Grounding

 Thank you for the question/topic Fadi! This is one of the most important spiritual practices for me as my higher self is working to embody this vessel.

I suspect I’m healing a Fallen Tree situation, so that may be why I struggle with grounding so much.

So many great responses here already, and I just ordered some flower essences and cedarwood - thanks Stephanie! I have a ton of essential oils… including a YL “Grounding”, but I don’t have a plain cedarwood so now I will try it!

I spent most of this year barefoot which helped a lot. When it got cold, it’s really put a damper on my earthing. There are earthing shoes out there.

I have heard that meat is grounding - I don’t eat much of it, but I that’s why I still need it for the time being (even though I WISH I could be vegetarian - I’ve tried it 2x for about a year but I got so sick both times). I appreciated May’s comments as I’ve been really going back and forth on this.

There are crystals that are supportive - obsidian, shungite, hematite, black tourmaline come to mind. I really like petrified wood as well but I’m not sure if that is an official grounding stone.

For me visualizing the 12-tree grid and especially just sinking consciousness into my 1st sphere has been really supportive. In general thinking of yourself as having roots that grow down and connect deeply into the earth is helpful.

I think someone may have mentioned that EMF can really do a number on our grounding mechanism, so remembering to turn off wifi and cell phones at night and having nothing plugged in in your bedroom (so you can have a safe haven to the best of your ability and give your body space to recuperate from the oxidative stress while you sleep) can be helpful.

Of course there are so many wonderful mediations here that are helpful too. The 1D Atomic Body Clearing and EMF Clearing meditation come to mind.

With Love,
Carissa

Fallen Tree

Thank you for this thread, Glenn! I just came over here to deal with a similar issue. This pinged my heart when Lisa mentioned it in the ESF Ascension Call in October, but just now when I read it in the AG it was like - YEP, THAT'S ME. Totally.

The Fallen Tree!
ascensionglossary.com/index.php/The_Fallen_Tree

Since about last fall I had a sense that my hara line was off to the right and bowed/curved...and I had a feeling that my heart was shifted to the right. I definitely have trouble with grounding and connecting to my base shield... thank you for that link, Eddie! I keep being shown suns for my lower and higher shields... and I see a big merkaba star over my body instead of a little one... and the KRYSTAL arc over my higher heart. I have different rays at different times - rainbow, platinum, white (is this false white light?), blue, gold, I had a magenta/dark pink one time. I see vibrant green and purple sometimes. I don't know what's going on. I think these higher energies are here to help correct my fallen tree.

And Kelly, I think of you often too, wondering if you were still getting the 5-pointed star. I definitely am/was. This morning was maybe the second or third time I was able to almost truly see/feel the merkaba one. I get close but it's like I can't see the whole thing at once so when I shift my inner vision down to review the bottom half, it may have a hole or blank up higher outside my viewing area. I can't explain this well. Point is I'M JACKED UP!! AHHHH!! (Okay, I'm also dramatic! Disregard. Ha.)

Anyway, grateful for this thread. I'm with you all. I'm going to do more digging now. But this thread was sitting pretty right at the top of the forum for me, thank you God!

Love,
Carissa

Edit: Oh my gosh! And thank you Mhairi for the insight and comfort! That is so helpful!!

ps. I'm sorry for the spastic energy ... it's coming through but not sure if it's real. Thank you for the opportunity to observe this. It's biwave energy. I can't really pin it to the mental body or emotional body. What is it then? Part of my pain body of sorts? Part of the "Carissa show" (where I think it's my job to entertain people)? I digress. Just wanted to acknowledge it out loud.


Edit 2: Maybe this is related in some way to what's being revealed to me, but I'm not sure, but I woke up at 8:23 and have seen 9:23, 10:23, and now 11:23... just tracking this.

Lightworker or dark portal (or both)?

 Lightworker or dark portal (or both)?

Reflecting again on my experiences where I felt like a “cell tower for God”. Could I have been a portal for unknown entities instead?

(In the context of the evangelical Christian church) I used to be an “amplifier” to help people worship. Deep in the process of singing and praying with my heart lifted to God, I knew I was a part of the “worship team” (even if they didn’t)…my job was to lift them to God… I could intentionally pray into people and amplify their connection… direct them deeper into God. It sounds delusional but it was part of what I felt led to do and I connected deeper as a result of my obedience to the direction. We were united in God, all doing our parts and I was able to see the connection and how it was brought forth through them to the other worshippers too.

