Black Heart

 Today during the Romero Membership call meditation I saw that I have some sort of black heart situation going on. A void. (This is why I need to meditate more to see better what's going on. Later today I was meditating/being outdoors aimed at the sky and saw all these shadow pieces flying around. And messages... there was a cloud dude jumping... nymphs...no SYLPHs showing me to jump and fly! Along with my vultures with their lessons which need to sink in. 

But back to the black heart... "Black Anubian Heart" came to me and I just looked it up... "Anubian Black Heart": https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Anubian_Black_Heart

I haven't read it all yet but I'm pretty sure this is what I'm working to heal. Makes sense if I'm an "Earth Star Family" (I need to look that up), maybe that's why I feel like I'm a picture of the Earth... "created in the image of God which is actually earth in this case... same or similar energetic blueprint... like I took on the blueprint of the earth when I was born into it. The same way a mom gives her kid the mineral "blueprint" that she is currently walking in, I got the energetic one of the earth...and I am one with the earth and supposed to be healing it. 

But my service to self, pride, selfishness, etc. definitely has me disconnected from love and I think I must fake empathy.... or when I feel it it's too big. This kind of fits in with my "half empath/half narcissist" thing... I think I DO have wayyyyy toooo much empathy ... take today for an example... I watched that dang presidential talk and I sucked in some gnarly energies from the collective and I essentially poisoned myself. I'm still working on transmuting them. Well, my guides and teams are. Thank you God! So I DO have empathy... I'm an empath... but I'm also a black heart. WHAT? Because I'm straddling timelines. I'm collapsing timelines. I have been both and right now certain parts of me and certain timelines have that black heart and certain ones ARE LIGHT and GOD and certain ones are repaired. 

Whoa.