willing to rip out my rug and clean my house with me. Helps with horse poop. Loves the animals and loves to walk and be in nature with me.
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I realized the other day that I tend to operate from my Animus. I think, speak, and often act from this part of myself and it is harmful to myself and others.
I need to integrate my animus instead of being possessed by it.
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Yes, in Jungian psychology, women can think and speak from their animus—the unconscious masculine aspect of the female psyche. When not integrated, this often manifests as "animus possession," where a woman becomes rigid, argumentative, and overly intellectual, expressing cold, generalized opinions or "prejudiced" views that feel unnatural to her personality. [1, 2, 3, 4, 5]
Letter to Diego, Letter to my Teacher,
First, I’m sorry this is so much. I’m writing this opening after I’ve already written waaaaaayyyy too much.
I loved your email and appreciate it so much. My response which opens spontaneously after listening to a snippet from Esoteric Psychology incorporates some of what bubbled up for me as I read your note. I really enjoyed your thoughts on Group-Consciousness and am interested in hearing more!
Here goes….
Have you studied the monad (or monadic ray, maybe?)? I heard Alice talking about that and she said people cannot discern if they are a monad of power, love, or intelligent activity unless they are an Initiate of the 3rd initiation or something like that.
She said the monad is one’s highest life aspect.
This woman was speaking a long time ago (100 years?) so maybe that’s how things were then…. but does it seem like there’s more access for humans to be in contact with their higher selves or higher aspects now? I think so. Did the whole fabric of existence change in 2012 for everyone? Is it possible there were some initiates beforehand but that now everyone can break through the veil to access their higher selves? (My boss was just talking about the tearing of the veil in Christianity at the moment of Jesus’ supposed death, making that the moment that people could then have a direct relationship with the “Holy Spirit”?) I don’t know…but I wonder if there’s something to the fact that the Mayan calendar ended in 2012? (I had a major breakthrough to my own higher God-self on January 2, 2010 (0102|2010 <-- palindrome!) which was before 2012 but I was trying to birth myself before that too. Did you have any major experience like that?)
Okay…back to the 3rd initiation/monad…
I have heard and agree that there is an even higher aspect … the 4th initiation?? …Called the Avatar level. (I am guessing there are probably higher ones too?)
I’d love to try to express my vision or theory on how this works but it might be hard to do. It’s related to your theory of Group Consciousness. It’s my personal gestalt theory. Let me try.
Currently I imagine it works like this…
Is it possible that a soul aspect that Sources from a distant “location”… some think of the locations like stars or galaxies and right now I wonder if it is a form of time … but I digress. So let’s just say we were “born” or originate from Star A…. and then we are assigned to support a mission on star B, so we have to put on the starsuit for Star B. So our soul is made up of stardust from Star A, but we put on a suit that will allow us to live and move and breathe on Star B. While there we realize that part of our work requires going to Planet C and we need to get in another form…another ship or suit to be able to interact with the lifeforms there. And maybe the physical density of these places is different… maybe we have to become more dense and as we become more dense, maybe we lose some of our clarity and inherent power and if we keep going deeper (because it’s our mission or interest), maybe eventually we lose touch with our highest aspect, the deepest layer of ourselves sourcing from Star A.
I currently think there are number of souls that have joined the mission to support the reclamation of the Earth. I think this has to do with crystals / crystallization so the term cryst or Chryst or Christ mission works for me. But as we’ve discussed before, I believe the mission is the same whether it’s Buddha consciousness, Love, Christ consciousness, or whatever theological or philosophical term anyone wants to throw at it. They/we are all touching the same Elephant. (Let me know if you don’t know that parable.)
Oh, and the “gestalt” part of putting on those suits is that I think that we join these group consciousnesses who are working these “missions”. So Carissa from Star A joins TEAM Star B and becomes part of the gestalt/group consciousness (or pendulum – loving this term from “Reality Transurfing”) who are doing their work on Star B and then they join another subset or group or gestalt or group consciousness or mission who opts to go to Planet C to work on that project (which impacts the work on Star B).
Does this make any sense?
So I suspect you and I have CHOSEN to come to this plane, to this earth, to this “time”, to support the reclamation and restoration of the energetic architecture of earth and/or humanity. What I struggle with right now … what I am resisting … is the “victim mentality” implied by this. The idea that the “fall” or “damage” was intentional or the result of rogue beings or energies or aliens or whatever anyone want to call them and that there is a war. There are New World Orders and One World Orders and who knows what other ones who feel they have the BEST PLAN for how this earth (how the human farm??) should be run. That there should be less people, that there should be more. That they should be slaves, that they should be free. Etc.
This is too long but I was moved to share with you. I loved your message and am excited to have someone to ponder with. I hope it’s not too much.
In summary, I agree with the belief that we have these layers of being/initiation… maybe these? These are taught about in Energetic Synthesis.
PHYSICAL > SOUL > MONAD > AVATAR
Thank you for sharing your experience with the people you have met on the dating app. It sounds like you have great discernment and I’m sure you will see my ego and pain body as well. Humans are (I AM) messy. But my desire is to be a clear vessel and to continue to break down my illusions and I love the pursuit of consciousness, truth, and alignment.
I too hope we can be real friends and you are/this is the greatest treasure I could imagine! I only talked to a couple people too and am grateful for the opportunity to feel what a lack of alignment feels like. I was honestly trying to use “dating” to distract me from the work I need to do on myself. I am not suitable for dating anyway – I’m in the process of reclaiming myself. (This is the micro-to-the-macro work of being human.) I need to figure out how to eat and care for myself. I have abandoned myself for years (and/or lifetimes?). But I also struggle with not wanting to be alone and a big part of my soul’s mission (even confirmed by that Healer’s Code card reading) is finding a balance between my intellectual/spiritual pursuits and relationships. I am here to balance spiritual energy and earth energy… as the meeting point of heaven and earth. I am the son/daughter (child) of “Father God” and “Mother Earth”. So I guess I’ll keep feeling into all that.
Anyway, you are an answer to my prayers. I had a friend like this that had similar depth and power that you have and he left (his body) a few years ago and I’ve missed him so. I never met him in “real life”…he lived in NYC. But anyway, I immediately felt a similar energy signature with you. So thank you for being here as long as the Universe lets me share in the pursuit of truth with you.
Did you look up Mattias De Stefano? Does he feel like a brother to you too? He does to me for sure. I saw on the Lucis Trust website that they have groups called Triangles and based on that and what you shared in your answer about group consciousness (about working together to heal the earth), it has a grid working feel to it. I believe that I am (maybe everyone is?) “key coded” as a grid worker too and a part of the teams supporting the healing of the earth. (The Jewish term Tikkun Olam was one of the first phrases/assignments of/from my soul in 2010. The phrase itself, not the way the Jewish people do it.) Anyway, I’m super interested in your take on Mattias!
And Pablo Sender seems like a kindred spirit for sure too!
I HAVE TO STOP! Poor Diego! I’m sorry!!
Please don’t feel you have to respond to all (or any) of my blatherings. I’d love to hear what bubbles up for you and what is in your field now. What do you want to share? What have you seen or thought about?
By the way, I listened to Jean-Marie Leclair yesterday. He seems to write for strings primarily? Maybe not. Do you play other instruments besides the piano? Do you write your own music? I love the pianoness/musicness (these are not words) about you!
With Love,
Carissa