This is one example but there were other things too - go places, pick up strangers, say things, do things, etc. And this is where my understanding of “gridworking” comes in because along with that, I would sometimes be led to pray and cry and dance and wail and get visions of connection with God and other people and really indescribable things but I was connected into something greater than myself and I just had to go with it.

At one point I prayed to be a channel… I didn’t know what that was, but I saw that Jesus was a “channel" (read that into the original language and followed it in my heart)…. and I wanted to be of use to God… a gold bowl in the sanctuary. A vessel unto honor, not dishonor.

I was given visions and understanding and insights about so much. This was mostly before my alien love bite and descent into the metatronic reversal pit of doom. But as I’m coming out, I’m coming back on-line. Getting direction, and dreams and visions and prayers so I want to understand my role and what is and was going on because I don’t want to be out of line…

Couldn’t it have been Annunaki manipulative tendencies that led me to “pray worship” into those people? And what about “intercessory prayer”? I used to think of it as crawling into people’s skin to pray for them… I got insight and could pray life or action or light or whatever into them from inside. But WHAT IS THAT?? Before my husband moved here, I remember praying for him and sensing this deep darkness … bitterness and pain stored in his chest cavity… and I went in there and took a stick and popped a hole through to let some light in hoping to dry up some of that dank cave.

This sounds very portal-Y to me now. I think/thought I had good intentions… and I was “lightworking” (though I didn’t know that term)… but isn’t this still manipulation? Imposing my (or whoever is popping through a portal in my field)’s will? “Satan transformed himself into an angel of Light" (2 Cor 11:14) and "If the light you think you have is really darkness, how deep that darkness is.” (Matthew 6:23) pierced my heart. Was I messing around in the astral plane and the false ascension matrix? I feel like most of the time my intentions were pure… but it’s still superimposition on someone else’s spiritual experience.

I was sent to car accidents - I wrote about this before somewhere - but I could sense that I had a shield (I called it a bubble) around me that protected me. Isn’t that related to my 12D shield? Was that a False Ascension Matrix construct too?

I don’t think I ever had anyone to talk to about “supernatural experiences”. I would get huge ego checks when I would consider it. And one time when I tried to talk to a pastor who I just KNEW had similar experiences, he said “we don’t talk about that type of thing”. So I was shushed. (That pastor is STILL on my heart and in my field and I love him so much. He’s just GOT to SEE soon!)

Anyway, I just want to know where the line is. Maybe there’s just a DO NOT INTERFERE. But is that true? What if people come to you? What if people ask for prayer? What about when I’m swept away in worship and prayer and brought somewhere to do or see something? What about when I feel like I’m supposed to say or do something?


Maybe this is coming from my ponderings about “creating sparks” (after my experience 12/21 where I sensed I was trying to do just that). That phrase was stuck in my craw but I couldn’t remember where it was in the Bible, but THANK YOU GOD, the next day I opened right to it! So there’s a verse in Isaiah that says that we’re not supposed to “create sparks” (KJV) and that always convicted and confused me because it seemed like in church that’s what we were doing… trying to rev ourselves up into a state of worship.

But THEN I read the verse in front of it where it basically says that even in darkness we need to wait on and trust in God’s plan and timing… not create sparks to try to fix or light the situation ourselves. If we do, then God leaves us to our pitiful little sparks (and sorrow)… but those that wait on God will experience… well, check out Isaiah 51 if you want to know…. basically it’s good stuff.

So I wonder if this “lightworking” is also like “creating sparks” and taking matters into my own hands, in a way?

If anyone has any thoughts or experience around this, I sure appreciate it! I know God teaches everything in DRT/DRO but I love a good shortcut if anyone has advice! Ha!

Today's ESF post

  Thank you to all who are contributing to the reclamation of light and consciousness. 

I’ve been given more understanding … I remember when in January 2010 I all of a sudden could deeply understand the writings in the Bible (which I’d been reading, teaching, and trying to live for many years…but after a massive spiritual shift or walk-in, a new level or layer opened and I just “got it” (more)). This is what has happened this last month with the ES materials. They’ve become unveiled (or less veiled). So many pieces are coming forward for witnessing and I am reclaiming parts of me that have been long lost and buried.

