My response re: Glitches and energetic merging with others

Thank you Stefanie for sharing this very interesting (and almost shocking) occurrence and your thoughts around it. Thank you, also, for modeling/showing respect and sensitivity to spirit in not sharing something that your ego initially wanted to. Thank you also to Ava and Lisa for sharing your experiences as well. Lisa, I especially appreciated your intentional creation of boundaries - I am inspired by that.

I have also been wondering about this topic (or something similar) for some time. For me it was intentional... I figured out that I could "crawl into people's skin" (sort of) to pray for them or connect them to God (or so I thought). It was a deeper form of intercessory prayer and I used to do it regularly (like 10 years ago). Not always, but sometimes I would be privvy to "insider information" (which may or may not have been accurate, but it seemed so to me). I've been grappling with this because ... well... number one, this seems invasive to the other party.... and like what my inner child would call "powers"... so... like, WHAT'S THAT? I've had strange experiences and this is where I wished that I had someone to "show me the ropes"... like, you hear about a grandmother teaching her grandchild how to understand these things and how to use them for good. My "grandmother" (in that context) turns out to be Lisa Renee and this site... you all are my grandmothers... I'm learning from you. (Also, I'm a realllllly old grandchild - ha!!)

I wonder if we are all wired this way or just some of us or if it's part of the awakening or all of the above? Whatever it is, I feel accountable to being as responsible as possible with these "powers". Is this the same as "remote viewing"? But I know...it's from INSIDE.... I don't know. I just wanted to, once again, say that I'm questioning this with you, Stefanie. For me I wonder if it's some sort of black magic or traveling in wormholes or something that I should not be doing. Does it honor their sovereignty and freedom? Is it beneficial? In a way...okay... I WAS playing God because I was doing it with my own (ego-based) intention. Was my intention pure and aligned with Christ? I would have thought so back then, but I've now learned that I'm neck deep in reversals and probably driving around on the NRG in my demon possessed alter spinning webs of false ascension matrix!

ACK! Okay, I'm NOT saying that's what you or anyone else is doing. I have a propensity to look for the darkness (because ultimately I want to drag it out of here), and my lens is one of fear and shame... I'm working on that. You guys aren't in there playing puppet-master trying to "fix" people. You didn't even intend to go there... you just WERE there (while you were engaged in other activities, no less). I think that's the difference... doesn't it always come down to our heart's intention?

On the flipside, I also wanted to share that I have also experienced someone else in MY body. I was driving along not too long ago and felt them in me. It was STRANGE. It also took me to the place of "is this person my genetic equal"? How are we ONE right now? It was very intimate and messed with me until I worked it out that it was someone who had good intentions trying to help ... they also have this gift of feeling into others' fields... it must just be how some of us work. But it had an affect on my being on multiple levels... throwing off my equilibrium. I don't think most people would really be in-tune with this or notice anything different or know what happened (kind of like what happens when we are possessed or used as a dark portal... we're like "what was that?"... until you have consciousness around what's going on, it may just barely register).

I hope I didn't bring confusion and dark energy to this. I mean.. I did. I know I did. But am I supposed to? I feel like I am, that it's part of the work to look at all the angles. This is here to help me/us work this out and understand what's going on.

ps. I think that my current job is to do this same thing... use these "powers" to explore my own heart and life as I engage in what seems to maybe be a call to Life Review .

Edit: Dangit, I'm sorry Stefanie... I just realized this was your journal... I do not mean to hijack at all and will edit>delete this if it is inappropriate. I got so excited when you asked about others' having experiences that I just totally forgot "Journal Etiquette". Feel free to message me or somehow let me know if you prefer I move this mess out of here. (My pain body is active today so I'm trying to communicate without letting her dramatics get in the way... but I do see so much ego wonkiness going on... so forgive me for mixed messages... I appreciate so much your clarity and hope to be the same one day!)

found old note

There’s something here with taking on our partner’s energetic attributes.

My first partner was a woman and I took on her bi-polar

I took on my first husband’s anxiety/panic disorder (which actually I think was activation of HSP and feeling activations of energy system coming online)

I took on my second husband’s “TBI” and associated psychosis (which was further activation of my energy body and awakening)

Some posts on transiting

 Many times if you feel sharp sudden pain, feel sick out of nowhere, or have an extreme headache or bloating, you have some attachments, fragments, or entities that may be asking for transit or release. If you are in public, try to get to a quiet and isolated spot and work the aqua portal release or diamond pillar or call upon the guardians or god-self for help in making transit for these releases. Most of the time you don’t need to recite a long command, but feel how it moves in your heart when you ask for these energies to be released and cleared, you may see them or feel them spinning out of your field, you may feel a palpable release of physical pressure in some area of your body. It could be your head, your heart or body part.

March 2017 Geomagnetism Ascension Class at approximately the 70 minute mark.

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Boy do I love this thread!

Okay, Lori, GREAT question on the group vortex. I'd like to add to it as I have maybe been creating more holes than needed working with transit vortexes .

Thank you, Maren, for your answer, I very much appreciate it! You may have covered this, but I believe that even though we are interacting with the powerful group field, we are often moving gunk out of our own locations and fields so there needs to be a local portal for them to exit.

My additional question is.... well maybe there is more than one question... let me share my experience and ask that way. Okay, so I have set a transit vortex in the western corner by the ceiling in my bedroom which is where I do most of my meditations and clearings, but when I do them in other areas of the house or yard, I just still use that vortex. I suppose this is okay although I hate to route ickies through the house. I also intend a vortex in the corner by the passenger window of the car when I'm driving.

Now here's where my OCD kicks in... (it may have kicked in already, ha!)

First of all, isn't my 12D shield a transit vortex? I feel like it is or could be and think I heard Lisa say that before but I'm not sure where. If so, could I assign a traveling vortex that goes with me so I don't have to keep creating new ones? Does anyone else do this? If so, where's the best place to set it in your field? I naturally usually put them on my father/right side, a little to the front. Like at 2:00. But that seems unbalanced. I'd like to put it up over the top of me (or maybe down below me, though that never occurred to me before)... but I'm afraid that might be channeling yucky stuff along the lovely diamond pillar hara line that I'm building and still is just a little off because I feel like the central channel is taken. Your thoughts?

