Scrambling energies and how to eat.

So many amazing 10:33 energies, experiences, numbers.

Thank you God for not giving up on me... please, Carissa, stick with your Godself... She wants to guide you into HEALING and TRUTH. 

I'm being called and trained to COMPASSIONATE WITNESS all beings, but the most important one is beloved Paul. I've GOT TO LEARN to just be there to HEAR and LOVE him. To be God's eyes, ears, and heart. This was an excellent article: https://energeticsynthesis.com/resource-tools/news-shift-timelines/1532-compassionate-witness

Read it again and again!!

Blanket of Light support group was beautiful. I'm very scattered and not as coherent as I'd like. 
Paul had a session with Eliyanah/Kelsey today that sounds like it was very supportive and beautiful, thank you God!!

This came through an email. A marketing email from one of my astrology apps... seems prettttty on point!

Was it "impulsive" to join with Paul? It looks and seems like it, but it also seems ALIGNED. Why do I assign negative connotations to that first sentence? It doesn't have to be. 

11:54 Okay, so that motivated me to buy Paul's chart on that app for the compatibility report and it was GREAT. Soothed my heart after the TimePassages compatibility report. We actually have a lot of the same constellations in the same houses/planets (?). Very interesting. 

Well, I'm tired. I ate pasta (delicious with vegetableY sauce made with garlic, scallions, onions, kale, green onions, cayenne and homemade tomato sauce from the garden).... that was dinner. But today I also had two pieces of bread ... no, three including the "Daily Bread" and then also 2 bagels. Carbs. Stress eating. Stop it!

Feeling a little scrambled.

Watched a video with Michael as we ate our pasta - it was about RH negative blood and DNA and antigens. Interesting. 

MY JOB is to remain aligned to MY SOURCE. Don't get pulled off. Co-dependency as well as vampirism have been problems for me in the past. Keep my LOVE, FOCUS, ATTENTION on ME. MEET MY OWN LOVE AND ESTEEM NEEDS. Also allow space for Paul to meet HIS OWN. He's got to learn to do that. I can and must love and support him to connect with himself in that way. (While also remaining committed to connecting with myself.)

He's pulling an all-night packing party! (Party for one.) I question what he's doing because I care about him, but it feels critical and he's sensitive to that and needs lots of affection and appreciation. This is going to be a challenge... but a beautiful one. As long as we love each other, we can get through anything!

Tomorrow I'm supposed to have my first (and probably last) Brazillian wax!! EEEEEEP!!!

I had the chocolate Kaachava today. Tasted good, but chocolate is not my friend. 

I had some cheese in the pasta. There is milk powder in the MRE and I need to take it again tomorrow to see how it affects me.... I think I just need to eat meat. There are fillers and processed pieces to that MRE stuff especially. Both... I think it would be better to eat Dr. Wilson's diet. Just more work and less taste... no. The taste of the other stuff isn't good either. And it's sweet. But it is easy. This is my job right now - to figure out how to feed my body. 

I think NO SUGAR or processed food.... or dairy. Very little dairy. But I probably need to eat fresh (cooked) meat and vegetables. And some healthy carbs... oatmeal... daily bread is okay. Even a few of the blue chips. And sardines. Yeah. I think I've got to do Dr. Wilson's program. Or a hybrid. 

One smoothie a day with meal replacement stuff plus hemp plus collagen. And one DW meal with meat and veggies? And one snack. And one piece of bread with almond butter.

morning - daily bread with almond butter and supplements
late morning - smoothie (1/2 kaachava, collagen, hemp, and maybe 1/4 MRE if body is okay with it)
early afternoon - blue chips with sardines or hummus
early evening - meat and FIP (veggies)

FAST until next day. 

That sounds pretty good. Could I do it?