Remember when I used to be able to see how I could touch and experience insanity and letting go into madness OR maintain some strength to stay away from that cliff (even though it wasn't really "sanity" that I was swimming in).
I related to and wanted that label "schizoaffective disorder". I was falling to pieces and part of me liked it. Always self-sabotage...but it wasn't self afterall, it was the portal jumpers and implants and mind control. Thanks be to God for giving me another chance to save myself.
https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Central_Nervous_System
I read my first journal today when I was 11 or 12 - just a few pages, and one of them I crossed out where I admitted that I was lying more often and I was going to try to stop lying. (I reaaaallllly crossed it out. I wonder why - I didn't even want to be honest with myself. That's the beginning.)
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