Also, I live in a community on property that I don't own but I have permission (and gratitude) to work with as an energetic steward. There are about 14 families here as well as the animals and other elementals, some of which clothe themselves in dark energy. I decided that as I am trying to clear and establish GSF for all life here, I don't really want to send everyone's darkness through my bedroom so I made another transit vortex in a three-trunk tree out front. What do you think about that? Is that how you guys do it? Make a vortex for your community or property and one for your home?

Thank you!
With Love,
Carissa

Bed rocks

These are the rocks that wanted to come sleep by my bed for now. Last night I dreamed quite a bit about the Stromatolite:

Stromatolite removes blockages from meridians and chakras. Excellent for working with past lives and Akashic records. Assists in relaxation and the ability to go with the flow of life. (Shop description). Stromatolite holds eternal knowledge. This stone takes you back to the far ages of our planet and helps you to deeply go into closely guarded ancestral secrets. An excellent support stone while going through change, stromatolite encourages you to stand in your own power so you can fulfill your soul goals on a personal and a planetary level. This is a very soft, soothing stone with the ability to reconnect you to the primordial state of earth, the first forms of life, and your own past lives. It is excellent for seeing, physical and psychic. Stromatolite helps relieve stress, rehydrating the body with base zero point frequency of earth’s origins.This gentle stone can help you release outdated ancestral programming and mental programs which insist you conform to someone else’s agenda. https://www.crystal-life.com/stromatolite/ 

The blend of grey, black and white colors found in this stone is why Silver Leaf Jasper is known to promote balance. It provides strength of purpose, promotes stability, brings mental clarity and a sense of wholeness into your life. It encourages willpower giving us the strength to stand up for what we believe in and not to be intimidated by others. It has a strong connection with the Earth and healing the physical body as well as healing emotional tension. It can help awaken the sense of joy that you should always have in life. 

Labradorite crystal, it is considered to be the stone of transformation and magic. It is said to clear, balance, and protect the aura, as well as being an excellent stone for general protection. It helps to provide clarity and insight into the destiny, as well as attract success.

Bloodstone - https://www.crystalvaults.com/crystal-encyclopedia/bloodstone

In the ancient world, Bloodstone (Heliotrope) was considered to be the most beautiful of the Jaspers, a deep, earthy green gem emboldened with spots of bright red. Called the Sun Stone, and later Christ’s Stone, its energy carries the purity of blood and inherently speaks of life and birth, vitality and strength, passion and courage. As a talisman it is both mystical and magical, and its virtues are protective and nurturing.

Amethyst is an extremely powerful and protective stone with a high spiritual vibration. It is also a natural tranquilizer. With its strong healing and cleansing powers, it is also a guardian against psychic attack, and able to transmute that energy into love. This is a great stone to help those with addictions and blockages of all kinds. Extremely beneficial to the mind, it calms or stimulates when appropriate, helping to feel less scattered, more focused and enhances the simulation of new ideas. https://www.crystal-life.com/amethyst/ 

Snowflake Obsidian - a black Obsidian with inclusions of small, white, radially clustered crystals of cristobalite that when polished resembles snowflake patterns. Snowflake Obsidian is a “stone of purity,” bringing truth and balance to the mind, body, and spirit, and is especially empowering for accepting change and transformation in one’s life. It calms and soothes the system, and helps one be more receptive to recognizing unnecessary patterns of negativity, self-defeat, “poor me” victimization, or unyielding emotional stress. Snowflake Obsidian allows one to see through the darkness of adversity and to realign with the light, perceiving sources of support that may have been overlooked or taken for granted, and to find the strength and willingness to shift one’s reality for the better. It inspires new ideas to improve one’s condition, and opens new pathways of spiritual thought and connection. It increases one’s psychic sensitivity for recognizing meaningful synchronicities pointing the way to one’s higher path. 

https://www.crystalvaults.com/resource/cme/obsidian/ 

The fair and lovely Rose Quartz, with its gentle pink essence, is a stone of the heart, a Crystal of Unconditional Love. It carries a soft feminine energy of compassion and peace, tenderness and healing, nourishment and comfort. It speaks directly to the Heart Chakra, dissolving emotional wounds, fears and resentments, and circulates a Divine loving energy throughout the entire aura. Reawakening the heart to its own innate love, it provides a deep sense of personal fulfillment and contentment, allowing one the capacity to truly give and receive love from others. 

https://www.crystalvaults.com/crystal-encyclopedia/rose-quartz

Blue Lace Agate - Facilitates communication with higher self. Good for emotional healing. Promote calm and peace. Namibia (shop description of small tumbled stone). Has a soft, soothing elegance; like sky-blue waters released from winter's grasp. Its graceful, circular design has a stimulating, positive effect on emotions and attitude. It is not a stone of protection, but rather of encouragement and support. Its circular flowing energy calms, uplifts and elevates. https://www.crystalvaults.com/crystal-encyclopedia/blue-lace-agate

Petrified wood can assist anyone who is feeling stuck or experiencing being frozen in time. It helps to create balance and offers a foundation from which to launch new goals or undertake a different path. Petrified wood is also a wonderful grounding stone. It helps to calm scattered energies.

https://www.learnreligions.com/healing-properties-of-petrified-wood-1729910 

Touted as the Miracle Stone of the 21st Century,  Shungite is now the go-to stone for electromagnetic field (EMF) protection, purification and detoxification of the body, as well as general healing and emotional well being.

https://www.energymuse.com/shungite-meaning

Neprite-Jade belongs to the Silicates family. It comes in lovely shades of green and can also be translucent. If you’re feeling low and passionless lately, it can be because of the accumulated negative energies in your aura. Nephrite-Jade is a protective stone that will transmute these negative energies in your life into positive and uplifting ones. It will ward off negative vibrations and cleanse your auric fields of them. Nephrite-Jade will also offer psychic protection, as well as physical protection against illness, harm, or accidents. This stone will promote a sense of calm, quiet, and stillness that will make you appreciate and enjoy your life more!

https://meanings.crystalsandjewelry.com/nephrite-jade/ 

Other thoughts

 Some other stuff I posted today:

Love this Stefanie! What a fantastic insight! I'm going to chew on it a bit as "be perfect as your Father in heaven is perfect" (Matthew 5:48) was a major driver in my life at one time. It seemed like the harder I tried to be "perfect/sinless", the more that arose. Everyone SAID that you can't be perfect/sinless...only Jesus could... blah blah. But I thought "of course I can! What "sin" (evangelical christianity was my lens at the time) can I not give up? I decided to just decimate them one by one. Easy peasy! (Ha!)

