WHY did I start carnivore?

Well the main reason I started Carnivore is because Paul found it and has encouraged me. I don't think I would have gone down this road otherwise. I know that sugar isn't my friend but hadn't heard of anti-nutrients before...or thought of them in that way. Although I had heard from Charlotte that oxalates and polyols were coming up as not good for me. 

But I have not felt as bad or sick as I did in December into January for a long time. I think it's from ascension symptoms, but maybe I'm getting upgraded to a body that DOES NOT DO SUGAR or other crap. Does it do honey? Honey is an animal food? I think I used to react to honey because of my B-Vitamin deficiency but it seems okay now.  Or does it? It seems like anything I eat is making me feel bad. 

I am dehydrated so often!

But in December and January anytime I would eat, I would feel sick. Woozie, unwell, inflamed. I have been dealing with dizziness...which, again, I'm sure is related to planetary ascension... but it's quite uncomfortable. And my blood sugar seems to be having some serious trouble.

I got a cold and maybe sinus infection in January and that made me feel bad/worse. I just didn't feel good in my body. I feared diabetes but I fear the doctor so I don't want to find out. I'm just going to heal my body... help it to have the environment to heal. I think I've got chronic infections. I've definitely been having some serious nerve...central nervous system... issues and discomfort. My left side especially. Since carnivore it's been my left foot....but also continued left arm and shoulder and sometimes headaches.

I also get boils...hydrentitis suppertiva. My hair was falling out so badly - especially in December... and into January. It's getting better now. Still falling out but not as bad.

I'm on my 7th day of full carnivore. My only "cheats" have been chamomile tea, supplements, and 2 coffee enemas so far. Mmmm, and yesterday I had a 1/4 tsp of decaf coffee crystals to make a latte. Today I'm going to try another one with just honey, butter, and milk...sprinkled with some salt.

Anyway, I felt bad. Out of body. Sick and getting sicker. I still feel disconnected and woozy. I am having some real weakness when I wake up. Oh... lack of energy is a big thing too. That's been going on a long time.

And the BIGGEST thing always is the dang ANXIETY. Always plaguing me. I feel disconnected and ungrounded and in such fear. I want to heal all these free-floating anxiety OUT!!

Mineral imbalance? Probably.

I need to take some copper, I think. Maybe not. The dousing crystal just gave me an ambiguous (up and down) answer. (It also just confirmed that I am healing and on the right path, thanks be to God!)

6/6:06 (been seeing 6:06 a bunch... and 9:11 lately and 10:10.... working these indigo pieces on healing the NRG, I'm guessing.)

I forgot to mention that it seemed my kidneys and bladder were having some big problems too. I was peeing often... not a lot of pee sometimes... but I'd wake sometimes every hour at night to pee... or close to it. And that twitch in my left cheek. 

I'm sure there's more. I should write it down. 
I just weighed myself and I was 164.6 which is very good for me.

I talked to Jeff tonight... he called which was nice. I sure love him a lot. But he is really messed up. He told me that he's taking methadone for the pain that he's experiencing. 

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6/9:52 Thank you God for allowing me to be a part of this work. I feel that I just had a transit session... I had some left chest pains come through and I was called away to be with them. I sat on my cushion in the living room and felt and prayed and cried and burped. It's been a while since I've been able to do that. I hope it is because my vessel is being retuned to be supportive. If I can remain in love... lighter...and healthier... I can be of use. Thank you God. 

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Thank you God for also keeping me in the loop the way you do... the perfect way. Pulling the 5D Higher Mind meditation yesterday and all the Egypt clues... it's all tied in... and it feels related to the earthquakes today...some thing was shaken in Turkey and Syria. God, please take care of the creatures... the humans and animals who are hurting and in fear and loss and grief... OH GOD, please!! 

I just found the 2/3/23 update on ESF and am downloading it now. I've got to wait to do it. 

"Dismantling Saqqara Metatronic Net Hyperdimensional Field connected to the Christos holocaust timelines:"

This is also why I've been seeing 9:11... it's all tied together. Thank you God for pulling me back in! This is what we are working on, Beloved. This is why you are here, precious one. Don't fear when your consciousness is busy with other things... you are a part of this mission working to love and heal the earth. We are also wanting to love and heal you and your architecture and ego, etc, love. All in good time. You are doing great! I AM HERE. I am too. Thank you!!! Thank you! (These look like enthusiastic thank yous and they are but they are coming along with tears.) 

The Sirius and Canopis meditation that I pulled this afternoon must have to do with supporting planetary alignment as well. 

This is what I was trying to write earlier but it didn't come out right... where I said that I need to stay positive... I was thinking of this.

"We can direct Negative Polarity, Positive Polarity and Neutral point as positions for energy to manifest, and the quality of the manifested thing will reflect that same vibration within the creation point of its structure."

(from my AG pick today: https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Manifestation)

Being in the positive and neutral point is where I sure like it better. But I also came to explore the Negative, so give myself a break and a pat on the back for being willing and doing the work. It's not easy but I am with you always. I think it was really helpful to sit in the sun today. Thank you for the sun today, God.