Uluru is important. Something with the mitochondria and ATP connection is there.

Beloved Rosemary turned me on to the Gnostic Mass which was fantastic….but the Seraphim Reclamation has been my song - the meditation of my heart and purpose and healing.

I’ve been immersed in integration and am just coming up now for air. Last night it was so strange … I was trying to emotionally connect to the solstice celebrations. A second run-through of Lisa & Tomas’ beautiful prayer, this time with my own candle… a solstice celebration and energy download by someone else… but I realize I was trying to “create sparks”… and it wasn’t working. I guess it was neutrality…but it was so strange to not feel anything. I’m so used to feeling so much. I had a small cry as I sat in silence with the golden flame that broke into a gorgeous pattern…but only one tissue’s worth…it was small and strange.

Lovely time with the calibration manual after that though and lots of disclosure and encouragement and training in sleep state. I woke up knowing that I’m a seer. I just need to step into confidence around it. I don’t even know what it means other than it has negative connotations in the monotheistic religious world. I have experienced myself as a "prophet" because I get told to do or say something and I have to do it (or else I don't get more assignments). Seer could be the same thing, I guess, but learning to trust my intuition and have confidence and not allow ego to taint it is the work.

I was nudged and reminded and talked to the other day about how I’ve been born through and sent to the evangelical church with the Light and truth, to show the way. I don’t know what that looks like yet. I have dabbled in this calling off and on for years but mostly I need to just keep listening to Source and following guidance and embodying and anchoring the true spirit of Christ-Sophia. Just BEING is a big part of the fulfillment of my mission. I DO think that I should probably GO there. For a long time I didn’t go because I was easily twisted and confused. God would show me something and then I’d go and then get twisted…and then for many years I had to put the Bible down and God taught me through nature. But I am a frequency keeper. I am a cell tower for God. I am an acupuncture point. All there in that one church, for sure. It’s an hour away now but I should still go. But my husband won’t like it. But we’ll see

I believe I am of seraphim lineage (are we all?) - maybe related to Quetzalcoatl. I am rehabilitating fallen angelic lines and Michael-Mary reversals. I am supposed to be a grailkeeper (but could I be one on the NAA side?). I may have been involved in the 8th Stargate shenanigans and maybe as so many beloveds are working to repair and restore that, I’m also being unstuck. I was pinned to the GEG in a way… the backwards mind-bending toxicity twisting myself and me glomming on and twisting others. I for sure fired in some darkness to keep that sucker powered up. I have not been a good being. I probably sat on Uncle Annunaki's lap as a kid.

In this incarnation... just in the last 10 years...since my walk-in... I experienced falling into the pit of metatronic reversal… but it was so that I could reverse the reversal… so that I could “repent” of the reversal… which means evicting demonic entities and the dark spirits related to satanism and luciferianism…both of which I have been involved in through my ancestors or those I am working with here. So again, I invite the spirits of Christ to rule and reign in my being. I AM GOD, SOVEREIGN, and FREE!

Thanks be to God for Joe Machney who has helped me SO much this year with clearings. I feel like we’ve only made a tiny dent, but even so, it’s allowed a huge shift and I’ve got a LOT of glop to work through.

Closing portals. The other day a woman who has dark mother tendencies walked by me in the barn with my niece and I instantly changed … it’s like I “caught” that energy and I started being really weird to my niece (dark portal). Poor girl. My energy basically shifted from loving, to manipulating. The good news is that it was relatively quick, and I was also outside of myself watching and learning … “why are you acting like that, Carissa?… what are you trying to do here”? etc. I was able to apologize to my niece and I think it’s all okay now… so it was a good learning experience (but not GOOD. It was terrible.) Anyway, just to say that I am still really susceptible to other energies working through me.

Update on the Tyrone situation which I shared in recent posts. I can’t be 100% sure that I’m not in some way involved in the reclamation of his God-being, BUT if so, I think I fulfilled my part it by sharing ES and AG links and newsletter and if it resonates, perhaps he will also pull himself out of the pit as I, with the help of many, have been doing. He is not my responsibility and I surrender and let go of the past, present, and future related to him. God be with him.