Of course it wasn't easy and then I fell into a metatronic pit of doom.

My takeaways were that the word perfect was based on the word "teleios" (in Greek) which meant "complete, whole". This fits very well with my understanding of the work we are doing now, becoming whole. Reclaiming our pieces, healing our architecture (individually and collectively).

Have some people possibly fully repaired themselves and become perfect while still in the flesh? Is it when you repair yourself that you can blow this popsicle stand? (I think that may have changed now with the solar rishi return? Is the human recycling program is being shut down regardless of whether one attained "perfection/completion" during that life?)

I struggle with still filtering my understanding through that lens of dogmatic christianity/Saturn blood worship so take what I say with a grain of salt always - but just wanted to let you know I appreciate and am nourished by your shares.

With Love,
Carissa

ps. God showed me (in the bible no-less) that Jesus...Yeshua... was NOT perfect. He took off his dirty robes and got clean ones... he may have BECOME perfect (surely through the same tumultuous process of choosing Love over the alternative)... but it's a false precept that he was born as the "sinless spotless lamb of God who died on a cross to take our sins away"... I don't even like repeating that garbage - it's stuck in my throat like a piece of cotton. Hack hack


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This is such a great thread!
Thank you, Kirk, for helping me understand the 22 is tied to the release of the Saturn Blood Covenants... I'll keep watching that.

Tom's thumb is tied to what Lisa shared in the Ascension Call on Sunday about the additional meridian and extra thumb that is part of our original 12 tree body. I was really excited and encouraged by Angela's post! Fascinating!

I love the mormons too! I tried to be one but sign up with their doctrine (you have to say "I believe X" and I couldn't lie because there was more (and less) to it than what they proposed I proclaim). I'm sure other people will have more information about this, but from what I understand, Mormons believe that if you live a good upstanding life here and do what you're supposed to do, you get to keep your family and get your own planet. This, to me, makes me think that this is Christ-Sophia's planet(... and was Gaia Ezekiel's planet)? So if you earn the opportunity to have your own planet, then all the beings on it are working as the fullness of who you are? Christ-Sophia's planet has been under attack and desecrated through war tactics for ages and our intention is unification, to bring it back to perfection/wholeness.

Just some thoughts to add to this fantastic conversation!

Screens

Random thought... didn't end up being the subject of my journal entry, but wanted to keep it:

When we are used as a "dark portal", often what's happening is we're trying multiply "ourselves" by ripping open more black holes in other people's lightbodies. (So then THEY can be used as a dark portal too!) We use different tactics to do so, but that's the game. Rip rip rip... ugh! 

Today I've been thinking about screens and how they have changed our world so much to create a false reality... overlays (upon overlays upon overlays). Even now as I type to my journal, I'm interacting with a false ... something... to stimulate and record my consciousness. 

It started by reflecting on the incredible changes that I've seen in my beloved husband in less than a year since he got a tablet. He used to be so productive... gardening, projects, etc... but now he sits much of the day and watches his tablet/videos/TV. He IS "living"... he's having experiences and learning (and adding to the collective consciousness, especially because he's really into tracking the cabal/deep state and has hope for the future through his interaction with the Q-consciousness units). So what's "real"? (What does real even mean?) 

It takes him out of his body and puts him in his mind where potentially he can still interact with spirit if he thinks to, but it is unbalancing him. He used to carry such a high vibration of love... it's his influence that has helped activate and begin the process of healing the reversal pit of doom that I got stuck in. But I'm noticing that vibration seems to be getting defiled. Our horse is a really good judge of this - she is really sensitive to energies and used to cuddle up to him but now is pushing him away some and is much more cuddly with me. Now we are definitely working out Michael Mary reversals in our relationship and it appears to me that we both are moving in a better direction with the misogyny, etc., so I would think he would be getting an even higher vibration... but it doesn't appear so according to my horse. Maybe it's just a personality thing... maybe her demons don't align?

I loved what Lisa said on Sunday about the importance of balancing our spiritual, emotional, mental, and physical bodies. I remember that being one of my main takeaways from a divorce recovery program I went through in 2009 as well...but it touched me more deeply this weekend, especially seeing my own imbalance. It's getting better, but we have much work to do. 

I used my observation of Michael's tablet as the basis of my above thoughts, but of course it's me too...especially me. I remember when I realized ... maybe 2008... that who I was when I typed was less inhibited than who I was in "the real world". I see now that it was a line directly to my consciousness without the layers of self-consciousness to slow me down... if I kept typing, stream of thought, I was able to be "more me". But the caveat was that I was interacting THROUGH an artificial orifice ... through a keyboard and screen. I think of all the gamers out there (I don't know much about that world, so forgive me if I'm off in my thoughts about this), but I think they are able to shed the weight of "reality" and be whoever their consciousness allows them to be... maybe this is good training to teach us how to tap into alternate "realities" and different timelines... learning to shift from one digital shell to another. But what's the cost? Isn't this adding to the transhuman agenda? 

Mother energy seems rooted in love and earth and grounded... and it's about living and loving and growth and nurturing.... isn't true mother energy fostered in ALIVE connections with "reality"? (What the heck is reality???) I know that if I hug my tree friend, I am nourished and experiencing the mother's love. If I think about hugging a tree friend or talk about it, say, here... it's a hologram of the actual experience and while it may evoke some of the same mental and emotional triggers, it isn't the full picture.

