Today

I guess I just want to journal... maybe brain dump. I had a possible inspiring thought or clarity come through (while I was listening to the OL Fear Removal meditation) about my fear around that DNA diet test. I wonder if maybe the fact that I WAS eating that way - macrobiotic diet - when I was tested was why it showed up that way? That my body could process carbs but not so much protein or fat. With the "epigenetics" discussion about how we turn our genes on and off based on lifestyle... I wonder if with this new diet, carnivore, which is supposedly based on the natural human make up, perhaps the low (zero) carb diet with fat as an energy source will turn on those genes so that it doesn't show up that my body can't process fat. Because it CAN. It wants to. I just didn't give it a chance to before because I was eating so many plants, sugar, and seed oils...all of which were making me sick. 

But there will be a transitional period here and I need to be strong through it and support my body. I'm 2 days in to full-bore Carnivore. I have bought SO MUCH MEAT lately. I've spent HUNDREDS of dollars on meat. Today I went to get some fat trimmings and came home with $40 in oxtail and 6 pounds of marrow bones (as well as 2lbs of beef fat trimmings). 

I love me. I want to love me more.