Random Musings

 Ahhhhh!! Rosemary!! Look at this love note I just found!! Bless you! Thank you!!! (I'm sorry I didn't see it earlier. Maybe I unsubscribed somehow from my own thread? Ha! I'll check that out. THANK YOU!!) I got it now though, in DRT, so it's all good! So much love and appreciation to you for the love notes you leave so many ... they are kind and soothing nuggets for our souls. 

Today's musings stemmed from my glossary pick:  ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Alien_Implants  > "Tracking Important Releases of AI Implants”

Reptilian Tail  is observed as Alien Implants on the base of the coccyx which are used to stop the lower three bodies (1D-2D-3D) from forming into a merkaba spinning field which allows for drawing in higher source fields from the higher  Soul  planes and the  Monadic  planes for the spiritual  Lightbody .It is designed to block  Kundalini  activation while feeding the lower  Negative Ego  mental body complex.

I’ve been wondering if the terribly painful and inexplicable tailbone pain that I’ve been experiencing since January 4th this year is related to the healing of a reptilian tail. I know Lisa has talked about this since last year so I feel good about it - on track - strong and grateful for the shift....but it's definitely unpleasant. I have pain in my left side as well that I think is related to my 4th sphere maybe moving upwards as my energetic body morphs to the next stage.

Along with this thought about reptilian tail (which is often what came to me when it would hurt so bad at night. It might be better now).... but I am trying to understand the “reptilian” influence. Dear Roseanne has a lot of knowledge about reptilians as a species and has motivated me to try to pay more attention. For some reason I had lumped reptilians in with Nephilim and Annunaki but that's not right. The latter are human or angelic types/hybrids, while reptilians are lizards. I believe that I have Annunaki/Nephilim influence that I am working with, but waiting to unpack this reptilian piece.

Back to that bullet point: I have exploded and absent 1-3rd chakras (spheres too?) in some dimensions/timelines (likely to be this one or one that I’m currently collapsing)… so this is aligned with my experience and I feel confident that we are on the road to recovery!!

Scalar Tagging  has been used on 4D astral plane by extra-dimensionals for quite a long time. With inner vision, some versions of them may appear like dark "jacks" or "confetti" splattered around your aura field. 

I have also noticed a TON of these little shadows floating around my field. I used to see a couple here and there but lately it’s like confetti as Lisa described. The first time I noticed how many of them there were I was talking to a friend and I thought that maybe these were HIS but they’ve stayed with me so I guess it was just the light or maybe even his and/or his wife’s energy fields that triggered my HSP. I don’t know. But this hit home for rme. 

While we're on the topic of strange visual occurrences, I have ALSO noticed a bunch of little aurora rainbow dots… it’s hard to describe but it looks like maybe what it might look like if you were under the surface of water when it was raining on the water, the little drop lands and expands with rainbow rings coming out of it. Anyone have any insight. The fact that they are rainbow makes me feel good about these. The other ones are dark shadows and they do not make me feel good, though I have hope that they are brought to my attention for the purpose of healing/removal... first I noticed them and now I'm learning what they are. God is with us.  

Both the rainbow drops and the shadows are actual visuals, not inner vision stuff. Same with the ray colors that I keep talking about. Actual colors. The green and purple colors are seen more with inner vision. I wonder what’s “real” and what’s artificial? Hard to know. Just have to keep walking.

Metatronic Implants  - are  Metatronic Reversals  connect to  Metatronic Implants  in the shadow body or  Negative Form  that are designed to reverse and drain life force out of the earth body and the human body. The shadow body or  Negative Form  must be cleared from the human  Lightbody  in order to reconnect the ascending potential of the twelfth dimensional template of the human body.

There were a few days lately that I sensed (hoped!!) that my body was getting upgrades to connect to the organic source of life and Holy Mother. It felt like I was getting the life drained out of me but I wondered if maybe it was because I was being disconnected from an inorganic cord that was both fueling and funneling from me. I thought maybe it left me a little depleted because I was building pathways to connect to the organic matrix aligned with Christ Sophia I AM. I was led to do the Umbilicus reset a few times during the time I was sensing this the strongest so I do think it’s related.

Baby steps. I always think I’m so much farther along than I am, but even so, I’m going in the right direction right now. Each breath, each thought, each action is an opportunity to choose directions. 

Since I’m chatting, I also want to throw my hat in about feeling the Victim/Victimizer energy. The other night I was led to do the VV meditation . Sleep has been hard to find lately (until last night - last night I got some!) I woke up at 12:34 3:55 and 5:53, but otherwise good! Side note: is there something I’m Supposed to DO with those numbers? I track them but, for instance, last night I knew that 3:55 and 5:53 were nudging me re: the NRG grid, so I brought consciousness to it and a prayer for God’s help and presence, but what else do people do?

I am torn because I make myself sound stupid and naive when I have so much understanding and wisdom, but often it’s just on different layers in my consciousness experience. It’s there and it is accessible when needed, but when it’s not needed and my inner child wants to communicate or connect with other people, I just work out of this space of ignorance (which isn’t TRUE…it’s a lie in a way… not in a way, but in a way it is.) It’s forced… push-pull energy. It’s not who I AM. Who I AM is supposed to just BE and NOT “try to connect” with others (manipulation of experience), who I AM is meant to be present in the flow and allow life to live through me. So the problem is my “me” trying to … well, “TRYING” to do anything. JUST DO. Dang. Well thanks be to God for that information too. So what do I do with it? Erase all this? Share the process? 

