Screens

Random thought... didn't end up being the subject of my journal entry, but wanted to keep it:

When we are used as a "dark portal", often what's happening is we're trying multiply "ourselves" by ripping open more black holes in other people's lightbodies. (So then THEY can be used as a dark portal too!) We use different tactics to do so, but that's the game. Rip rip rip... ugh! 

Today I've been thinking about screens and how they have changed our world so much to create a false reality... overlays (upon overlays upon overlays). Even now as I type to my journal, I'm interacting with a false ... something... to stimulate and record my consciousness. 

It started by reflecting on the incredible changes that I've seen in my beloved husband in less than a year since he got a tablet. He used to be so productive... gardening, projects, etc... but now he sits much of the day and watches his tablet/videos/TV. He IS "living"... he's having experiences and learning (and adding to the collective consciousness, especially because he's really into tracking the cabal/deep state and has hope for the future through his interaction with the Q-consciousness units). So what's "real"? (What does real even mean?) 

It takes him out of his body and puts him in his mind where potentially he can still interact with spirit if he thinks to, but it is unbalancing him. He used to carry such a high vibration of love... it's his influence that has helped activate and begin the process of healing the reversal pit of doom that I got stuck in. But I'm noticing that vibration seems to be getting defiled. Our horse is a really good judge of this - she is really sensitive to energies and used to cuddle up to him but now is pushing him away some and is much more cuddly with me. Now we are definitely working out Michael Mary reversals in our relationship and it appears to me that we both are moving in a better direction with the misogyny, etc., so I would think he would be getting an even higher vibration... but it doesn't appear so according to my horse. Maybe it's just a personality thing... maybe her demons don't align?

I loved what Lisa said on Sunday about the importance of balancing our spiritual, emotional, mental, and physical bodies. I remember that being one of my main takeaways from a divorce recovery program I went through in 2009 as well...but it touched me more deeply this weekend, especially seeing my own imbalance. It's getting better, but we have much work to do. 

I used my observation of Michael's tablet as the basis of my above thoughts, but of course it's me too...especially me. I remember when I realized ... maybe 2008... that who I was when I typed was less inhibited than who I was in "the real world". I see now that it was a line directly to my consciousness without the layers of self-consciousness to slow me down... if I kept typing, stream of thought, I was able to be "more me". But the caveat was that I was interacting THROUGH an artificial orifice ... through a keyboard and screen. I think of all the gamers out there (I don't know much about that world, so forgive me if I'm off in my thoughts about this), but I think they are able to shed the weight of "reality" and be whoever their consciousness allows them to be... maybe this is good training to teach us how to tap into alternate "realities" and different timelines... learning to shift from one digital shell to another. But what's the cost? Isn't this adding to the transhuman agenda? 

Mother energy seems rooted in love and earth and grounded... and it's about living and loving and growth and nurturing.... isn't true mother energy fostered in ALIVE connections with "reality"? (What the heck is reality???) I know that if I hug my tree friend, I am nourished and experiencing the mother's love. If I think about hugging a tree friend or talk about it, say, here... it's a hologram of the actual experience and while it may evoke some of the same mental and emotional triggers, it isn't the full picture.

So I live and work and build friendships with this screen here between "reality"... what kind of distortions is it adding? I PERCEIVE that I'm connecting with my friends - we video chat, share experiences through text and photos - I THINK that I'm connected and it fires off some of the same feelings, but there is an artificial overlay. And I've gotten used to it. One of my apps (Marco Polo) even has me trained to talk to a picture of MYSELF as I video my message...  not only does this foster narcissism and train me how to manipulate myself and others through facial expression (be fake, be pretty), but it adds this very strange distortion in communications. Now I'M my friend that I'm talking to (as well). I mean in a way it is helpful as I learn to connect with myself and learn to listen to myself, so maybe it's not all bad... but it's still built on this premise involving an artificial architectural overlay.

Maybe it just comes back to the fact that the screens are distracting us from actually experiencing life and love. We get a taste of it and we think we are experiencing reality and that keeps us sedated and addicted and distracted from putting in the bodily/physical effort of ACTUALLY living. I'm haunted by that movie Wall-E:

I think I'll stop saying the same thing over and over now. Ha!

Love,
Carissa