So I live and work and build friendships with this screen here between "reality"... what kind of distortions is it adding? I PERCEIVE that I'm connecting with my friends - we video chat, share experiences through text and photos - I THINK that I'm connected and it fires off some of the same feelings, but there is an artificial overlay. And I've gotten used to it. One of my apps (Marco Polo) even has me trained to talk to a picture of MYSELF as I video my message...  not only does this foster narcissism and train me how to manipulate myself and others through facial expression (be fake, be pretty), but it adds this very strange distortion in communications. Now I'M my friend that I'm talking to (as well). I mean in a way it is helpful as I learn to connect with myself and learn to listen to myself, so maybe it's not all bad... but it's still built on this premise involving an artificial architectural overlay.

Maybe it just comes back to the fact that the screens are distracting us from actually experiencing life and love. We get a taste of it and we think we are experiencing reality and that keeps us sedated and addicted and distracted from putting in the bodily/physical effort of ACTUALLY living. I'm haunted by that movie Wall-E:

I think I'll stop saying the same thing over and over now. Ha!

Love,
Carissa

Great meditation and dangling dream job

I've experienced another MIRACLE. Yesterday I pulled a meditation card and it suggested the "Clear Seed Fears, Slavery and Poverty Consciousness" ... I didn't get to do it because it was too long for the slot I had for it but I DID do it just now and it was so PERFECT. Addressed so many problems that I'm having right now with uncording from frequencies, repairing soul fragmentation, clearing Satanic influences, etc.

Just ON POINT.

Last night through the night I kept thinking "soul fragmentation". 

God's been sending people that I get to talk to and hopefully practice being a wayshower of God in a way. Pam, Jeff, and Janice ... one each day the last couple days and we had really REAL conversations.

Today Janice contacted me out of the blue to say she and Dave just bought a 42 acre farm and they wanted to run a horse program for kids with cancer and she asked for my help (indeed, for us to move there and she'd hire me as a manager and we could live in the attached apartment). WOW. I wanted to say YES, absolutely!!! but I initially said no because it's cold up there and I was not keen on the darkness (evil) overlay that I feel in the Northeast. We talked more and she said not to say no to fast...so I'm sitting on it. Michael said no too. 

It seems like a dream come true - it's a home in the mountains, getting to help someone I already love, working with horses and a nonprofit program, and not too far from my friends up north (like Bean, Jeff, Mr. Burch, etc.)! 

BUT.... I DO see how this is a dangly little distraction trying to keep me from focusing on the work that I'm meant to do HERE. Where I am HERE is where God has me for now...doing healing and clearing and connecting to my Source and mission. So it's a good exercise and I'm grateful for it... but BE HERE NOW, Carissa!

That meditation was SOOOO good. I seeped tears as my divine mother self walked up to my inner child self to bring me to the azure waters... just beginning to touch LOVE is everything. 

Numbers today... some of them... I didn't write them all down and don't feel like collecting them, but here are some: 1/25/2021 10:10 10:11 1:11 9:23 9:22 9:21 8:44 9:09 12:33 12:34 12:55 17:07 13:12 2:22 14:22 2:23 2:44 15:52 16:06 4:33 4:44 17:33 5:33 5:44 6:11 19:19

Mishmosh of thoughts - most spurred by Ascension Call - lying, back pain, etc.

 Tonight’s talk was so so helpful! Of course I felt that Lisa was speaking to me left and right, especially in the first part of her talk about controllers ...and lying… etc… I know it makes me sound like a liar to say that and I don’t think I am one much anymore (wait, am I lying there?), but it’s a constant battle to be diligent about discerning truth. I seem to have access to multiple realities and it can be confusing so I have to really take time to connect to the truth vibration and reality that I am interacting in to find out what is true and what isn’t. (For example I almost fired off to someone today that I heard the same thing they did… I may have. I feel like I did…but then I realized that maybe that wasn’t true and still I’m not sure, so I didn’t say anything. This is a non-sensical explanation and possibly an unnecessary dialogue that may be trying to justify my behavior of lying…which I didn’t do. But I almost might have. This may not be a great example.)

Anyway, I didn’t realize I was a liar until last year but I really am...no...WAS!! … it comes from not knowing who I am, being fragmented and trying to be who I think I’m supposed to … Anyway, super good Ascension call and I need to listen to that first part again because some distractions came in, but long story short, this talk seemed like it was specifically for me and my bad self! (The dark part of my self, ha!) This must be what is referred to as “shadow work”.

Yeah, I’m just not sure what’s reality and what’s not. My biggest lie (maybe?) is that I pretend to be stupid. This started when I was really young. I don’t know why I associated being incorrect or not knowing something with gaining attention (energy vampirism). Maybe because when I know everything people dislike me. People don’t like know-it-alls. So I pretended not to know and now maybe I really stopped knowing. Not all the time, but this game definitely damaged me and my perception of truth. I pretend to be flakey. Even now the tone I’m using is that. It’s not exactly truthful or grounded in reality, so it is perpetuating this living a lie thing. There are so many games like this that I’ve played my whole life. Learning to step into my power and accept who I AM and not be fearful or afraid of what people think is what I need to really work on. But also trying to balance that with loving confidence where I remain energetically open so my authentic self (which is thoughtful and empathetic) can flow….while practicing humility (not as natural to me)…that’s the ticket.

Back to the call. I’m so glad for allllll the questions. Each one was perfect and I could relate and appreciate the answer. Dolphin’s question made me especially happy. Grateful for the revisit on this topic. I remember Lisa talking about it last month so that gave me understanding and ammunition for acceptance when it started for me.

I did a poll a couple weeks ago and found almost all my ES friends were experiencing the horrible lower back pain. Mine stared January 4th and can get so bad that it takes my breath away. No matter what position I’m in, it can hurt. It even wakes me in the night. It doesn’t hurt all the time but MUCH of the time it does. It’s mostly my sacrum area and also my left hip and side. I try to experience it as an opportunity to practice surrender, allowing, observation, and releasing transits (in case there are people stuck there - ha!). I heard in a practitioner (Gabe) session that part of my being (inner child?) was dislodged there as well (or something like that). I've also wondered if my body is working on healing/retracing old injuries like my broken sacrum. No matter what, I know it’s part of my spiritual work and trying to stay out of fear is a big part of it. I DO think it’s related energetically to my fallen tree and busted up base shield. I DO NOT want to leave my body and start over. I want to build my base shield HERE and now please. Just putting it out there. I already told God, but thought I’d say it here too.