I see that this whole thing came up in this time for release… I had a lot of past feelings around our union. The “arranged marriage by God” was an Alien Love Bite and I became obsessed with the fulfillment of this delusion (a happy, God-breathed, heirosgamos union). Even after all that happened, I was still holding onto hope for a “fairytale” ending. “One day my prince will come… la la la la la la”… blah blah. Anyway, I now understand that I AM my own prince and princess… they are within me! My prince IS HERE. My princess IS HERE. So work on your relationship (HG within) and learn to love one another and heal yourself and the world. BOOM. So that’s it.

Working through lots with addiction. Staci’s book is helping me reflect through her experiences on some of mine. I’ve got so much buried… so much mind wiping and mind slides and mind MUCK. But we’re slogging through. The sexual misery program bit me yesterday, but I got away. I was at a gas pump and a lady in the next aisle was seething baphomet energy and she had these pants with this big wedgie (purposeful), and as soon as I saw it this LUST demon came to try to get me to look more. I said “NO WAY” and hid from her, but it was interesting to see how powerful it was. I’ve given myself to that demon too much. For someone who never cared for sex, I sure have a powerful reaction to things like that. So. More work there.

Earlier this year I had a strange thought where I wondered if I had been part of somehow creating the template for genitals. I know this is a weird thing to say. I’m sorry but it came up again recently and I think maybe there’s something there. So…

-pause, I know this is a lot. Too much stuff for one post, but I haven’t posted forever and I guess it’s all just coming out now. I’m sorry! But I know it’s only really for the container and not really any humans need to hang out with it. So it is what it is. -

So I am a (we are all) artists/creators and I often joked that I had a problem with “worshipping the work of my hands”. I would finish something and then go back to it and look at it and look at it more… it was my ego taking hold of it, really… my ego rolling it around in her hands trying to suck some glory out of it for herself. Often she’d just suck all the energy out of it and leave it dead and lifeless…no longer a co-created gift in and through God, now it was from flesh and feeding the shadow. Anyway… that was a digression because it was the going back to it over and over to see if it was as good as I thought it was that was also a problem and a mind/heartset and something I started observing. SO… I also feel like I had this relationship with genitals. Just a curiosity around them…. all genitals and bums… men, women, animals… just like a “how’s this working out” type of mentality. Is the function of the horse’s vagina working… like can she pee well? How’s that cushie bum? Are those butt feathers working for the rooster? There is sickness mixed in with this, I feel it… but it wasn’t the same as that “lust demon” that I know and have played with in the past… this is a scientific mindset. It’s very strange. So anyway, maybe it was in March or something I thought “could I have been part of the team that created this system”? It was a strange and ungrounded thought - no reason to connect it other than the fact that I was identifying more and more with Unity and God-consciousness.

So the other day I read in the AG that: "The Seraphim were a part of the original creators of the divine human species prototype…". Maybe I’m taking this out of context but I submit it here as potentially related. COULD I have been on the design team?? Either way, I don’t want to think about genitals. Yuck!

I DO also believe I am supposed to be … is healing the word? Repenting? Releasing?… either my past life or ancestral past lives that involved SRA. I believe I was a Freemason (I know little about this group but it came to me) and led meetings where we ceremonially raped and murdered children. I sense that my group was in the Georgia area but that we came up to the Biltmore basement in Asheville for a ceremony (or many?). Blood sacrifice. Pedophilia. Satanic and Luciferian rituals and feeding on the power to fuel our beings and our black wings … we were as Gods… but dark Elohim. Or they were. I don’t know what little ole me, Carissa of the chicken house in North Carolina is doing involved with this stuff… but I’m in it. I think it’s because I’m part of the earth. We all are. I’ve been a lightwokrker and templar and gridworker and grailkeeper and whatever else it’s called … or my God-being or my guidance teams or my God-being (which I AM) has been working on outside of my consciousness (with sometimes seepage through)… anyway. Wow. What a ride. But I’ve got lots of black goo (and sometimes people and pieces and villages) to port or whatever.

Did I ever share this picture of this tree? I saw this in early October … walked by it in the woods and was like “that is an image of ME” … I didn’t have my camera and I asked someone to take a picture of it for me and it’s not a great photo… but it grabbed me. Lots of portals and holes …so many around the other side of this picture...and worship/raising cords or hands or hearts to God … I need to go back and find that tree so I can and take a better picture…. or am I holding on to it? Yeah. Well, very interesting.

