Carnivore Group Intro

Introduction in Kelly Hogan's Carnivore Group:

Hello new friends!! ✨ I'm Carissa and live in eastern North Carolina with my sweetheart, Paul. We live at a humble community ranch with our special needs horse (allergic to grass-gah!), 10 goofy chickens and 3 dogs that bring us so much love and joy. In the past couple of months, Paul has gone gung-ho for carnivore. (He calls himself "The Liver King of North Carolina" - ha!) ....and the amount of information that he (and we) have been taking in has been like drinking water from a firehose! 💦 I'm a bit nervous about this path but need to do something to support my beloved body and inner child. I've been moderately overweight all of my life... and have had sugar and carb addictions from the get-go. (I just had a thought pop through that I wonder if the fact that my Mom didn't breastfeed....if the formula had something in it that got me addicted to unhealthy additives from the start? Just a thought to ponder.) I have quite awful anxiety that may be fueled by CNS and endocrine system dysregulation... and my blood sugar has been uncomfortable, especially in the last year. I have white coat syndrome so I don't want to get diagnosed, but I feel diabetes knocking at the door. I also deal with some autoimmune yuck (hidradenitis suppurativa). My sweetheart has been brave and radical in his diet and it's motivating me to do the same. I have a hang-up because I had one of those DNA diet tests and it said that I shouldn't eat much meat or fat. (https://www.mygenefood.com/custom-nutrition-plan/wayoan/) Ultimately I don't trust the mainstream narrative - and maybe the makers of that DNA test are in cahoots with all the Bigs" (Big Pharma, Big Medical, Big Food, Big Education, etc.)...so... I'm feeling into all this. If anyone has any thoughts on the DNA tests or if some people really shouldn't eat meat, please feel free to share. 😬 Long story short, I want to learn more and try out this diet/lifestyle and see if I can at least do a reset on my body and go from there. So glad to be in this group with all of you!! 🥰

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I think I might be on to something with the formula: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Infant_formula

It uses vegetable oils as a fat source. Learning about how bad vegetable oils are for me has really opened my eyes to the terrible things happening in the food system... seems like almost all (processed) foods have vegetable oil and some form of sugar planted in them.

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Been feeling things related to Egyptians... have heard it come up in conversation or things I ran across a couple times. Today my AG pick: https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Egyptians 

Meat only

Paul has been on the Carnivore Diet for 3 weeks now. He's been very passionate about it and teaching me lots. I have started and stopped it a bit... definitely upped my meat.... but then I went to Atlanta with Jannelle and we ate whatever... but I got back last night and was ready to start wholeheartedly today... but now after watching a Mikala Peterson video...some of it... I'm not sure. 

What if it makes the body unable to process other things? 
I signed up for a Kelly Hogan group in February ... to learn and chat and hold each other accountable, I guess? I think maybe I should do "Carnivore-ISH"... really limit oxalates, etc. And my body needs fat. But living on meat and butter doesn't sound balanced. But I want to heal.

I've got this chronic sinus infection. The dizziness is probably from that too. I need to heal. And obviously my body has always had problems... I messed it up with all the sugar and pharmaceuticals. I hae to help it find its sweet balance.

And what about starting a business. It's big. I don't know. We feel so wishy-washy and all over the place. Not grounded...but maybe the business will ground us. Me. I don't know if Jannelle will really want to stay in... but she has the magic and creativity. 

I'm tired.

God, what do you want from me?

LOVE. all over the place. 

Researcher and frequency keeper

I'm a researcher and frequency keeper. I'm here on earth learning about all the things... reverse engineering many... including food and diet and especially relationship and gender reversals and light bodies and nervous systems and bi-wave vs. tri-wave and God connectedness and consciousness and ego and all the things! So many things!

When I was younger and stronger I picked up codes across the earth ... well, Europe and the Americas....and Africa. I hope to heal enough to do more of that. But right now I am learning to love and to open my heart and to support my body and about the factors that affect my vessel. 

It's a wonderful mission and I'm really getting into a lot of it. So many brave and supportive team members here too! Thank you God!!

Email to friend

Message to Evangeline just now. It kind of talks a bit about what I'm working with so thought it was worth saving:

From: Carissa Wages <crwages@gmail.com>

Subject: Re: You okay?