I definitely have fractured consciousness and appreciate the reminder that we have to build a BALANCED body - mental, emotional, physical and spiritual. I’ve been building spiritually for a long time (16 yrs? 11 of which spirituality has been my reason for existence) but I've been disconnected especially from my physical body for pretty much my whole life. And my mental body is out of whack too (overactive), and it takes my emotional with it on rollercoaster rides. So this is all just good food for …. ACTION. Inspiration for action.

One last unrelated and random thought:
I don’t know if I told you here but I want to note that I wonder if I've had a spiritual vaccination of some sort - super weird and may be delusional but in maybe November a strange mark showed up right where one would be vaccinated on my left arm… it looked like a needle prick wound and there was about an inch in diameter bruising. It stuck around like that for at least a month and I can still see where it was. It’s really strange. Bug bite? Alien abduction with the anti-venom for whatever they are spraying around earth and shooting into humans? Pathcutting of sorts? That’s what I’m going with! Ha!

Okay, that's all. Just wanted to capture some of my thoughts on tonight's excellent call.
I'm so grateful to Lisa and Tomás for hosting us here in this container, field, and call!

Thoughts from today

 Choose LIGHT, UNWIND the SNARL of DARKNESS.

Note from today:

You see the trick over all these lifetimes is also to get people to continue to give themselves away to the darkness and there’s lots of opportunities to do that… Addictions....lust...gluttony....selfishness... the seven deadly sins… They feel good in this time and lock us further in a prison of doom. As we’ve been numbed out it’s easier to choose what feels good in this moment to try to put off the suffering and we fall deeper and deeper into the metatronic reversals.

But we have to choose light we have to regain control of our bodies, regain control over our spirits, our souls, our hearts, our minds... this is the work.

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Note how I am programmed to respond to signs... advertising… Michael is not. 

Different generations
Different programming 
Different vaccines

Post on Frequency Healing

 Hello friends! I’d like to ask for your thoughts and experiences around frequency healing. I’m not up to speed on this topic so this list isn’t all inclusive, but things like neurofeedback, Rife machines, plasma tubes, Healy devices, AO devices, Brain tap, etc.

Years ago we heard about the Hulda Clark zapper (to help remove parasites… I don’t know if it’s the same category, but that’s where I first heard about this stuff). Since then I had a friend (more acquaintance) with a Spooky2 and I read here somewhere about Rife plasma tubes. I believe Lisa used them. This led me to start looking into it. (I’ve hired PEMF for my horse 3 or 4 times but tried to stay away from the machine since I had such trouble with EMF hypersensitivity.)

This month I thought it was a gift from God that I found a somewhat local frequency healer, naturopath, chiropractor and I have now seen her twice and am absolutely smitten. She is kind and smart and has all these cool tools that seemed like they could help. On my first visit she did a neurofeedback test and told me about my brain, hormones, nerves, circadian rhythm, meridians, and even chakra function. She used another device (the Healy) that “diagnosed” a couple of my top “stuck” areas (job and skin). She also used some sort of laser to help my vagus nerve, liver, and intestines. I was a little nervous but she had what seems to be beautiful energy and I’m a worry wart control freak so I felt I needed to trust God on this.

On my last visit I was almost sold on trying to save up for my own little pocket Healy device but I just have some hesitation in my spirit about it. I also have hesitation about signing up for the “Brain Tap” program which was offered to me for free to try out for a month…but I expressed that I’m nervous about implanted Ai. I learned that my friend/acquaintence also has an AO scanner and I could potentially hire her for a scan, but I’ve just got these little bells going off so I’m sitting on it for now.

Today I read:

They also promote use of “supposed” healing technologies (“inorganic and artificial replicant matrices”) that are designed to remove pain physically, or have physical results in other uses, however, the “technology” is intended to enslave the Soul or place a variety of Alien Implants in the human body. They also project holographic mirages and “pretty inserts” to keep an abductee or SRA mind control target calm while they gain control of the person’s aura. In shorthand, this is externalized Black Magic and is ultimately harmful to the organic spiritual bodies and organic auric field of human and planetary Consciousness. This creates interference with the person’s ability to connect with their own spiritual source directly or have control over their thoughts, feelings or bio-neurological functions. It is this specific reason of spiritual interference, that there is a Founder Guardian and Krystal Star intervention on planet earth.

From: Black Sun Program

So I come to you, beloved wise community, to see if you have any thoughts or experiences with frequency healing.
Thank you!
Love,
Carissa

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Dear dear Maren! THANK YOU for your wonderful response! You are so kind and wise and I appreciate you!

I just saw this thread on Rife - I started reading it but haven't finished yet as I'm full from tonight's amazing talk, but so far it has more information on this topic so I wanted to link it: esfoundations.com/forum/ascension-health...ife-any-tips?start=0

Thank you again!
With Love & appreciation,
Carissa

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That thread above is INCREDIBLE. Stefanie's post answers most of my questions and links to more helpful posts. (Thank you Stefanie, Kelly, Lisa, and all contributors... super helpful input).

Does anyone have experience with an AO machine?

This morning reading this quote (below) also provided me with a download to help me navigate my healing frequency machine inquiry.

Energy is free - God/Life energy is free anyway, so if there are ways to support connection to the natural Source energy, then I think that may be healthful, but I think that funneling it through the hijacked technology (like cell phones) may be exposing myself to dangerous AI currents.

So I want to go back to my original hope which was to try the Rife plasma tube. That maybe doesn’t have a dashboard where I can control what I want to “fix”, but it puts me in a position where God can send the frequency needed to support me. (I may be wrong because I’m not sure how those work yet - maybe you DO set it? My chiropractor healed her Lyme disease by sleeping with her plasma tubes for 8 hrs a night.