If anyone made it through, thank you. I cannot thank you enough for your love and witness. What an incredible journey we are on together. I’m grateful and HONORED to be here with you. Thank you thank you thank you for holding space for me and for yourselves and for all the God-beings anchoring LOVE.

Peace be with you all!
In Love,
Carissa

On (my) fallen consciousness in order to rehabilitate!

7th Cycle Stage of Christos Paliadorian Covenant

Christ Consciousness exists outside of this Solar System and beyond the Universal system. However, the planetary Solar Christ deity is from the Family of Michael, through which the entire world soul consciousness was fallen and crucified during the Luciferian Rebellion. The Christ Michael 9D consciousness went through several dispensations in a process of incarnating on the earth during the Root Race cycles, through his infinite love of creation. He attempted to know all aspects of darkness in the creation and to eventually resurrect it from the anti-life reversals and the death patterns it existed within. There was no way to resurrect a material creation without first embodying all aspects of it, including all of the fallen aspects. In this last and seventh dispensation of Paliadorian Covenant or Christ bestowal, it was designed to resurrect the earth body through an Ascension Cycle. During the seventh Astrological Precession since the NAA Invasion, the Embodiment process was to bring in all of the aspects of the Cosmic Christ consciousness, directly in Christ Michael’s incarnation process, and to fully embody the entirety of the Gold Ray body, in which the Fallen Seraphim genetics could be resurrected.

Embodying this aspect of the Seraphim body was required in order to reclaim it from the DNA mutations accumulated from the alien hybridization and cloning wars. The Fallen Angelics are largely mutations of the Fallen Seraphim, they are the dark angels that embody the bi-wave consciousness of the Luciferian forces. The Michael Mary heart twinning is the fulfillment of the seventh cycle of the Christ Michael embodiment for the Gold Ray Seraphim Template in order to resurrect the Fallen Seraphim, the Fallen Angelic consciousness.

Thus, in the seventh cycle of the reclamation of Christos Mission, this level of the Guardian Host rehabilitation mission for the Gold Ray Seraphim Template has met with victory. To ensure masculine rod healing for the distorted Seraphim 10 Strand DNA template, a pure Gold Ray 12 Strand core manifestation template for the Seraphim lineages has been generated as the diamond sun embodiment potential for the entirety of Christ-Michael Avian lineages. The Fallen Angelic Annunaki hybrids are not amused as this relinquishes their genetic position of superiority over the fallen aspects of the Family of Michael, and thus they have retaliated to target those of us serving this particular mission. ^[1]

https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Gold_Ray_Seraphim_Template

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Maybe this is why I'm seeing 22 and 44's. (I also see lots of 11s and 33s...and lots of others too. 55s = reversal 55 grid. Last night 555 and 553 again. 

The Yod-Hay-Vod-Hay System also correlates to taking over all of the numerical four and master builder 22 constructs that are used in Morphogenetic Fields as blueprints for matter.

https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Yahweh_Matrix

On Master builder 22:

https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Master_Builder_Number_22 

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8th stargate :

They gradually brought down assorted alien machinery from the 8th Stargate through an inorganic vertical wormhole, an artificial architecture they built with programmable reversal elementals, and then installed in the vertical axis of the planet that is called the Yahweh Matrix

The Yahweh Matrix replaced the planetary staff, which allowed the Black Hole Entities to gain easy access into the earth through the north and south poles, in order to distort the planetary field. This was done through genetic modification and set up frequency fences that broadcast extremely low frequencies that make the earth more hospitable for their survival. The low frequency and static net broadcast produced the Predator Mind construct and thoughtforms intended for mass human parasitism, divide and conquer tactics for spreading wars. These artificial nets and constructs were further designed to progressively pull the earth and her world soul into inorganic black holes. 

https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Yahweh_Matrix

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2D-4D Split and Alien Love Bite:

When the astral layers were split into 2D aspects and 4D aspects, this generated a dual identity and this was how the first Shadow Self and its unconscious aspects in the Pain Body were generated. This lower astral distortion tends to be exploited with anti-hierogamic targeting technologies for inserting alien love bite scenarios, where an individual feels inappropriately bonded to another individual at the sexual (2D) or heart (4D) level, which is very confusing and emotionally disturbing. To begin to heal from Alien Love Bite and Anti-Hierogamic Technology targeting, this section of the astral layers and soul matrix must undergo Emotional Healing, which will release the inorganic bindings.

