Good to me

Ag Pick. https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Galactic_Federation
Been getting messages from them and grateful to God for the reminder to steer clear. And I can watch if I want to.

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Ryan's just not into me.
I'm reading that book... "He's just not that into you: the no-excuses truth to understanding guys".... and it's right. Ryan isn't attracted to me, he doesn't want to touch me. My running after him and trying to help him doesn't help. Take it for what it is. It's so nice to have a friend like him, right across the street, and he loves my animals and is willing to help me. But he's not into me. It's confusing because sometimes he does call me because he's thinking about me. But he's trying to override it in his head... to choose to be attracted to me when he's not. I can judge and say that I can't live up to his porn-fueled expectations and frankly it will be hard for anyone ...but maybe God's got a lady out there for him and I will just ...must just...be happy for him when he finds her. But I want to save myself for someone who cherishes me and wants me and wants to live and grow and play with me. 

Ryan can be my friend. But stop lying to myself that maybe he'll come around.

And Aunt Brenda is dying. God, please comfort her and be with her and Cliff & Theresa. Thank you for them.

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I’ve been reading the book “he’s just not that into you” all day today… And I got it in my head that Ryan is just not that into me, but he brought me dinner at work tonight and spent time with me looking over Ireland plans…and just now I got home after a very long day… 15 hours …And Ryan had worked all afternoon on my house to surprise me… He hand hewn my door thresholds…  hand made these thresholds from scratch… Out of Poplarwood… They are so special and perfect… And he fixed my lights… He’s taking really good care of me… So be grateful … And don’t think evil… And be happy… It is more than enough… I am blessed … abundantly . He is generous and talented and I am so lucky!

I think the books and Disney want us to have unrealistic expectations. This is love. Day in and day out.