Anyway, I’m always interested to hear more if anyone else has experience with any frequency machines. It would probably be better to post on the other thread since it has more information in it for future seeekers. 

Thank you!

According to the Guardian system, to break free of the bi-wave structure which forces a closed loop energetic supply and perpetuates reversal current and Dead Light energy, we can alter the anti-particle blueprint layers with our higher consciousness to activate the electrically neutral state, which allows the neutral forces to emit feedback loops of natural living light. This principle applies to the structure of the Soul anatomy in the human Lightbody, as well as the planetary systems in the search for free and renewable energy. The same energy potential is related to the concept of free energy systems that are Open Sourced and self-sustaining, however this has been hidden from humanity to prevent access to it. When we understand how access to self-sustaining source light as open source energy is available to us all, this is essentially activating the higher spiritual knowledge to obey the Law of Polarity. Once the masses can understand this Law and the reasons the Controllers have chosen to violate the laws of nature, to amplify the Gender Splitting and reversals in the forces of polarity, we can finally evolve to a future that opens access to free open source energy for all inhabitants.[2]

From: Entropy

This was posted today, 1/25:

Thank you so much Terry aka Kiran! 

That really is helpful. I appreciate your experience and expertise and thank you for explaining more about the neurofeedback programs. That makes a lot of sense and I really am interested in properly training my brain to remain in theta.

I'm going to sit with all this for a while. I trust God will direct me to the most supportive path for me. Tonight I contacted the frequency doctor I saw last week to make sure there weren't any programs running for me. (She said there weren't. Great!)

Today's glossary pick was " entropy " which was very appropriate since I've been feeling like my life force was being significantly siphoned lately. Tonight it was " sleeper " which talked about "bio-neurological mind control". All this to say, it feels aligned for me to really protect myself from further inorganic influence at this time. It sounds like it can be really helpful...like Maren said, like a medicine almost...but for me, right now, it seems like right now I have enough to work through to not add additional layers. I think part of my "work" (karma) here is to put in the effort to reverse the damage I've participated in creating. I tend to want to look for someone/something to do the heavy lifting for me, and there is a time and place for that, but I think right now I need to chop wood and carry water.

On a semi-related MIRACLE note, yesterday I pulled a meditation card and it suggested the " Clear Seed Fears, Slavery and Poverty Mind Control " ... I didn't get to do it yesterday because it was too long for the timeframe I had to meditate before the Ascension Call but I DID do it tonight and it was so PERFECT! Addressed so many problems that I'm having right now with uncording from frequencies, repairing soul fragmentation, clearing Satanic influences, etc. Just ON POINT. 

Anyway, thank you again to everyone who has provided such valuable insight into this topic!
With Gratitude,

Carissa 

618 and Clubs card...

Response to Kirk's post: https://esfoundations.com/forum/welcome-mat/3466-618?start=6#34062

And Lisa shared this link: http://www.sevenreflections.com/cards/queen-of-clubs/

I'll share the details of my cards below the copy of the post.

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Definitely interesting!! (And educational) And so is that link! I looked up the cards associated with my birthday -here they are:

Note that my "ruler card" is the Queen of Clubs- eep! I can relate to much of what Lisa shared... I may have talked about it in my personal journal last year too, but what she said about:

this force kept coming after me from inside people that shared this energy signature as a birth pattern. This pattern in my template was that a person with this birth signature would enter into power imbalance games and try to steal things from me out of some kind of covetousness or jealousy in ways that made zero sense.

YES... I have that force too... (in me... coming after poor Lisa!) It's a hole in my lightbody, I'm sure. It's not me...but I can feel it. It makes sense if it's related to my birth pattern! I'm working to overcome that imprint and it does seem to be fading, but I know what Lisa is talking about and I have it, so STEER CLEAR OF ME LISA!! lol (I love and appreciate you and am happy to save you by loving you from afar! This is probably why I'm not even talking straight to you, ha! There are some weeeeird energetics here! I'm sorry!) Anyway, this WAS super interesting. Thank you Lisa!

Speaking of super-interesting, KIRK - great post!! I'm slowly gaining traction in being able to understand more of your language, but this really resonated for me:

Each station of identity is built upon an integrated triad body. As we collectively evolve from the personality matrix of the 1st harmonic universe into the soul matrix of the 2nd harmonic universe, we're weaving together the 3 layers of the ego and developing group consciousness. The current focus on politics that's gripped the attention of so many is reflective of the formation of the first triad body as we move from the individualized consciousness of the ego (world of separation) to the collective consciousness of the soul. We now have no choice but to deal with the collective shadow because we begin to see that we're all connected.

Thank you all!


ps. Today's numbers:
1/23/2021 8:22 8:44 8:55 10:21 10:23/23 10:33/23 10:55 11:21 11:22/23 12:13 12:23/23 12:34 33 13:03 14:55 15:05 17:07 5:11 6:33 6:22 6:23 18:38 33 7:21 18:55 7:22 19:19 7:23 7:55 8:08 21:12 21:21 21:22/23 21:11 21:10 21:00 20:11 20:10 20:03 8:33 8:18 9:55

I've GOT to stop looking at the clock!!!  I swear that I don't sit and wait for these. If I DO, then I don't "count" it because it feels like I'm cheating.

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Ace of Clubs Birth Card

The Ace of Clubs is one of the four special semi-fixed cards. People born on the Ace of Clubs birthdays are the best-informed people in their circle of friends. There is nothing much to escape their attention. The Ace of Clubs is a born leader, one who knows better the actual reasons behind people actions and willing to share his or her knowledge with others. The Ace of Clubs seeks many channels of expression. Their mental abilities are incredible and so their drive for learning about life. They have an extraordinary vision for all kind of metaphysical studies, either they accept it in themselves or not. The Aces of Clubs have a magnetic charm that drives the public to them.

The Ace of Clubs is a positive thinker, quick, witty and aggressive debater. The best way to learn for them is a good argument. Strong desire for self-expression may start to manifest in their early childhood. For most Ace of Clubs people, mother plays a vital role in creating their strong character and stimulates their quest for finding their own identity. Quick and passionate tempered nature will never stand slow environment and will cause arguments with teachers, or any people in charge.