The damage from the 2D-4D schism generated a weakness in our lightbody for the NAA to exploit, hijacking unintegrated shadow aspects or soul memories and then attaching false memories, false identities or Clones through which our consciousness could be manipulated or misled. That is why this unhealed Lightbody damage is commonly exploited for alien love bite situations, as many people can be easily manipulated in their emotional layers to play out unhealthy behaviors in the twin flame new age mind set. 

Sometimes they connect these images to other people that they are attempting to confuse and derail in their Ascension progress. These are designed to spin out interference, artificial realities and Alien Love Bite scenarios where the NAA attempts to fully control the future timeline of that person, by derailing them or placing superimposed miasmatic interference in their field for the purpose of ongoing technological sabotage of that Awakening person.^[2] 

https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Seed_of_Anti-Christ-Sophia 

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On (my) Fallen consciousness (which we are rehabilitating now):

https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Metatronic_Bodies 

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On my job as Grailkeeper... this is why I was targeted for Alien Love Bite and 2D-4D Split... including the job of Transiting (which I've been doing for some time just without my understanding):

https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Grailkeeper

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Okay, found THIS in the "grailkeeper" article: 

"As an example, we may recognize our killer from another lifetime, and feel our soul pulling towards them, and this energetic compulsion is not happening for the reasons we think it is. " 

and frankly I wonder if THIS has more to do with Tyrone than me recognizing his "God-self"?? I keep thinking that the day he left, he was going to kill me. I found that random baseball bat outside my room. I was sleeping. He could have killed me or left and I think he left so he didn't kill me. What a strange thing to think, right? I don't think Michael would kill me. Why do I think Tyrone would. I think maybe he did in another life. 

When humans are not given context for Ascension, spiritual healing and multidimensional reality, it is very hard for most people to discern between darkness and light, deceit and truth, on the earth plane.

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The first time I broke my back, it was a compressive fracture to T9,10,11... the center of the star of Azoth in the Nadial complex. They were trying to take me out then!

https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Nadial_Complex

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inorganic AI Timelines that are based on the Fibonacci sequence that manifests in Metatronic Reversal, reverse merkaba ratios based on mathematical doubling of harmonics related to number 5, 

These artificially generated Fibonacci Spirals are inorganic, vampiric and created through Alien Machinery and AI technology. This is how the Metatronic Reversal fields were created, as well as the Adverse Sephiroth or Artificial Tree of Life

The Metatronic code is based on two spheres of Bi-Wave Influences of the Vesica Pisces instead of the eternal life three spheres, or Trinity Wave. Metatronic code manifests reverse merkaba ratios which forces peoples Merkabas to spin in ways that prevents Ascension.

The 55 represents the distortion rate of spin at 55 degrees, that formula the NAA uses to horizontally position the timelines therefore the Consciousness or spiritual bodies away from the Krystal Star proportions, which interferes and blocks 10D Krystal Avatar communication. 

Related to Gold Order, Seraphim, Masculine/horizontal grid. Isn't this "redemptive vehicle" sort of? Please teach me more, God. 

This Consciousness grid, the Golden Eagle Grid, is literally the projected collective consciousness and blood of the Seraphim. The Founder races of the Seraphim gave their blood, their genetics, their consciousness to us, the human being. And they, in their love, became the guardians of the horizontals for us to reclaim our race back to Unity Field, the Zero Point Field. They are of the Gold Order, one of the Threefold Founder Flame Rays.  

This area of the Iran Gate is the Anubian Black Heart which is designed to run 10th dimensional current in reversal and scrambled frequencies ( This is called reversal 10 current or Reversal 55 Grid), to block humanity from accessing their Krystal Star extra dimensional family. These reversal frequencies create a Frequency Fence and NET. The broadcast for the False AA Michael channeling are broadcast from here to manipulate the New Age agenda to serve the NAA purposes.^[2] 

Maybe this is related to work I'm doing with Michael...just my work altogether:

Upon the Luciferian Rebellion the Melchizedek lines became infiltrated by the Luciferian forces. The primary infiltration was from Patriarchal Melchizedeks who developed a misogynist bent based on the distortions in the Sophianic Body. These lines started to lose their connection to the Mother principle from the many wars they justified in their beliefs that led them to commit intentional harm to others. 