New Topic:
I was going to delete this story re: energy vampirism (triggered by the metatronic implant bullet) but I think I’ll leave it. 
I’ve been conscious of the life being sucked out of me. I know I’ve talked in the past of being an energetic vampire, but I also have had the pleasure of BEING vampirized by a starseed sister who is like me… she really is like a twin… a stronger, more powerful, more intelligent, more empathic twin. In fact, she was brought the term “energy vampire” to my field in 2016 and accused me of this, which I initially pushed back on, of course…but then I saw. 

However, turns out that she was one too. Anytime I talked to her I felt like she was like making copies of me and like she was becoming me in a way…feeding on my soul essence... hard to explain, but it made me want to protect myself.  She was/is so caring and always asked me about myself but when I shared it I felt like it was food for her in some way. Again, she doesn’t know this… it was happening energetically. (And I see now how I do/did this too!!)

She lives a half-a-country away so I don’t see her in person often - maybe once a year for the past 4 years - and every time I was with her I would also get so drained. It happens on the phone too, but in person it is magnified. Last year we went on a little mini-vaca together and I found myself so depleted and I started getting snappy because I just felt attacked (though she was definitely NOT attacking me…she was being so kind and lovely and becoming even more energetic and bright. I see now that it was her (subconsciously) feeding off my energy as fuel. Thanks be to God for this experience and opportunity to learn. I have wondered for years if I should tell her, but I don’t think so. I’ve tried to share ES materials with her to no avail for a couple years so I just have to trust the process.

One more thing…this friend does energy work and I used to be so grateful for her support and insight, but I’ve been declining her offers for a few months. This past week she offered again and I felt bad so I let her. I tried to honor an energetic exchange and sent her some money so that it would be on the up-and-up. (In the past she has done it for free … sometimes I’ve paid her and sometimes I’ve traded services with her….but it’s always a little blurry and since she is a dear friend - we share our lives and truly think of ourselves as sisters it just seemed okay to let her care for me in that way and she always said she really wanted to. Anyway, I wanted to put an end to the blur and try to put some energetic boundaries around it.) Unfortunately it was still not clear-cut and finally, this week, I told her that I really didn’t want her to access my field now … that I’m trying to close up portals of consciousness. She explained that it was God that was accessing me, not her, and I told her I understood but it’s just what I feel to do now. So I feel good about that. 

ONE MORE THING - I wanted to start a thread to just thank all the the amazing people who are saving us through the work they are doing! I for sure feel like I am being rescued and am beyond grateful to those who are supporting the gridwork to help get us out of the webs and wormholes we’ve been stuck in. BUT I also realized this is perpetuating the Hero/Savior complex. My idea that I need to be rescued and looking at others as heroes who are saving me is more negative ego plaything… so I want to both honor my gratitude and the work and call out the stickiness of my hero complex. 

Believe it or not, this is just a drop in the hat of my world. We’ve got SO MUCH going on on so many timelines. OH SHOOT….okay, ONE MORE THING… last one, I promise. (I hope.)

I had this realization last week about DETOX. You know how we are detoxing our bodies so that the toxins can move out? Well I am also detoxing my mind, emotions, and spirit. My energy body as a whole. All four bodies need detox and help supporting the detox pathways. People like me who are so “toxic” are highly sensitive to stimuli. EMF, mind control, implants, all the NAA games, etc. 

My detox pathways in my physical body are all clogged up with heavy metals, old pharmaceuticals, and other junk so when I try to support the body with a new supplement I have to go very “low and slow”. At one point I was cutting a single vitamin in 5 or 6 pieces or shaving off just a tiny piece because one vitamin could cause herxheimer reactions that kept me bedridden for days thinking I was dying! Anyway… this actually applies to all four of my energy bodies. I am opening pathways for stored emotional traumas and stored mental beliefs and ideas that were never understood or processed and have poisoned my body… gotten stuck as “biounavailable” pieces in my energy body. When they start to fester they create disease states. 

I think many of the young indigos and those “on the spectrum” are also just coming in with such gunked up detox pathways (passed on through genes and perpetuated by environmental factors)… and since they are designed to be moving so much spiritual energy, they get caught in this herxheimer reaction on a spiritual level (and all levels). We need to go low and slow and build pathways for all our four bodies.

I’ve never been big into TV but I’ve watched a moderate amount of television and movies and I know that when I watch one, especially these past few years when I’m already processing so much, I have a really hard time working it (the drama in the TV show) though my system… I can watch an hour long show and it can take a day or more to work it all out emotionally (depending on what it is). I remember the first time I noticed that was when I watched Titanic in the theatres … I realized that on some level I BECAME those characters and lived their experiences. I guess I did this through books as well. I always liked to read. So I wonder how these external dramas affect our four-body detox pathways?

Okay…stopping…..
Thanks be to God for all the lessons these days. 
I am grateful to be here with you all.
Love,
Carissa