Date: January 24, 2023 at 11:31:15 AM EST

To: "Evangeline (ES) Glasgow" <evangelineglasgow@protonmail.com>

Great message!!

Okay, so you know about “The Carnivore Code”. Cool. Yeah. I feel a lot of the same things as you do about it… but I’m going to try it… I’m eeking in. I feel better already but I think it’s from less carbs and sugars. (Although yesterday my friend mailed me some candy … it’s called Violet Crumble and made in Australia… so I had to try it.) I feel a little guilty, but not really. The blue corn chips that have been a staple of my diet for years are vexing me more. I got an app called “Carb Manager” and am learning so much. There’s one called “Chronometer” which I think is better, but like the social aspect of the Carb Manager so I could connect with Paul. He’s not using it much so maybe I’ll go back to the Chronometer… we’ll see. Do you or have you ever counted carbs or tracked calories?

So sweet of you to take your Mom out to lunch for her birthday. The dream sounds unsettling. Do you feel at peace if she does decide to check out?

I’m planning on going to Atlanta with my friend on Thursday. She’s taking me to a concert (Josh Garrells who she loves) and we’re staying at her sister’s AirBNB for a couple nights. I get weird/nervous about traveling and I know it’s fear that’s trying to lock me down. I used to be a free spirit traveling machine and need to overcome fear. Feel the fear and do it anyway.

They are chopping down some old trees in front of our apartments… one is in my yard… actually… they are chopping down another on in my yard probably tomorrow too. So sad. They said they are sick and that the roots are damaging the foundation. They have mistletoe all in them so I understand, but it’s still so sad… they are my friends. The one they are chopping tomorrow shades my chicken house and I call him Chris. I’m sad about their murder.

That’s great that it’s going well with Lux and I hope they are able to give her what she needs.

Romantic that you get to stay all snuggled with Jason in the snowy mountains! I’m glad it’s going well. I knew it would. You are such a special person - I’m glad you both SEE each other. I think it’s normal for people to get on your nerves, especially if they are in your (perceived) space. I wonder what’s underneath/fueling that? 

Paul doesn’t get on my nerves but we usually have problems when he is home… we just don’t get along great a lot of the time. We have so much trauma and ego and MESS to work through. Yesterday he got mad at me for something I didn’t do and left without saying goodbye. I was so hurt and INSTANTLY went to “breakup and run away” mode. It was good to see how when I am hurt, I want to run away. That’s my “M.O”.. And I need to correct that STAT. I have this idea that since we aren’t married that I don’t have security. But the truth is that I need to have security in myself and I can choose where I want to be. I WANT to be with Paul and to do this work right now. It is a gift from God that I am in a position with a fellow starseed (even if he doesn’t know that) who is also working similar pieces to me… this heirogamic union/gender roles polarity integration (Michael/Mary) stuff is no joke and what we came to learn and feel into. If I run away from what I wanted to experience and explore, then I WILL have “mission failure”. I need to lean in and feel all the feels. 

I can’t wait to get the supplements either. I had a tiny piece of raw liver yesterday and Saturday. But I’ll feel better with the supps. I also have to wait until I get paid in a couple weeks and hopefully the Starter Pack will be back in stock.

Okay, I hope you have a great day and that the appointment with Lux goes well today.

Lots of love!

Carissa

Ps. I’m learning about, dreaming, and planning to open a health food store/gift shop (with local produce, grass-fed meat, and crystals…and hopefully a salt cave)!

   

God in my eyes

I had a beautiful mirror session in the bath. God was in my eyes and comforted me and ... right... God is in ME... in my heart and I see into my heart...into me through my eyes. But I must remember that God is right here... promising I am never alone and that they are always with me. Typing it out doesn't do it justice. Been through a lot of emotions... fear of this vein popping on my left forehead now. Fear. Whatever it is. Tension and fear. I want to let them go. I do not need to fear. There is nothing to fear. I'm here on an adventure in a simulation. Okay, not really that... it's legit. I AM living in this body. Having an earth experience... research and recovery mission... enJOY it Carissa my Love!!! ENJOYYYY!

I love you. I am with you. 