This is the Fallen Melechizedek's, once a Universal Unity Field consciousness, a faction of this Melchizedek consciousness succumbed to the illusion of inequality between the Gender Principle. This led to a hive mind mentality, which is a Group Consciousness out of balance with unity. This patriarchal slant distorted the original 12 Base code (12D Ray) into 10 base code. 

It takes a lot to get past that Reversal 55 Grid field that how that particular field is generated there's a particular circuit programme that the guardians call Nephilim Reversal NRG and this has to do with the histories of hybridisation and intentional genetic splitting.  

I think I've got more "in common" or work-related to the Luciferian Annunaki:

The hijack of the horizontal grid networks of the Golden Eagle and Phoenix Grid were taken over to create a global brain hemisphere splitting, stage the takeover of the global brain that has led to the Mind Control programming of the people of the earth. These races divide into two major agendas, the Luciferian Annunaki, a hive mind hierarchal reptilian mentality, and the Satanic Black Sun, a materialistic individualist race of misogynist war mongers. Both groups of intruders subscribe to patriarchal domination through elitist mind control agendas,   

All of the above is from: https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Reversal_55_Grid

This is why I don't "trust" many people with my energy field. So much funny business going on and it's connnnnfusing!

The Family of Michael are a part of the rehabilitation of the Fallen Angelic (Seraphim) races by agreeing to be the Guardian of the Horizontal Grids of this Earth System, known as the Golden Eagle Pylon Grid Network System. 

https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Family_of_Michael

 

Coming out of the fog

I think I'm coming out of the fog now... today I had a very good cry... hours of crying. Last year at this time I had to let my BODY die. I had to have that "heart attack" that ended up generating new architecture and bringing me to the next level (which included ES, thanks be to God!)

This year I think I have to let my MIND die. I have to fully surrender into the PRESENT MOMENT. That was the message and confirmed by Troy's card pick. Here in this moment I am surrounded by love. I have an amazing life - I am loved by a man who loves God and others. I am supported and loved and snuggled by our beloved animal companions - Rue, Moses, Sioux, Roody, and the cheekins! 

We have a beautiful life and margin. We don't impose ourselves on others or the government - we work and live and save and are HAPPY for the most part. Maybe Michael and I don't share a sexual attraction ... I'm not attracted to anyone sexually. I'm androgenous. I'm clearing trauma. I'm a polarity integrator. But I am very attracted to Michael's love and our life. 

So what's the problem?

The problem was that I've potentially been deceived all this time because of the dramatic "arranged marriage" situation to Tyrone. Could that have been a hex by Lori, the dark wizard in Pittsburgh? I believe so. I was in a state of bondage and corded and confusion - always feeling like I needed to go back - and not in a sparkly warm way. I believe it was black magic. So maybe the Tyrone thing came out of that. I'm not sure. But I tried. I tried HARD. 

I see how I fell back from faith into the flesh trying to control the situation which felt out of my hands with him. I think he IS a fallen angel and I think I fell too....but by the grace of God, I'm being lifted back up. And maybe it is part of my role to help others like me. I think it's possible he IS one of my genetic equals or soul mates. I recognize the God-spark in him ...but there are also so many distortions and dark portals. 

I think this truly was God bringing it back to me for release. This is the time of year to release density and emotions and memories that no longer serve me. I've been holding on to Tyrone long enough. God has something better for me. Something beautiful! He already gave me the beautiful life I'm living now with Michael, seeking after the truth and heart of God. I'm surrounded by amazing friends and resources and I'm happy. 

Having Tyrone in my field - thinking about past and future related to him and hoping for something to be different than it is (him to be "saved" from reversals, etc.) is a downer... I don't want to be sucked into the Metatronic reversal again. I want to get OFF this dang Reversal 55 Grid. It's time. And the way to do that is to RELEASE TYRONE. 

So I do. I claim it now. 

He is NOT LOVE. He is not embodying love or Christ or truth. He lives in a state of confusion and bitterness. I cannot save him, only God can! Only HE can. I have, by the grace of God, been able to provide seeds...resources...that if he is led, he can research them and free himself. There is much spiritual housekeeping to do for both of us....but he is still in chains. God, please save him. I surrender Tyrone. 

