Love Myself

Tomorrow, for Valentine's Day, I will reclaim my love for my body and self. I see how just a little bit of milk and honey... innocent lattes... not even lattes... just foamy milk and honey... triggers and enslaves me. These are "sweet tastes"... these are sweets that pull me off center and away from my health and well-being. I choose ME. I choose HEALTH. 

I have stuck to my commitment for 14 days so far... 2 weeks... to only eat animals foods (and supplements and seasonings and tea). I haven't eaten many seasonings but feel that the little barbeque sauce I had that one or two times felt wrong. But I guess it's not. It's a seasoning.

I am ADDING a new commitment for the rest of the month. "NO SWEET TASTES". That means no more honey. And I know milk triggers me too.... and it's not good for me and it makes me fatter. I want to teach my body to USE fat as an energy source, not to store it. The best way I can take care of myself is to only eat meat....and I can use cheese as a condiment as the guy Paul likes (Dr. Chaffee I think) says. 

I love you. You felt this. You didn't do anything wrong. I mean... you did. You got out of control after you had the milk and honey "latte"... in the end I had 3...or 4? And I had 2 (or 3?) plates of turkey bacon, brie, and honey. I was out of control. I want to maintain control. 

I watched hours and hours of TV too. 

So. I see.

I am committed for the month and then we can try adding vegetables if we want to...to see how that affects us. But we want to do a month of animal products only... meat... and now no more sweets! (I didn't have many... the first time I saw how it spiked my anxiety and decided not to again. But I did it again last night at the Superbowl party and that triggered my binge today. So only 3 (maybe 4) days.... but NO MORE. 

Thank you God!