I have lost my voice today. My sore throat is getting better. Not swallowing great. Had hiccups a lot today too which was interesting. 

Started carnivore-ish diet for now. Ate some "Violet Crumble" that Mr. Burch sent me today... neat. Not so good... good... but poison, right? I want to take care of my vessel. This carnivore diet is going to get my body back in balance. (I just asked my swingy rock thing... I can never remember the name of it. Dousing tool.). I thought I had given myself diabetes but it said "no". I asked if I had given myself pre-diabetes and it did the "no answer, it's up to you" message (up and down...."no" is side to side...."yes" is a circle....and I got that when I asked if this diet was going to get my body back in balance.)

I release fear.

I release control.

Today when Paul hurt me I wanted to leave again. I thought of Jeff. I texted Jeff (just to check on him. I have not told him of any troubles with Paul...that is a dangerous ...slippery...slope)... but I see what I'm doing. I've fantasized that there is another man who will love me better and when I am at the end of my rope, I dream of running off. In general I dream of just being friends... of cutting romantic ties with Paul...we aren't happy and in love yet I want him to want me and to want to marry me which is ridiculous because we haven't found our groove. I think we're headed there. I think we have a lot of trauma to heal in both of us. 

Lots of heart opening to do in both of us. But I need to see how when I am hurt I want to run away... to push away. This isn't THE WAY. It's 11:41 and Paul is "all mine now", so I need to go. We haven't made love in weeks... maybe tonight? Don't fear the vein. Be present. God is with us. All is well. Peace be with us. EnJOY the ride.

Yeff

I had another powerful and lovely dream about Jeff last night. I think we met at the airport and my family was there and afterwards I think Paul was there and I had to feel into the awkwardness of deciding how to deal with it. Jeff was so open and our love was united and we both actively and openly shared our joy in being together. I rubbed his feet (which were quite large and dry in the dream... maybe kind of flat?)... but we definitely loved each other. 

Paul continued to hold back. He continues to here too. We haven't made love maybe all year or at least for a couple weeks. Oh, we did that first week a little. But then nothing after the blowjob discussions. He goes through the motions.... today I observed him saying "I love you" as he drove off to work. We swapped those sentiments every day... but it's not truth. If he loved me, wouldn't he want to spend time with me? When he's home he's either on the toilet or cooking or in his office... all the time on his device. 

I hope Jeff didn't leave the earth. Please God. But I know and feel that we aren't going to get a chance to be together in this incarnation... or maybe I have hope that we will. But I don't think we are on the same page. Paul and I are on the same page in many ways.... yes. We are mirrors. We both don't know how to open our hearts and love. We both use control and manipulation to try to get our needs met instead of trusting with an open heart. We both are overweight. I feel his lack of attraction to me and I watch my judgment of him (though I don't feel unattracted to him... I just look at his fat body). I guess I'm studying and learning from it. But we are not magnetized to one another and he is not interested in me. Is that because I must be beautiful and use animal attraction to draw him? But where does that come from? From my own confidence, security, and attraction within... I must love myself and then maybe he might love me. But even if he doesn't, that's okay too. I must get to the point that I am not yearning for another person's attention or affection or support or security or anything... it's between ME and me. 

How many times have I said this? But it's true.

And maybe I should try cutting out plants?
And Julie said maybe the dizziness is from a sinus infection?
I think I need more meditation. I need to do the...I want to do the "Safe Passage for Loved Ones" for SweetPea who passed last night. I should have done it sooner but I didn't want to believe that he was getting ready to go. I feel really bad that I didn't spend time with him, or much time with him, in these last days.

I also need to figure out the Rife Machine so that I can treat Rue for cancer. 

It's a trick, this Yeff thing. It divides my loyalties. I just wish I felt more like Paul really wanted me. But again, I need to want myself.

BCX

OL Post about BCX:

You guyyyyys... thank you for this very influential thread which lead to me finally popping through and getting a Rife machine! Ahhh!! I've been dancing around and researching this topic off and on for at least 5 years now and never committed. Apparently now is the time. After reading this thread last week I was looking around and ended up bidding on a BCX Ultra on eBay. I NEVER thought I would get it... I bid the lowest possible amount and was the first (and ended up being the ONLY) bidder. I don't know if this is God's gift or if I wasn't smart about it and am financing a lesson instead of a healing device. We'll see!! It's an old version... just the BCX Ultra (not Deluxe) and I'm not finding any information online about the difference in the versions (yet). I don't know why but I've looked at that BCX version over and over in the last few years. I was drawn to the "plasma tubes" I believe.

Mhairi, I look forward to hearing how the plasma phanotron bulb works for you! I hope for the "beam tube" for the BCX device which sounds like the same thing.

I'm glad to hear that ya'll are enjoying your Spooky2. When I first started looking, a friend had one of those and loved it but another friend who sent her fingernail to the one with the Spooky2 had some bad experiences which she chalked up to that machine. I guess if you are opening access for distance healing, one does need to be careful about who they give consent to. Anyway, that story SPOOKED me and I've been scared of the Spooky2 ever since. I've now looked done my own research and it looks really intuitive and obviously many are loving it...so that's great.

Cynthia, do you have the BCX Ultra? Do you like it? Do you know a good resource to learn about it?

One of the main reasons I kept kind of backing out of getting a frequency device is fear of Ai hijack. Like, how can I be sure that the frequencies that are programmed haven't changed from their original intention and are still doing what they were meant to do? It seems like we are jumping around the frequency bands and that our resonance with certain tones might change depending on what timeline or dimension we are working on? It must come down to faith...trusting God's lead....and just setting intentions for krystal star algorithms and only krystal star algorithms to support our bodies?

Well, we'll see what God has in store!! Apparently it's meant to be... it's time... to engage with frequency healing. Whooo!

Gratitude,
Carissa

Random

I briefly saw 1/11 12:13 as it changed to 12:14

I was a dark portal

I was a dark portal... probably due to chocolate cheesecake. 
I was NOT well yesterday.

Paul has been very patient and amazing.

I've gotten some good numbers today. I think a 1:44 and a 17:17... it's 22:00 now. I had a 21:48, 20:00, OH YEAH. It was 19:19/9 with 19%
I had 13:03 and 12:12 and 12:13 and 11:55 and 11:48 and 11:44... no...these were yesterday...  The last one or two. Aaaaanyway...

I'm feeling bad but okay. 

I tortured poor Paul. I ripped the covers off him and demanded he help me. He didn't know how and I upset him so he couldn't have an open heart. I can't "GET" by "DEMANDING". I need to be gentle and soft.
Jannelle and I went to Buffalo Wild Wings and got our cauliflower wings after all. And we went to the pottery studio and I made a roller coaster bowl/vase thing for Mr. Burch. She invited me to go to Atlanta with her at the end of the month to go to a Josh Garrells concert. She is a beautiful friend. Help me to be strong and loving.
OH MY GOODNESS. I can't believe it but I think the Universe has provided a BCX Rife machine for us!! (I mean... it HAS!) I accidentally bid on one last week, not thinking it was possible that I'd get it...and the auction (on ebay) ended today and I GOT IT!!! AHHHHH! I was the only bidder. It's an older version but I pray it is just what God ordered. I feel hopeful about it. And a little in shock. 
Okay... we need to paint. It's time. 

Stress

I have begged... can you PLEASE help me Paul. Nothing. Ignoring and then finally "what would you like me to do?" ... while laying there... back to me... instead of engaging. Earlier today I was singing over a pot ... a song about "please help me"... help help help help. And he came out to scold me to ask me when I would be done. The stress is too much. 

January 8th. The day the changes were supposed to be done by. What changes do I have??

I'm still in the same messed up relationship

I'm still in the same not well paying job

I'm still in the same home

Have my attitudes changed?

Am I in the pit of doom?

I need kindness and compassion. 

Where can I get it? From myself. 

It's ME. I'm the ONE. Be here for me now. See you. You sweet girl. I'm so sorry.

Upgrades

Let's say for SURE we are getting upgrades. Thanks be to God for my pendulum which helped me feel better that I am healing and that my heart is fine and that I am fine. Sweet Michaela Didier is also dizzy and I pray that it is not what her doctor thinks and that she is also just braving the updates.

I pray that all the holes in my aura are repaired and that no ookies can get in. My tailbone has been vibrating since yesterday. How can I support this? My left chest is tight or uncomfortable... I wouldn't say pain. More squeezing maybe. That scared me. Release fear. We're getting upgrades to our wings. All is well. Peace be with me. Breathe.

Anxiety and stress... reframe them as good...healthy. My body is strong and healthy and healing and holding space to heal the world. Thank you God. 

1:11 13:13/4 17:55 (5:55)

Oops OL Journal yesterday

First post in OmniLov3... well... first journal post. It posted on 1/4 their time... 4/3:21am... the reverse numbers feel bad... like maybe I shouldn't have posted it.. it's NOT very coherent. It's a cry for help. See it for what it is. It's okay. Relax. All is well. Just BE YOU. It was helpful to spend time writing. Soothing for your nervous system. Breathe sweet girl.


I've been putting off... making excuses... doing all sorts of dances around... creating a journal in this space. I'm not especially coherent now but feel that it may be supportive to spend some time here with ya'll.

I've been on both ends of the polarity spectrum in many ways today. The first part of the day was mostly hopeful and happy (as today I was going to get to ... I DID get to... go see a healer (chiropractor/frequency lab naturopath soul sister). 2022 was a toughy and I'll unpack that if called to at another time, but financially we didn't have the ability to prioritize bodywork. Perhaps the lack of that kind of support added to the challenging year? Anyyyyyway, we are trying to find a better way to feel some semblance of control (as red wave vv cast its spell to divide and conquer the relationship of two control freaks) ....so we have decided to split finances and see if that helps. I'm excited for the autonomy to make the decision to do this for me... I need it...or think I do anyway. It's 2+ hours in the car and pretty expensive...today's visit was $150, but she gave me a supplement that will hopefully help with the dizziness and massive hair loss that came on me 12/12. So I was very excited to be getting help and felt great about it. While there it felt like some stuff came up related to my heart which is a significant trigger for me.... so when I got home I started not feeling well and at dusk I started having a panic attack for an hour or two and swimming in fear and darkness.

I hate this message. I don't know what to say. There are so many layers and things and I just want to lean in and hug all of you here. I just feel like I need to feel the softness and warmth of your love. It's been a really hard year. (sobbing) I feel like we are on the precipice or already stepping into something beautiful and that GOOD is with us. I just am still having a hard time... it's so much ego mess... so much fear. I'm reading the "Emotion Code" right now and feeling like, yes, there are definitely stored traumas in all or many of my organs and body parts and I want to release them. Seems like we've got this going on from our personal incarnations as well as ancestral/DNA lines, AND planetary traumas. It's a lot.

One that has risen to the surface in the last day or two has to do with my birth process... I got stuck in my mom's birth canal and I think I might have been face up or something....I can't remember exactly...but I got stuck and I think there is a stuck emotion there having to do with fear. My parents lived in Puerto Rico and there was a language barrier for them and I know that my getting stuck was scary, but then with the language barrier...the frustration of not being able to communicate clearly...maybe that made it worse? So I probably picked up THEIR fear on top of the whole "leaving the warm and safe womb" fear.... and that was how I came into this world. Fear colors everything and makes me a magnet for anything with the fear frequency!!

I was also thinking that my higher self was probably on pins and needles with the getting stuck business... I'm sure there was some canoodling in order to arrange for my incarnation/blueprint at my birth. I was born on the autumnal equinox in the Bermuda Triangle into the "perfect" family line (with whatever hybridization cocktail they offered through their DNA for me to work on in this life).... I bet I really wanted it to work out. And I STILL really want it to work out. Fear of mission failure is a big one for me.

Anyway... dusk... magnetic shifts... whatever is going on with the energetic atmosphere (lots of liquid plasma or kundalini or whatever that I saw Kyla was feeling too with the cold and hot energies triggering our CNS and endocrine systems).... on top of karmic density still clearing, on top of ego and fear clearing... it's just rough.

