So sick last night

 Here's the blog I did about being sick last night but also includes my response to a dear soul who responded to my post about genetic equals:

THANK YOU Stefanie! Yes!! I am grateful for your sharing. I've remember reading another post where you talked about your genetic equal - along the same lines - and it definitely helped me self-discover my own feelings and thoughts around this topic. I appreciate you so much!

When you share your story, it reminds me of my previous husband who I had an "arranged marriage" by God with. I'm sure we were genetic equals.... both carrying so much light and so much dark and we were both dark portals to each other and we were both so damaged in all areas (physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually). When he abruptly left it was the deepest searing pain that I've ever experienced. I wailed and wailed for weeks! I think about him regularly and try to send prayers and intentions for his healing - our healing - in the Light. I wonder if he'll show up again one day and if he will have been doing the work I've been doing. We were intended to "heal each other in love" but there was too much miasma. I guess we'll see how it all unfolds.

So I definitely feel like he was my genetic equal. (This is not a compliment to me, either. Ha! He was very mentally ill....but...yep...that's big for me too... mental body healing.) Anyway, I wonder if there are other genetic equals out there or if we only have one? I deeply connect with some people on a psychic and spiritual level and wonder if that could be the same thing?

Thank you again for your response Stefanie! I really hope that you experience the incredible fulfillment and alignment that Lisa talks about with Tomás, and look at the incredible work they are doing!! Powerful! God bless you and your GE!!

Love,
Carissa

ps. I want to share about my crazy night too - this is a journal entry but I don't want to spam the forum so I'll stick it here.  At 1am I woke up SO SICK… nauseous and stomach hurting and pouring sweat and shaking… I went to the bathroom and it got worse. I emptied my bowels twice and thought I would toss my cookies too (but I didn’t, whew!). I was so weak and messed up that I couldn’t even pull my shorts up, I just kind of rolled off the toilet and sat on the ground for maybe 40 minutes. I had grabbed my audio device to listen to the soothing meditation - shield and core fear - and I think that helped a lot.

In the first waves when I first got to the bathroom - I wondered if this was “it”. Too weak to panic about it. But at some point I closed my eyes and opened my third eye and saw all these colors … like the inside of an optic nerve (or what I think it might look like)… bright vibrant colors (blues, greens, magentas) surrounded by circles of light (or maybe it was the inverse…circles of white surrounded by colors?). That didn’t last long but it was intense and made me wonder if I was getting downloads or if that’s what the door to the astral plane looked like? (If I was dying- ha!)

I had a very intense blood covenant clearing last night before bed - I didn’t “feeeeeeel” it physically (like other times) but I was one with it as I was reading it and I was speaking with conviction. Also I read Olympus’ warning post before bed and was freaked out that something was piggybacking on my field.

So in the middle of the night I didn’t know if it was a dark force or a God one. Awakening or attack? It resulted in confusion none-the-less (which is not good). Right before I ran to the bathroom my dog sat up in bed and looked like he was watching something. All night he was glued to my side and I was worried that whatever it was would come for him next. We’ve had two strange episodes this year with him - one happened in the middle of the night. The first time in April was definitely a NDE - his heart stopped - and since then he seems much more awake …like a little doggie starseed. In October it looked like maybe a seizure but it took a long time for him to come back. I have work to do around surrender, acceptance, and loving the best I can in each present moment with this. But I do wonder if those were “attacks”. So I was concerned for my family too last night.

I listened to the soothing meditation and negative form removal a couple times and then tried the clearing negative form in parallel but it got intense right in the first sphere and I knew there was some major stuff going on. (I did the atomic clearing yesterday… really being intentional about wanting to support/release these ID layers of density). But mostly just listened to the soothing one over and over and over until almost 6am as my nerves settled and I breathed integration into my body.

I'm still not 100% sure if it was an attack or a quickie "kundalini" flu. Judging by the heat, sweat, visions, head pressure, tinnitus, "purging of bowels"... oh! Here's another fun one! I noticed it last year at this time too. The smell of garlic is STRONG around me. Agni shared on her website about how sulfur supports the body and I believe it repels dark forces so I thought it was neat to smell it last night. Last year I thought something was wrong with me to smell like that (I was going through some major upgrades then too)...now I see how I was supported by God and my body in these incredible ways!!) So. It was what it was. I'm feeling better now and grateful for the experience (in hindsight. Not keen on going through that again anytime soon). We just keep trucking.

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Here's my response to Olympus' post last night:

Ack!! Olympus, thank you! I don't know if I just tapped into that when I read your note - like maybe I just felt the signature you were talking about OR if I am holding that resonance and the perpetrator or a dark portal for one? Ack! I will just sit with this ... or change focus actually, it's time for blood covenant clearing... but wanted to just share that I felt it too and confess that it is not my intention if I am bringing this in. I'm working on ego mind clearing - the time is ripe for some 1D/ unconscious mind shadows to be released so that my 2D/pain body can stop trying to fire up v/V or any of the archontic deception strategies !

Thank you for this note of warning/attention. I love and appreciate you all and this container. I know I have been and surely can still be a dark portal and just want to own that in case it helps diminish its power. My job is to drag the darkness into the light. In this case I can't really see what's going on and like I said, maybe I'm just strongly picking up on that energy that you're referencing... but ... yeah.... you get it.

With love (and obviously some unbalanced shame or panic or something). Time to step away from the computer.