Today's Thoughts - Nephilim DNA strand requiring meat, be a servant, and sharing experiences

Letter that I did not post in the forum:

Dear Agni,

I have said before how much I appreciate your wisdom and I would like to say it again! I am SO appreciative of all you have shared here! 

Hopefully this is an appropriate place to ask this question. I hear what you are saying about eating only food that supports the body’s ability to draw, hold, and integrate plasma light. It sounds like eating animal flesh actually blocks that process (maybe because it’s another being's consciousness that interferes)? I have tried a couple times in my life to become vegetarian and have gotten very sick. Even now… this last year… I’ve tried to cut way back on meat and WISH I could quit it altogether but it feels like my body requires it. Is this a reversal or could it be that I really need it? I know you can’t answer for me - that I am accountable to listen to my own body - but I did wonder if you had any thoughts on whether a Nephilim bloodline or DNA strand could cause one to require meat? And a follow up question is if you think I could starve this Nephilim strand out by not eating meat and just suffering through the sickness? I supposed it would depend on if it is the kind of sickness (detox or withdrawn maybe) that one can suffer through or will my body just break? Any thoughts on any of the above would be appreciated by Agni or anyone else who might have some experience.

If this is an inappropriate place to ask this question, please disregard with my apologies!

With gratitude,

Carissa

I did not send this… I got a ton of support by just re-reading her material entitled “meat or no meat”. I really think I need to move toward “no meat”… but I need to do it wisely. I am hoping for nutrition support with Charlotte - I just sent an email to schedule an appointment for homeopathy/nutrition… so we’re going to get on the right path here. 

I think the Nephilim DNA strand may set us up to have a "blood thirst"... so we may think we need meat but that is from reversals... if I can correct the reversals and clear the Saturn Blood Covenant and other Nephilim reversal programs and archontic deception strategies, then I may not "need" meat anymore. 

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Thoughts upon waking after a dream-filled night. Two separate thoughts but both good.

1. It's a reversal. Instead of waiting on the world - God - other people - to serve ME, I AM the servant! I must serve God and others. I've spoken with my lips that I am a servant. But the truth is that I have an entitlement issue and reversal current that has left me expecting to be served and catered to.

2. I tell people that I can relate to try to comfort them and give them a reason why I'm qualified to speak. I'm trying to illicit their respect - giving what I write some authority since I can relate. But I don't need to do that. It puts energetic pressure on them to care about me.

Yesterday in a response in the forum I could relate to what someone said but instead of sharing my experience (which may be necessary sometimes), I just provided what they asked for - a thought on the thing. I don't know what's right... maybe it depends on the situation? But in general I am trying to see where I create cords...where I TRY to create cords... where I have been practicing vampirism and all the tricky angles I use (subconsciously) to feed off others' energy. 

Life is between me and God. I AM God... so it's between me and my Avatar God-self and everything else can work around and with that... but I need to look for my "energy" "information" "validation" "connection" all through my OWN interactions between me and Me.

I want to share all my "aha" moments and "brilliant" journaling (like this, my ego thinks) on my ES journal, but WHY? What's the benefit? I do that to "try to model or teach" something... it's still a pushing/pulling. 

Even now I'm struggling with this... feeling a nudge to put it out there.... but who's doing the nudging? There is a HUGE benefit in that as I share in the ESF container, that it DOES seem to spur more Guardian support in my life.... but is that how I've set it up? Couldn't I have the same support regardless of blathering my mind-soup? I don't know. 

YES.

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Judgement:

The people in the forum are "beautiful people" and "beautiful beings" with "beautiful words".... I do not feel like I fit in. I guess I first need to overcome the nephilim program and integrate Mother Arc and then I might be beautiful too. In the meantime I feel like a neadrathal compared to them.

I felt like a neandrathal with Joe too. 

Why did I get so disgusting with Joe? Why did I blow up to a thousand times the correct size - 225 lbs (maybe more). ESPECIALLY before my wedding? (Because you shouldn't have gotten married.... you had cognitive dissonance but suppressed it and didn't listen to the voice within that loves you. So the toxicity started manifesting in your body - as holding on to things... food and FAT ... showing that you weren't processing life. You were shutting down. You used to use alcohol to numb ... and still did when I got married, really, but it wasn't enough. And the alcohol added to the calories ... but it was an emotional state manifesting in your physical state. 

Same with Tyrone.

When Tyrone left you lost weight. Michael has not caused you to gain... much... maybe even lost some. You will lose more weight as you embody your Avatar Christos and align with the truth of who you are.  But you need to listen.... and respond accordingly. The food... nourishment... piece is the biggest one (STILL). lol