I have felt deeply that this... OL in particular... is our container... Paul's and mine. I feel it supports the work we are doing together (which has been a NIGHTMARE mostly because I've taken my eyes off God and fallen into codependency and all the mess that goes with that - fear, judgment, control, etc.)... I got into a relationship and instead of continuing to prioritize the relationship between ME and me, I started just putting my focus on him... specifically to try to change him. I see his magnificence... his potential... who he is underneath all the trauma we picked up in this incarnation... and I was trying to get him to BE THAT NOW. I was playing the Holy Spirit's role, thinking I could tell him what was what and if he just trusted ME then everything would be perfect. I didn't honor his journey... his sovereignty and freedom to do whatever it is he wants to do.... to work things out himself in his own time.

We are chaulking 2022 up to a year of learning... an opportunity to see what we DON'T want to do and wiping the slate clean and starting fresh in LOVE for 2023.

Sorry for the emotional vomit but I'm glad to have started a journal. Oh. I wanted to tell you about Rainbow Red the Squirrel. I wrote that as my subject line thinking that was what I would talk about but I did actually vent some stuff....not helpful stuff... just my junk... oh...but I DO have something helpful I want to share....

First... thank you Mhairi and... what happened? Is Sequoia now Patrick? I didn't listen to the Q&A for the last call yet and maybe it was mentioned in there or maybe it changed in the last few months since I was gone? I like it! Feels very organic and rooted. Would love the backstory. Annnnyway... thank you Mhairi and Patrick (??) Right?... anyway... whoever nudged the Ruby Sun meditation... I'm definitely feeling that. Maybe Rainbow Red the Squirrel is related??

But I have been pulling the OL " AM Energy Clearing " meditation like crazy these last few weeks. I have a stack of well over a hundred meditations and when one comes up more than once over the course of a couple days, it seems significant. In this case I have pulled that one, it must be close to 6 or 7 times...maybe more! I already listen to it almost every morning (without pulling a card) but I pull one at night or during the day when I don't know what meditation to do and it has come up SO many times! So I've listened to it at least 20 times in the last few weeks and even though I can recite lots by heart, HOW COME it's not become a part of me yet? How come I keep pulling that card? I want the magic to INTEGRATE PLEASE. I want it to BECOME me. (Big sigh.) Anyway, I think it's just a perfect mix of everything... a really great and supportive one for these times and thought I should share.

So Rainbow Red the Squirrel was a squirrel that was either hit by a car or fell out of a tree, but I found him (or her) on the road and brought him home. I was actually leaving a voicememo for Eliyanah at the time ... I tried to hang up with her at 23 seconds but my device wouldn't let me until I had eyes on this squirrel and was invested to investigate. (THEN it let me hang up. Weird.) Anyway... the sweet thing let me scoop him up and drive home with him on my lap. I expected to take him (or her) home and just hold him until he died. (Melanie's story about sitting with/supporting a cat who got hit by a car was inspirational to me).

As I was holding him with the sun glistening in his fur, I realized that he was also made up of rainbows. Maybe everyone with hair is??...I need to do more research on this... but he and his rainbows definitely had my heart. Paul named him Red (he also called him a he... I thought it was a she). We ended up holding him for an hour or so and then he started trying to crawl and crawled off my lap and then went running into our chicken yard. He was running in circles... confused and unwell. He had a bruised left side of head and swollen black and blue eye, and left arm injury as well. The chickens were scaring him so I scooped Red up again and held him for another 35 or 45 minutes until the sun was setting and we decided we needed to do something with him for the night. Paul made a little cage with blanket, water and rabbit food (we didn't have squirrel food) and we left him there. Paul said if he made it through the night that he would probably make it but he didn't think he'd make it through the night. Sweet Paul checked on him a few times in the night and jumped out of bed in the morning to see how he was doing. He opened the door and Red came out.