I choose the beautiful benevolent life you've given me! I choose the truth, way, and life that I AM meant to become and embody! 

I wrote:

I want to fully embody LOVE. I want my ego to retire in submission to God/Source/Unity and I want to be free of mind and control and fear. I want to hear and respond to the movement of spirit with ease. I am fully supported and aligned with truth and love, allowing everything to unfold organically. I want to be a pure light unto the world with no selfish motives. Fully LOVE. Fully surrendered.

I choose that.

Thank you for helping me. Thank you for Michael. Thank you for this experience. It's been a wild one. But today I saw. After that nice big cry this morning... now I see more clearly. Tyrone is sad and sick. He is not this incredible God-being double-agent who is pretending to be cloaked in darkness. He truly IS cloaked in darkness. He truly IS tortured. As I have been. This isn't a judgment... just trying to see things in the light of TRUTH. I want him to be rescued. We are all here on a rescue mission, but spinning my wheels on one person isn't useful.... 

Choosing LIGHT. Choosing LOVE. Choosing SERVICE. THAT is useful. Choosing to LEARN and choosing to EMBODY Christ through prayer, meditation, yoga, and generally being available to hear and respond to the spirit of God....THAT'S what my energy should be spent on. 

The sky is magenta! Thanks be to Father God! Wellllll....apparently only I can see the magenta sky. I just went outside to take a picture and the camera isn't seeing it and Michael isn't seeing it. LOL WHOOOOOAHHHHHH!!!!!

What a life! Thank you GOD!!!!
I am free now! I am free now! I am free now!!

I AM God. I AM Sovereign. I AM Free!!!!!

Direct Knowing Overrides Faith

"With True Direct Knowing, faith is not required as your faith is limited to mental beliefs, your knowing radiates the luminescence of your eternal life throughout your body. Once the inner light is illuminated, it overrides all need for mental constructs, beliefs, and intermediaries telling you what is right and what is wrong in the way to connect to God Spirit. ^[3]"

https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Direct_Knowing

I thought "it's not about you"

 You said "it's not about me" in January 2010... but how come it seems like everything I read seems to be exactly about me. This month's newsletter and all the energetic shifts seem to be all about me...

https://energeticsynthesis.com/resource-tools/news-shift-timelines/3669-winter-solstice-gold-body-activation

For example:

Thus, this new harmonic universe creation, the Middle World Domain of HU6 was generated from the purging and eviction of the Black Sun and Black Hole that was the Yahweh Matrix held in the 8D core, in which the black hole entities from Wesa have been evicted from the Galactic Core and Metagalactic core of our Universal Time Matrix. In its place, we have the true sound template of our Holy Mother and Sophianic presence, in which the Holy Mother’s organic nature and morphogenetic pattern has been returned to humanity. 

Isn't this the work I'm doing. And aligning the micro and macro staff to correct the tilt of the earth so that it doesn't keep us pointing toward Abbadon. Is this changing from 23 to 22 degrees? The YHVH Matrix is trying to eat the loosh it's been kicking up... sending it back to the Controllers. 

It's not "me", but it IS our teams.

We are rehabilitating Fallen Angelic consciousness... Metatronic reversals. God is pulling me out and now pulling my beloved out. 

All earthlings will be given the possibility to access this particular Angelic Human Gold Sun DNA blueprint as their personal ascension orb vehicle, which seems to be the corrected morphogenetic pattern of the Gold Sun DNA designed for Fallen Angelic rehabilitation and Seraphim genetic alignment to the Christos architecture. This Gold Sun DNA activation generates a solar consciousness body from the synthesis of the inner polarities that are existing within the lunar consciousness and the metatronic inversion patterns which have been problematic on the earth.  

WE ARE. That's why. It's NOT about "me"... it's about WE ARE - I AM in UNITY.  

Take note:

The Fallen Angelics are largely mutations of the Fallen Seraphim, they are the dark angels that embody the reversal bi-wave consciousness of the Luciferian gestalt forces. The Michael Mary heart twinning is the fulfillment of the seventh cycle of the Christ Michael embodiment for the Gold Ray Seraphim Template in order to resurrect the Fallen Seraphim, or the Fallen Angelic consciousness.

This whole article is about us (Tyrone & I): https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Michael-Mary_Heart_Twinning 

Encouragement from God - may it be a sign representing the heart of my beloved: