Grateful for Ryan

I have had two amazing days in a row with Ryan. Yesterday I came home from work and he had left a giant bouquet (made up of 2 bouquets) of flowers for me that he arranged himself! And he took the dogs and I on a walk and lit the burn pile on fire and brought the tractor over to tend to it and moved Sioux's poop pile back and after Corie left we had a nice late dinner together with Jeopardy and a really great and tender loving encounter... a nice nice night. And today he got up early and drove me to Raleigh and waited for me while I had my teeth cleaned/dentist appointment and we went to Costco and had QUITE the shopping trip, but it was really fun and easy going. We had a nice drive home and we hung out at his house talking for a while about spirituality and quantum physics and he didn't even get mad at all... it was a great conversation! And then I went home for a bit and did some Malai and animal chores and prepared dinner and he came over for dinner and we chatted and looked at my leaking porch and downloaded and started exploring Cronometer which was very interesting to him to see how many calories food actually had. And we went through our Ireland itinerary play-by-play. It was just really really nice. It feels so good when we're in a groove together. When I don't trigger him. When he's strong in himself and unrattled by my sometimes kooky energy. Yesterday he was so strong for Sunshine and I as the smoke made us nervous from the burn pile... I was really nervous about that thing but it's burning... it's been raining for a day and supposed to continue so I think it will go out, but it was good to see that it wasn't as scary as I thought it might be.

Donnie has done miracles with my house - the yard looks INCREDIBLE! He did his first cut the other day and cleaned out garden beds and everything. It's beautiful!

Yeah, just a good day. We picked out some stuff for his Dad's birthday together too. Just ... ah. So cozy and right. I love him. I really do. He's my guy. If only we can find our groove and keep it. I'm grateful he's starting therapy next week. Hope it's a good fit. God's will be done. 

Thank you God for a beautiful life!