Red ended up climbing a tree outside our fence and was up there all day. Around 3 or 4pm I went to check on him and he was hanging over a branch, head hanging. I thought he had passed ...but then he blinked. So I decided I'd better do the Safe Passage in earnest. (I had been praying it over and over with him since yesterday but never with the meditation in Lisa's voice.) I went in to get my device and as I started it Paul came out. I asked if he would sit with me and hold space...not really expecting it (he's not into these kinds of meditations. He likes to pull the cards for the one I/we go to sleep to at night but he doesn't actually listen... he falls asleep quickly and they are really low in volume... but I think he's got a magic touch and he OFTEN....almost always.... pulls the OmniLov3 meditations which is why I think this container is especially supportive for us.) I digress.... anyway... Paul DID say he would sit with us and we went through the meditation and it was so powerful. The tree that was cradling Red lit up in Krystic White Light and held him... it was really powerful. Celestine Fire maybe??? Hmmm! Anyway... the SECOND...seriously...the SECOND we were finishing the meditation, Red sat up. I ended up going in to get a camera to take his picture and I'm glad I did because an hour later he was gone. Left the tree to who knows where!? (To join up with a squirrel family and live happily ever after, I hope.) It was such a special gift to get to love on him that day (1/1) along with so many other elemental bird friends that shook their tail feathers for us that day.... ducks, blue heron, falcons, vultures, seagulls, and Paul saved the life of one of our chickens that day too.

Anyway... whoop. I'll wrap it up. Long story short, Rainbow Red the Squirrel was a special friend and his presence and Mhairi's bumps are saying "yep, go do the 12D Ruby Sun med now sweet Carissa." Okay.

Lots of love to you all! Thank you for your love and faith and courage and the light and powerful frequencies you are anchoring to support our beloved earth's healing. It's a true honor to know and work with you all.
HUG HUG HUG
Love,
Carissa
ps. I feel so much better just hanging out with you like this. Thank you for hearing and loving me (and my mess).

The 9:11 that I had been seeing last week a bunch was also probably related to the Ruby Sun Template. Are we getting it back? 

Safe Passage for Red

Seems like 1/2 is a powerful energy day for me again. Some really good crying. Repentance for my JUDGEMENT. Please let it go. Good time meditating quietly. Lots of colors and healing energies.

Paul and I just did the "Safe Passage for Loved Ones" meditation for Red. It felt powerful holding that space with Paul and I'm grateful that he was willing to do that... he doesn't care for Lisa Renee and just listened to that meditation ....sat and stood and prayed nearby as we held space. It was amazing that at the end of it ...like at the last second as it was ending, he got up. He had been hanging over a branch with his head down and at the end he sat up. Either way I feel that we were supportive to compassionately witness his plight. God's will be done. 

I must let go of my expectations for....everyone. I was going to say "body"...but really that's been a theme this last week, how my expectations (and me not "getting my way"/expectations) cause discordance and disharmony in our relationship and life.

I must let go of fear. This dizziness is part of all the incoming energies. I've told me that all along ... so stop believing the lie... the devil... the trickster...FEAR...that wants you to CONSTRICT. Breathe into it. The endocrine upgrades are also HEALING. The nerve upgrades are ultimately healing. But you must BREATHE and RELAX. 

My scalp is on fire... it's kundalini. Relax. Peace be with you Beloved.

I saw 3:33 when we went out to do the meditation for Rainbow Red the Squirrel.

I also was directed to 2:22/2 (though I saw it as 14:22/2 and I also saw 14:33 and 14:44). I believe I saw 1:11 but can't remember now. I definitely saw 12:22/2 with Paul.

Saw 4:22 and now it's 2/4:42

2/4:44

2/4:48

CLEAR BLACK MAGIC (7:08)

Let Go of my Hair

I have to keep letting go of my hair. It's literally all falling out and it needs to be okay. My scalp is on fire. It is so very thin. It looks bald on top. LET GO.

I have had a nice day with Paul. It's 2023! Thank you God! I woke up and felt so good to have made it here to this time. I feel hopeful that it is going to be a brighter year.

Paul and I were up until about 1am with the dogs and the fireworks.

I feel very happy and hopeful for Paul to lead. He's already set up a budget for us and got me on his list app...and we had a nice blowjob today and we took care of a rainbow squirrel that Paul named Red that I brought home. (I found him in the road where he (or she) was recently run over (or fell out of a tree). 

Misha's mania may have rubbed off on me. It's contagious?

I must read another chapter for Mama Bear.

8:47

Today we saw blue heron, and I saw a massive flock of seagulls flying in a big circus over the Walmart, and we picked up rainbow Red the squirrel (who is still hanging in there as of right now), and I saw peregrine...or at least some sort of... falcons flying in circles near our beloved vulture family... and of course time with our horse and chickens and dogs... thank you God.