The Ace of Clubs person is born for the professional success. Working with groups of women, or in any area interconnected with beauty and home are the prominent fields to apply their talents. These are people of the big picture. They plan for a long-term, and often against anything that limits their horizons. Working as an employee might be a challenge.

The Ace of Clubs may find it difficult to settle down in any place for long. Restless and energetic nature suggests the desire for change. With all, their dominant and bright character, the Ace Of Clubs are flexible in their thinking, and that gives them great ability to adapt fast to any circumstances. Travel and a variety of experiences at work can add significantly to happiness.

The Ace of Clubs natural curiosity is apt to lead them to an interest in psychology and metaphysics. This will benefit a lot later in life, and also others because with their enlightened understanding they can help others to see the truth. Choosing right people and friends is very important if the Ace Of Clubs want to be as well appreciated as they deserved.

Queen of Clubs Planetary Ruling Card

The Queen of Clubs is the card of high intuition, knowledge and mental balance. The Queen of Clubs represents the receptive principle of man's spiritual nature. They are not students in this life. They have close contact with higher forces of Intelligence spirituality expressed in balance, wisdom, and logic. They don't formulate judgments with emotions but instead use their brain.

The application of inherited knowledge can be a great asset to any work or service Queen Of Clubs participates in. They work hard and don't like laziness, ignorance and mental handicaps of others. The Queen of Clubs wants complete freedom of action and will not take any interference. It might affect their personal life in a significant way. An uncertainty in love measures can turn them away from the married experience, especially for women. However, Queen of Clubs also symbolizes Mary, Mother of Jesus.

Intuitively, Queen of Clubs is always ahead of their time. They are intuitive, creative, inventive and inspirational, always a part of scientific progress, intelligence and often see beyond the veil that has long hidden the truth.

People are often drawn to the Queen of Clubs for advice and assistance. There is a need to cultivate tolerance and be more patient with those who are not as advanced and progressive. Queen Of Clubs can be impatient and might be tempted to rule through the weight of their crown than through their authority of wisdom and ability.

Queen of Clubs' natural brightness must make itself evident at an early age. If not, it is only from a lack of interest. In any case, they are better to avoid to take success for granted. If they want to continue to succeed in life, self-discipline is vital. Many Queens of Clubs seek an early marriage as a way to independence. If not, they may not marry for a long time until later in life. The best partner for them is a person with a wide variety of interests, the one who can cope with their restless nature. Otherwise, they will get bored very fast. People often drop their problems on Queen of Clubs' lap, and it might be not easy to say "No."

With many talents and abilities, it is not a problem to make money, but the Queen Of Clubs must master their ability to manage it well. They are often impulsive in making financial decisions, so being responsible and not worrying much about money matters is the best way to deal with situations. They always want to own home. In finances, real-estate and other ventures it is more critical for them to use their practical intellect rather than intuition.

Ten of Spades Decanate Card

The Ten of Spades have a spectacular potential for success! If they didn't realize their gift just yet, they must know - Ten is the best number that holds the knowledge of all numbers below and in case of Spades, Ten of Spades understand the value of love, knowledge, finances and work. As a Spade - the highest suit of the deck, they are not students of life. They are able to lead and teach others to become better. But for Ten Of Spades personally, they represent the success through work and recognition in carrier. The key to success lies in your awareness - and this sometime can be the most difficult part of Ten Of Spades destiny. They shouldn't sell themselves less than they worth - all Ten Of Spades have been given enough protection and abilities to achieve anything they want in their work and career.

One thing that can bother the Ten of Spades is this feeling of lack of security in their home and marriage. Often, their work and home is closely associated, and may interfere with each other. Many Ten of Spades decide to run business from their home, where they constantly get interrupted by family members. Or they can get involved in some secret work, and if so, it will get them to the great heights in the Intelligence Department. If they are aware of their deep need in development, there is nothing that can stand on their way to success. Otherwise, people associated with Ten of Spades can waste their time and gifts just to get by. In any case, secrecy of some sort is present - it might be a secret marriage, an undercover job or secret affairs.

Ten Of Spades are very responsible in financial matters, and inclined to help anyone who comes to them for financial aid. They have an excellent deal of personal charm and magnetism, which can be extremely useful in any public affairs. They must watch out for worries, and don't over-react to problems, keeping positive attitude, otherwise an emotional attitude in money matters can affect their health.

If Ten of Spades people are interested in psychology, mysteries and science, they are lucky. They are holding the keys to all secrets in Universe, and when unlocked, they'll find themselves in the highest position of the deck - the King of Spades - holder of large enterprises, corporations and secret organizations.

What is helpful in all activities in life, is the stable mentality and ability to hold "peace of mind." Ten Of Spades know very well how to organize their ideas and use it constructively to build, protect themselves and others, and succeed in life.

Two of Hearts Karma Card

Union of Hearts. Lovers, marriage partners, closest friends.

Numbers and gridlines

 8:21/21, 8:23, 11:00, 8:44, 10:55, 11:11, 11:21, 11:21/21, 11:23, 11:44, 12:11, 12:12, 12:12 1/21/2121, 12:21 1/21/2121, 12:22, 12:33, 1:22, 13:21/21, 13:34, 14:22, 14:55, 17:21/21, 17:22, 19:09, 19:11, 19:21/21, 20:11 4:33, 10:10

These are the numbers I captured yesterday - this isn’t as impressive as most days, this was a light day because I was running around (I went to the “big city” - ha!) and I was distracted. I swear I’m not always looking at the clock…often numbers are on the road - house signs, road signs, exit signs, etc… but I just happen to see them and am like “eep - write it down! It’s a message! I don't even usually get to capture them all.

