Miracle genetic equal appearance - whoa!

 I don’t know where to begin…

Maybe at the MIRACLE? Maybe whining about the lack of sleep I got because I’ve been integrating and processing? No, that’s pain body.

Stefanie, and all, a MIRACLE has happened!!!!! How is this possible?? My genetic equal showed up!!! After years and years of him being lost (only one cryptic message from him years ago) for 5+ years and yesterday God let me find him!

A few days ago after a meditation I was listening to whale song and was singing and crying along with them - sending heart sonar out to my genetic equal - powerful (and I know, strange) experience… but so beautiful! And I’ve been talking about it here some and in private communications with friends and doing my own work trying to understand.

I’ve been stepping into truth and authenticity. The other day I had a very honest conversation with my current partner and we talked (again) about how I felt that I was actually married to Tyrone (genetic equal) and how it created levels of confusion. Now I know that the work Michael and I are doing is important - we are helping each other (mostly he is helping me. He radiates LOVE.) I liken it to him being an "ascending hub" and Tyrone was like a “descending hub” when we were together. (We were together for 3.5 years 2011-2015)

Ty’s and my Avatar or Monad brought us together in 2011. It was a tremendous act of faith and surrender (on my 3D Carissa), but it was God-led. There are a lot of difficulties with him … with both of us … standard negative ego stuff, but on top of that he had sustained a very significant TBI and was/is quite mentally unstable as a result. 3 years into our marriage I also sustained a head injury and broken sacrum (why God?!!) and as a result I was no longer able to “hold together” the way I needed to. (Note, my “holding together” was in my flesh and resulted in massive control dramas.)

I just knew he was my divine partner though. When he abruptly left (hello abandonment and betrayal issues), I have never been more broken in my life. My heart shattered to a billion pieces. I no longer trusted myself so I begged Michael (a minister of patriarchal domination) to “take me as his woman” … I gave myself to him and said “here…. I’m yours. I can’t do this anymore.” I was a mess… riddled with demons and fear and in a prison lashing out as my pain body… living as my pain body. But his love and influence and patience and kindness helped me to climb out of the pit. I’m so grateful. But my heart wasn’t mine to give. It always belonged to the one who God gave me to - Tyrone. I’ve written briefly in another post about my “arranged marriage”, but suffice it to say, it was in itself a miracle.

This brings me to today... yesterday…
For years I would randomly look for him and yesterday God let me find him. He had opened a Facebook account just 3 days prior and had one friend on there. No coincidences. I sent him a message of love - apologizing for the damage I did to cause him to leave and letting him know that I still care and a few plugs for ES and the Ascension Glossary - ha! I thought it was likely that he would block me but after many internal conversations reminding me to come back to still-point yesterday, late last night he responded… and he is still POWERFUL. I was so relieved to see that he is awake and conscious! He wrote to me about black holes and portals and timelines (not in an ES context, but he’s awake!!)

He also wrote to me about Lucifer. I see that there are Luciferian claws there… work that we need to do. It’s part of our contract.

Last night I could feel the energetic integration in my wings and back …6th & 7th sphere and I’ve been dealing with a lot of energetic blockage in the center of my back… I think it’s where my vagal nerve comes through maybe. But in the wee hours I could feel it pooling in my 3rd and 4th spheres as it was trying to ground through. I still have much to do with opening up my pathways to embody spirit. Just wild to feel new integration that I knew was related to this.

SO. Here we are. I’m confused … currently as I’m writing I’m being bathed in golden light by the rising sun and it’s incredible!! I can hardly see through it but want to keep writing…

This assignment is very big and I’m not sure how to progress. Nevermind. I am. God reminded me this morning that my job is to “compassionately witness”. This allows light in without my ego trying to push/pull. I feel like he’s got a ton of miasma and cords and dark energy and he’s still very divided and sick in his mental bodies. (Like me…mmhmm.) But even though his 3D self is not well, his God-self is very alive and powerful and that is (still) my divine partner.

But I’m with Michael. Poor Michael. I love him (as a companion) and my life with him is so beautiful.
God will lead in all this… will sort it all out. My word of the week is “obedience”… I’ve had to do/say some uncomfortable things again. Just stretching my faith legs and letting go of ego. It’s part of the war. I’m stepping back in to faith.

But how do I protect myself from his energy? (Anyone with answers, please feel free to chime in with experience or thoughts!) I need to shield. But it’s like we share an energetic container. I felt last night that the structure was being worked on… maybe structures that we are working on together - our energetic structure. I was led to the Law of Structure (Michael-Mary Wings) meditation in the middle of the night. No doubt we are connected. Last night as I was trying to go to sleep I saw dark beings who I’d never encountered before. I knew they were from/through him. So I hope that as I remain in the Light the same experience will come through for him. But how do I not get sucked down a descending hub again? Maybe that was was just all part of my training. Dark arts training FOR SURE. Daaaaang. Yep. This whole thing. WOW.

So breathe. Take it one day… one moment at a time. I’ve been doing big clearing work and have much more to do, but this miracle has come through as a result of … well I can’t take credit… all the work that ALL of you/us in Unity are doing and being as a part of Christ-Sophia.

So go back and read… and study and surrender into your Solar Feminine Melchizedek job description.
Most importantly, BREATHE.



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Just read this - didn't get it from God directly - saw it in someone else's journal but it made me wonder if all this is related in some way to this Consettia thing?

https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Consettia

I got up this morning with what seemed like semen coming out of me. Thicker than regular juices but I never have regular juices come out either. It was strange. I've been doing the Hydrogen Peroxide implant(https://drlwilson.com/Articles/PEROXIDE-IMPLANT.htm) so it could be related to healing from that. Or to connecting with my divine partner again.

Let God lead. Fear has no dominion here. (I fear getting trapped again... duped into sliding into the anti-Kristos fields. I do feel my permanent seed atom coming on line and feel like this is all part of restoration and healing. So I need to remain diligent and continue practicing good spiritual housekeeping and just allow my guidance and support teams to pull away that which is not beneficial. Tyrone could be:

1. Restoration of my hieros gamos partner and movement toward working in unison for our shared mission.

2. An opportunity to observe and learn. I feel like I would have seen that when we interacted. When I just looked at him in the 3D lens, he doesn't seem well... saying silly things and listening to dark music, for example. But when he talked to ME, I saw his God-self. The one that I know. He was seeking truth and courageously looking at state of our world. He is a hero. 

3. All a big trick to get me to destroy the safety and relationship I have with Michael. Although it's not the powerful love that I experienced with Tyrone, it is comfortable companionship. But as I heal my energy bodies I think I want to have a divine union in the future. Not yet, but one day. And I don't know how that would work out. I don't feel comfortable having relations with Michael as I know he isn't my true love. 

Yeah... this Permanent Seed Atom thing is pinging and our wings are forming and we are learning about our role and job. So just keep going. That wasn't given to you by God. Tricksters want to use it to throw arrows of doubt.