Moved!

It's official! I'm a homeowner and I'm all moved! More importantly, all my animals are moved! I turned in the keys to my apartment and said goodbye to Sundance Country Club Ranch after an almost 9 year stint there! Excited for my next chapter. 

Thank GOD for all the wonderful friends and family that made this happen for me... Ryan has been there the whole time. Torturing and punishing me as payment (because he is conflicted in his soul and doesn't know how to be... he's giving so much of himself and wants to get back at me because of it... he's not giving from genuine love. He is a mirror.)... but he built the fence for Sioux and the chickens and got my water running for me yesterday... it's filtered, but the UV light is broken so still shouldn't drink it. 

My parents swooped in and helped me move and set up my house so I have a HOME. Dad did hardware and doornobs and dump runs with me. Mom organized my kitchen and unpacked boxes and they both supported and loved on and bought me lots of things... hardware and glasses and curtain rods and made my home lovely!!

Michael helped move me and the chickens and chicken houses... Mr. Casey and Josh came and moved the chicken houses (that was a photo finish.. super scary but it happened just in the nick of time, thanks to the generosity and amazing equipment of Mr. Casey)... and Boyd helped load all our heavy stuff and more... and Boyd and Sarah moved Sioux... it was 

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I lost my place a while a go... this is my state of mind... it's been WILD, INTENSE...but we made it! I'm HOME!! God, please help Ryan to get some perspective and a clear and kind mind and heart. He is tearing me down and into pieces... always making me feel so bad about myself...  it makes him feel better when he can make others feel worse... I know that game too. I did it for so long. So this is what I am learning. I need to go take trash to the dump and returns to TSC. Let's see how it goes! I am strong!!

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7/31 11:12 ... just missed it! What does that say?
I'm too tired to analyze Ryan too much but it is very interesting to watch and listen and I thank God for the opportunity. Integrations happen in the midst but I think more pieces will come together. He is not well. Very unbalanced and blames everyone else. Such a huge ego (like me) and to me that means he has a big calling ... and a big heart. And I just need to bide my time and love him to the best of my ability while God does his work. I need to take good care of myself so that the torture he is pulsing through doesn't stick. I don't have bandwidth for details now which is too bad because they are interesting and without details it's just moosh. 

I was invited to a second interview today for the Ag Center Facilities Coordinator role and I am really interested in it! God's will be done.