I’m still trying to decode the message…but I’ve got a photo app full of screenshots and a folder full of screenshots of the time on my computer. I know I’m a little like a crazy person, but there is something here to learn. I probably see double numbers like 11, 22, 33, 44, 55 the most nowadays… along with 21s especially and 23s too. 11, 22, 33, 44, 55 - Are these all gridlines?? Here’s why I’m asking:

Yesterday I started listening to the the QA on the March 2017 Geomagnetism talk and the first (powerful!) question shined some beautiful light on the number 33 (which I’d say I see the most this month so far. Yesterday’s numbers don’t reflect that, but maybe the day before does?) I had not heard of the 33rd gridline before and apparently many Lightworkers are assigned to that grid. I don’t, apparently, live on that gridline, but it sounds like my job is on it (I work in Dallas Fort Worth - remotely mostly, but go there once or twice a year too).

I’ll wait for this to unpack but wanted to note that I’m watching it. I didn’t even know what an “angel number” was until last year and now they are like a full-time job! Ha! Just kidding. So anyway, I wonder if they are related to gridlines?

Speaking of gridlines, I keep thinking I need to do a post on some of the places that I’ve traveled … I really think I must have been doing some form of grid work. I had the pleasure of talking to Agni once and she mentioned all the tourists who were walking around her city doing gridwork without them knowing it. (I don’t remember if that’s the word she used, but that’s the gist that I took away from it). I really wanted to share my travels with some photos but I think I’ve made it into too big a deal in my mind … this is ridiculous to keep putting it off. (I need to find the album and take photos of the photos.) Well, how about this, I’ll just share some locations now that may be relevant:

I’ve lived in: Puerto Rico, New York (upstate - western corner and north east - an hour north of Albany (makes me think of Albion body)), Vermont, SW Virginia, Maryland/DC area, Oregon, Florida, Connecticut, North Carolina … I zig zagged across the country once in a car and have been to many other states on vacation, etc. I think there are around 8 states that I haven’t been to or traveled through. Countrywise, I’ve traveled to Canada, Mexico, Dominican Republic, Uganda…but the big ones… the ones that seem to mean something related to gridwork are: England (I traveled all over… I really want to find my photo album… I think I hit up some big ones on the NRG (related to the 55 maybe))… Scotland, Netherlands, France (I didn’t care for Paris, but enjoyed my short trip to the south of France - Nice was the destination but we took a train so saw more than just Nice. I was robbed on the train while sleeping. There was a Russian-looking house there too), and Rome, Italy.

I don’t need to unpack Rome. That’s a big one. I kept getting nudged in the night the other night to write down what I was working on in my dreams and it had something to do with repairing reversals in the Vatican.

I think the Nice trip may be related to the Cathars?

Before I knew better I had one of those Ancestry DNA tests and it shows that I'm pretty much sourced from the UK and a tiny bit of Finland and maybe a little Sweden and a little France…. (I really wanted some cool Native American or Israel or African stuff to show up - no cigar). Anyway, I get why I was drawn to the UK. I went to so many towns… I traveled around the country almost every weekend for 5 months in 1999.

I also feel like I swapped codes related to Russia/Ukraine…I lived with my girlfriend and her Ukrainian grandmother one summer and took Russian in school for a few years). I haven’t read anything about this, but I really think I do gridwork with PEOPLE. I’m brought to people so our God-selves can work some stuff out. Lately I think it’s been more supportive/activation in people, but it’s probably also so our higher selves can get the plan together. I also just realized that this may be the level that I’ve also had some challenging dark energy glom onto me, especially in relation to my last two husbands. Well, no. This is too much. Too much pie-in-the-sky talk here. I’m going to pipe down and keep watching.

MUAH!

Here are the numbers from 1/20/2021: 7:07, 8:08, 9:00, 8:33, 9:09, specifically NOT 9:11, but 9:12, 9:19, 9:20, 9:21, 9:22, 9:44, 10:21, 10:33, 10:55, 11:01, 33, 0:44, 1:22, 11:10, 11:23, 2:55, 3:44, 4:11,7:33, 9:55, 10:01, 3:23, 12:11, 12:23, 4:33, 6:06, 8:08, 8:21, 18:08, 18:22, 2:11, 0:00, 19:11, 19:33, 21:33, 22:21/20, 22:22

ps. Destination-wise some places I have wanted to go are Jerusalem, Greece, Egypt, Morocco (maybe), India, Southeast Asia, New Zealand. I want to live in the western part of the North Carolina state in the foothills of the mountains. Really anywhere in that big circle where NC, VA, and TN meet. Maybe even could include SC, GA, WV, KY in the circle too. That's a big area...but that's where I'm hoping that God will move us sometime to live and wonder what the grid number is there? I don't know best though. I need to remember that. I keep wanting different than what I have and that's poison. I'm here for a reason. So be here. Do the work. Be present. That's all there is to it. I have all I need (and more) - I am abundantly blessed - surrounded by God and nature nurtures and sustains me right here. I don't need different. Be here now. Be love now. Okay? Okay. Ha. XO

DIFFERENT POST/THREAD:

I realize that I want people to share their experiences about the things that I ramble about in my journal, but it's maybe not the most comfortable or effective place for conversation, so let me put it here as well....

I have been tracking "angel numbers" for about a year now - it started with ...well 923 which seemed personal to me...but also 11:11 and then there were a lot of triple numbers: 2:22 3:33 4:44 ... that wasn't so bad, to see once an hour or on the road...but now it seems like I'm always seeing them because, I guess because I'm watching and someone is trying to communicate this way. Lately I've been tapped into double numbers 11, 22, 33, 44, 55 ... and I'm still trying to figure out what they mean. I've been getting hints - 55 = reversal 55 grid, and I just learned that 33 is a gridline. There are great resources in the AG like this one on 10:10 , and on a big one that seems very personal, the Number 23 . And 22 too.

Anyway, you can skim my recent post if you are interested, but I'm really hoping to hear about other's experiences with guidance through numbers ... what are you learning and tracking?

Thank you in advance for sharing!
Love,
Carissa

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Side thought that I didn't add to ES but want to say:

They are trying to kill us with food. They KNOW that sugar is death and they put it in EVERYTHING. Grape nuts is the only option with no sugar?? But it’s wheat. You have to leave the system altogether. But the majority of people depend on it. They make us CONSUMERS… dependent on their provisions, and then poison us. AHHHHH!!!