So blessed

10:23. I saw 9:23. I saw SO MANY numbers lately, thank you God!

10:24 now.

24, 48, 54 are regulars now too.

I was too tired to talk well but had a loving talk with Kirk tonight. I really love him. I was in love with the being that I thought was him from the dead... I think we could be lovers (his higher self and my higher self)... our avatars. But our earth people are jaaaaacked up! But I have a lot of love for him and today he seemed to even listen to me... to care about what I say. I wasn't used to it and it messed me up a little. I'm used to talking to the air....throwing things out there ..and I got sloppy. But tonight he even shared with me about my chart.... said stuff that I need to go back and read...it was good stuff. Something about how this year I'm working on finding the right nutrients to support my body and health. Something about my 6th house. I wish there were a way to copy our whole conversation ... it's fascinating to me. But I am holding too closely...clinging to this Indigo3 idea... this thing where I am rehabilitating Nephilm consciousness. As Diana said (I had an amazing session with her today...what a gift. I didn't know what to expect but it was neat.)...she said that I have ...and I've heard this before...it's like bigger than...different than an I3 contract. I'm somehow supporting the healing, forgiveness, witnessing, and loving of this giant consciousness which ISN'T me... but this which I think I'm feeling as me isn't me. I'm here to see the holographic reality. And understand so that I (WE) can reverse engineer the distortions. There's something about my mirroring ability. Which I had not looked at as a gift, but apparently it is. And what's this 10:33 with the mirror and seeing my gestalt friends, other stations of identity? Monadic parts?

I saw a lovely shooting star tonight. And one last night.

And Jupiter was really bright and like a LIGHT in the sky. Kirk talked about Jupiter being 12 times the earth... I don't know what he was saying...but it was relevant. Jupiter. And it was so bright tonight.

I wish Michael wasn't involved in blood sacrifice. He said he'll never give it up. So we can live in peace until next Passover. But we can't be equally yoked. But we can keep working at chipping away at the patriarchal domination. Is this why I AM as I AM with him? I felt guilty as though I'm narcissistic or lazy, but I am what I am meant to be...also I'm working on so many things beyond our consciousness. Everything is perfect as it is. 

God, thank you!

A great lunch and time with Deirdre today too. I'm surrounded by beautiful friends and so many blessings. Today lunch with Dee for 2-3 hours, 2 hours with Diana, and hour talking to Kirk, and hour or two talking to Davin (working...another HUGE blessing is that Braden is giving me the opportunity to take on a new roll helping with hiring and I get a raise! DOUBLE pay! I hope I can do well and keep it!!)  I've worked a LOT this week... menu changes, tap handle design, miscellaneous things like press kit and children's menu, new job with hiring, setting up for videographers tomorrow!

OH - Michael took us on a family walk around Bonnie lane and I feel that when I was in clear site of the water tower which now has a weaponized 5G tower on it, I felt "they" were trying to beam me. I suddenly got very weak and was going deaf in my right ear. Right. It was interesting. I covered the back of my head/neck and started praying and shielding and walking fast, but anxiety came. And my right ear is still clogged.

Just pay attention and don't worry about the rest. God's got me. There is no death. Just do this mission 10:43 to the best of my ability and that's it. LOVE WELL. 

10:44 I was trying to decide if I should send Diana $77 for that painting from our class... I feel it was me. But it was her. And we are One. I will sleep on it. I don't have more money right now. I splurged on our session. Next time I'll buy some art. That's it. 

Or maybe more. 

I need to do thank you notes. 

I'm pooped. 

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23:23. 11:33. AND I got my first interview scheduled! Feeling excited!