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Whooooo... just got home from another 15 hour day. This was County Commissioner Tony Braswell's Memorial Celebration. A dance and open bar and just a lovely time! 

I really enjoyed meeting (and dancing with and talking with) many people tonight. I hugged Leigh Anne .... I forgot her last name...and talked with Butch... I forgot his last name. I liked talking with Ryan's friend Jeffrey and with Ryan, even though I feel like a little weird.... I felt to give him my tigers eye stone and necklace/holder and printed him out something to tell him about it. Weird. But I liked him. I liked both those guys. And Todd and Shannon from The Town Florist... and Steve and Parras and Skyler from The Rolling Tavern and John (I think) the DJ. Just fun to work and play with these people. I danced.... and worked my BUTT OFF to help clean up and break down everything. Took almost 2 hours. But it went quick, I guess. 

I'm tuckered.

But I wanted to write that I saw and felt how nice it would be to be part of a family with money. I liked hearing about Jeffery's life and wife and current endeavors and heard a little about Ryan's commercial real estate and I saw their family and it was just lovely. My favorite lady that I met and danced with was a 2nd grade teacher for ... was it 28 years?? A lonnnng time whatever it was. No, she was a 4th grade teacher and Ryan's mom was a 2nd grade teacher. But Ms. Delaine was so sweet and talked to me for quite a while. ?We danced together. She asked where I was from ... southerners (and these were really Southern) are skeptical about us Yankees. But we love each other and shared hearts. I had such a nice talk with Ryan's mom too. And enjoyed meeting Todd, Ryan's brother. Just wish I could be near them all more. So it shows me that there IS another way. 

I called my Ryan on the way home and we had a regular conversation - but there were things I did that triggered him and it was awkward when he called me his friend... and he IS my friend and really just need to keep it at that. Don't I see that I could have an abundant life where I belong to/with someone who wants to belong to/with me. And if I'm not single, that makes it really hard. And I want to be with someone who gets me and likes me. These people are probably not them... Jeffrey had similar vibes, I would love to be friends with him. But he lives in Austin Texas with his wife and 7 year old daughter. Anyway.... I won't see them again. I was telling Ryan that I have these transcendant shared experiences with these event people and then don't see them again. 

Well my doggies are here to love on me... and I want to lay and play with them and take a shower and go to sllllleeeep. It's 11:32.

A good day. I love my co-workers too. We started the day singing "Arms Wide Open" by Creed together...singing and dancing and stretching. We laugh and play and talk and share... I'm SO LUCKY. I have the BEST job and BEST coworkers!!!

I had to call the Sheriff's office to find out where our officers were and ...this isn't journalworthy, but it felt important. I just am so grateful for my job and life and boss and coworkers and friends and home!!!